#6.15.19

[missinvisibleandco]

"While The Birds Are Away"

.....the cat drinks out of the birdbath.😂(6.15.19)

[closetgremlin]

Listen,,, gender is very confusing. I’ve got like 5 terms now in my about page that all together say ‘hey, not entirely sure what I am and I also don’t much care, but I guess kind-of girl but mostly not.’ 5 terms.

[edo-vivendum]

So I'm in the ER for suicidal ideation. I've been here for almost four hours now. It's whatever. But my anxiety is increasing, and I'm getting dehydrated.

Will they offer me food if I never ask? Idk if I am capable of asking.

I need to pee but someone was recently vomiting in the bathroom so I'm terrified of going in there.

I need to clean my hands and phone and the bottom of my backpack which I put on the floor but I should've never done that and now it needs to be burned less it's contaminated. It's contaminated. I'm contaminated.

AGH

I hate the hospital once I think about the fact that sick people are here and I might get contaminated and die even though I'm suicidal so I shouldn't care I guess but I do.

And I'm thirsty and I can feel myself getting dehydrated. By the time they talk to me they're gunna have to give me an iv just cos Im dehydrated sitting and laying here

I wish they'd give me something for anxiety.

[bepizzazzed]

In the most physical pain I've been in in awhile. Chronic pain sucks.

[missinvisibleandco]

"Dreams And Reality"

(6.15.19)

[lostseawords]

6.15.19

This is the first time I will write of you To simply feel if it feels right – Oh, but feel is quite The word, a fright Too serious A touch too full When you fill my mind with nothing But the ghost of possibility; The specter of doubt. I know not what to call It But the words do not tumble out. Rather, my speech is halted, Haunted Like the lingering, imagined taste Of a regret most feared.