I found those pages of words I wrote before
My feelings poured into cryptic messages
A time when I was a version I am not now
I care now for her fondly
How much of myself have I lost
to the hustle of the world
what have slowly buried
to become who I am now
I want those passions back
writing, reading, longing
how has it taken me a year
to realize what was gone
Can I reach into the past
and pull forward part of myself
while leaving the rest behind
that I worked so hard to overcome
I didn’t know I had given up so much
until I saw what I was missing
it’s like going through old photographs
and seeing a smile you barely remember
Who knew you could push yourself so hard
to become someone new
You become someone else entirely that
one day you don’t even recognize
I found those pages of words I wrote before
And found a part of myself I had lost
I welcome her into the now
I care for her now fondly.