#a bit rant

[askcinder]

Allo ovo! What's your favourite part about college so far?

Just kiddin XD but seriously tho calc is killing me.

Fav part? Nothing, for now. College is killing me alive. Note for everyone tho, DON'T get a CS / IS major if you don't have basic coding skills AND are bad at finding a friend group QUICK. Honestly, they were right about one thing: To survive here is to immediately find the right group to study with. Only the very expert ones could survive here alone.

[miseryru]

I might be a Klance shipper, but honestly...reading or hearing Lance calling Shiro with, "Takashi" can probably made my day more than Keith doing so to Shiro...

[difficultyeteasy]

First Born

I wonder how every first born surviving. I mean they’re not the only child and of course they have brothers or sisters. They have to be more considerate to the younger one because they’re the older one. Well isn’t that pretty unfair? I’m myself a firstborn and somehow realizing my dad adore my sister and my mom adore my brother. Well, I think that’s not a surprising news. I know parents realized /or not/ that they have their own favourite and maybe they sometimes not realizing that someone felt left behind eventhough they also gave the attention needed.

I’m always asking myself this question. Do every firstborn feel that left behind feeling? Can they be selfish sometimes? Do they always put their brother/sister first? Do they always be the one do everything that ordered by their parents? and other things ever crossed my mind. I even think that every first born have no right to be selfish. Well, I know that was insane. HAHA

I know I should be grateful that I still have parents but yeah I do! And I love them with all of my heart. They fulfil everything I need, they even give me things that I asked. Well, of course not all of it tho. But I’m just wondering if someone also feel what I felt. The feeling of helding a responsibility to act properly for being an example to their bro/sis. The suffocated feeling when you can’t just ask your parents if they’re really love you or not because they adore your bro/sis more. The responsibility for being the best to prove that you are worth too. And of course more of feeling that can’t come into words. I just want to say that I’m once a child and I’m still have that childish heart now. Sometimes I want to be acknoledge too.

Well, I thing I should just let it pass too. Like it never happened. Maybe I’m just overly sensitive now.

PS : This is my 1st article in 2017 after this long! Finally I wrote again. I should write more later this year :)

[vibgyoroygbiv]

I meant to update earlier but too many things happened. Finally I have more time to do what I want to do.

So last Friday I got a notice and was laid off. The funny thing was, I felt only relief. I had been having a hard time with the job after working in the same company for a few years; the only reason that pushed me out of home to work became only about money and benefits. I wanted to leave but had some worries, then I decided to find another job to make sure that I could leave. But now, I don’t care anymore. I was unhappy and stressful 5 days out of a week, it’s not healthy and I don’t want it anymore. I will plan something out later maybe, after I get enough rest to recover. Besides, only 7 months till I get my master degree, I better spend more time on that. And thank goodness my family understands. ;w;

Now I have time to catch up things I didn’t get to do. I can draw more too! I will stay here much more than before! Expect more nonsense from me! :D

[sueanoi]

in case it's not obvious.

I don't accept treating patients via telepathy.

Don't send me pictures of your pet and expect me to be able to diagnose...let alone treat, your pet.

TT_TT Sometimes I can't even treat a pet sitting in my arms!

[tamersa]

I wish people stopped saying: 'I'm worse than anybody else' etc. and try 'I want to be/get better'.

I personally want to be better than my past self and not anyone else.

Because it is really so wonderful to think - 'omg I'm so better than you', is it even possible to measure it? In art you can be better with anatomy, in writing, in presenting history, in photography presenting exposure.

But it not makes you better than others. So why even try to be better than someone? Isn't it even worse than egoism? To bring someone down in your thoughts at least.

Be yourself and improve yourself.