#6.1.2024

[puregrief]

حاسة إن اللي كانوا بيقولوا لو مسمعتش أم كلثوم يبقى أنت لسه محبتش عندهم حق بصراحة. مش لحاجة غير إن كلمات أحمد رامي هي كلمات المُحب الحقيقي، فلو محستش كلماته اللي الست غنيتها يبقى أنت محبتش لأ. جود لاك في المرة القادمة. جود لاك عامةً عشان هتحتاجه.

[butha1ina]

İ wish i could hold her in my arms one more time and give her lil scratches under the chin that she liked so much. I wish i'd went in search for her the night she got out instead of thinking she d be back that by dawn like she always was. I wish she didn t die alone and afraid. I wish i was there to save he . I wish i d find her sooner so maybe i could have gave her the help she needed. I wish i wasn’t such a fucking mistake and i wish i was there for her when she needed me. my life is empty without you but in my heart you’ll always be my dearst darling ginger bear

[louisupdates]

sprinkles_and_sponge All Red 😍♥️

[A local bakery posted Louis’ birthday cupcakes. 6.1.2024. Lottie had shared these cupcakes on her Instagram.]

[nei-ning]

Many weird dreams from last night. In first my sis was playing some video game so I helped her to find items etc. In one point we noticed one team member is missing. A male vampire demon. We found him outside in medieval town. He was laying in a little fenced animal area where was pile of poo, human corpse with flies etc. He had long black horns forward and between them small area of reddish-brown hair (like Crowley's hair style curl from Good Omens).

He was alive but his chin and neck had bad burns, skin looking like melted cheese. He sat up and spoke slow in a hissing way, like snake. What I managed to hear from him, he said he would allow himself to be burned again if it would save his friends (meaning all of us his team mates). He stayed behind to begin with to save someone from very intense fire. He survived.

In next dream I was in a house with sis and someone else. Sis had ordered 2 huge boxes of things (vitamins, kitchen supplies, toilet papers etc). I was given a time limit to use on unpacking those boxes. I failed miserably each time! :'D in first round I didn't even find the clock to check the time. I'm second time I still had 32min left and I thought I can easily unpack the rest of the stuff in that time. Bullshit xD in last time I had time left 3,28 seconds. I gave up.

In other dream I was on the walk, suddenly just ending up in this room which was some kind of animal shelter. There was a woman who clearly couldn't care less at being there. She worked there but she was doing crosswords. Across her was bigger cat, looking like Verti. I actually didn't see him but I knew he was there. I heard his voice in my head. He said: "My heart hurts..." I instantly told about this to the worker who just groaned and said: "He keeps saying that." I was shocked! That cat was clearly and seriously ill and she did nothing! I wrapped this cat in white towels, rushing through this tiny hallway, finding a vet in the same place. I told her the situation as she started to listen to his heart. I asked will he survive but she shook her head, saying it's already too late for him. He either died there and then or she was going to put him down, end his pain.

In last dream mom took me to see my uncle who said to me he knows someone leaked out the information to me. I was scared since I thought he was talking about another thing but then he said: The seal. I need to know can you kill it." I said I won't hesitate to kill an animal if it's suffering. Just give me a riffle and I kill it. He seemed pleased so we headed out. The seal was supposed to be in the middle of the road where uncle had moved it, hoping someone to drive over it but we lived in rural area. The seal was found at the base of a tree near the road.

Uncle was holding a huge knife. He was going to pierce seal's head with it but I noticed how the seal opened it's eyes, being responsive. I yelled my uncle to halt and he did. This seal had long healing wounds all around it's body but no blood. It looked a bit tired but otherwise good and healthy. I told my uncle we should try to save it since it was energetic enough to be given a second chance. We just would need to find / get it fishes and see if food would help it as a first aid.

Uncle's friend, who I don't know, came there and she had a tracking collar for sheep but it was put on the seal, just in case. Then next we were in a car and this seal was in my lap. We drove past my childhood area with a lake and the seal saw this lake, another seal hunting fishes near the shore. This greatly improved seal's health and mood. It clearly recognized the lake and the other seal. I was happy, smiling at it. I said to others it clearly knows where it is, where it is from and it must had swim in this other lake via this underground tunnel / pipe which went under the road further away, connecting upper and lower lake.

I told this seal it will get back home after we get it some fish, feed and observe him 2 days to be sure he's okay. After that I woke up.

[laglegt]

[louisupdates]

Louis Tomlinson liked Theo Hutchcraft’s Instagram post [6.12024]

[puregrief]

"God knows what is hiding in those weak and drunken hearts, guess he kissed the girls and made them cry. Those hard-faced queens of misadventure.

God knows what is hiding in those weak and sunken eyes, fiery throngs of muted angels, giving love but getting nothing back.

Oh, people, help the people.

And if you're homesick, give me your hand and I'll hold it.

People, help the people.

Nothing will drag you down.

Oh and if I had a brain, oh and if I had a brain, I'd be cold as a stone and rich as the fool that turned all those good hearts away.

God knows what is hiding in this world of little consequence, behind the tears, inside the lies. A thousand slowly dying sunsets.

God knows what is hiding in those weak and drunken hearts, guess the loneliness came knocking. No one needs to be alone, oh, save me."

[puregrief]

There's a constant stabbing in my heart that I just can't seem to know its cause or how to stop it.