#9.15

[gayhoediaz]

tea, midnight whispers, and answers found on a couch

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“The whole, uh…” Buck has to take a beat to swallow; he’s not smiling anymore—Eddie isn’t either. They’re just breathing. Stalling—not because they’re nervous, but because it feels good—stalling; soaking this in. This very moment, right here; the second they do this, everything is going to change. Buck can’t wait for everything to change, but this is good, too—sitting at the very top of a rollercoaster, just waiting for the drop. The rush. “…whole confessing your, uh…” Buck continues—eyes falling closed; they’re too close to see anything now, anyway. Eddie’s hand has stopped combing through his curls, instead supporting the back of his head above where his forearm is doing the same. Holding him. “…confessing your mutual, undying love thing. ‘S usually sealed with a kiss.” If his chin twitches a fraction of an inch up, and his bottom lip drops just a little bit, he thinks he’s allowed. “Eddie…” he breathes, when an entire second passes and he doesn’t move. Or speak.

“You’re letting me take the jump off the bridge?” Eddie jokes through a whisper—almost as if they’re two teenagers, giggling under the covers at a sleepover way past their bedtime.

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[lower-the-volume]

9.15 #thinman

[underpressurecsv]

Well. I fear they've perfectly set up an end of season Eddie feelings reveal that he won't act on because of all this/it's too soon etc

[deancasforcutie]

Dean + picking up Cas-isms

Bonus:

[spacedean]

DEAN WINCHESTER in one random episode per day ‣ 190/327 9.15 #THINMAN

[ardentpoop]

nearly choked on my own spit laughing at dean's dejected face in last frame. king of divorce

[aliusfrater]

actually, speaking of which. beyond its relevance to the episode and what it specifically included the scene to explore (some semblance of concluding the arc by cementing specifically sam's perspective of how uts changed his and dean's relationship), i think 9.15's inclusion of that scene where dean brings up and then they discusses and reminisce about their childhood experience of sam jumping off of something thinking he could simulate flight, his subsequent breaking his hand, and dean rushing sam to the emergency room on his bike's handle bars is part of the existing and mounting evidence that after the gadreel arc—because this IS the last episode where the show genuinely explores it beyond a mention or a brief expression of sam's—dean's perspective of his dynamic with sam literally has not changed one single bit. he ultimately still idealises ("you know what video would have gone viral, if we still had it?" vs. sam's later reaction to the conversation) a recreation of their childhood familial dynamic that demands a role of his that entails the 'protection' of sam which leads to his reinforcement of it within their adulthood, long after it's become a perspective of sam that's irrational on account of sam's growth as a person beyond that little boy that didn't know it wouldn't work and into an adult man who can and should be able to make decisions about his body regardless of whether or not dean approves—especially so, actually, because that ans similar other childhood experiences have pushed sam to become a person that very much values having Knowledge and Information about something he makes any decision about participating in

[mpreglukeskywalker]

they were my samdean