yeah screw it basically the scary organisation is finally doing something BUT the rules look scary
wdym if i miss two sessions conscutively i will be kicked out and have to do the waiting all over again likw what if i get into a car accident or something
and wdym it's like hidden but also smack bang in the centre of town. is that not. really shady and terrifying and what if i can't find it on the first day and they think i don't wanna be there and kick me out
and also what if i am stupid again and say nothing and those 7 months of hell and torture and waiting and waiting and waiting amount to nothing. like i HOPE they wouldn't but what if i decide to be a subhuman dumbass again cause the website says "you will never be forced to talk about anything you are not ready to" but like i'm NEVER ready 💔
and also like tis scary cause i read through the (lowkey bad quality) website over and over earlier and just aaaaaaaa i will never get used to it i will probably never get used to this but i sort of have to in order to get somewhere that isn't absolutely fucking hellish
AND also. do i even really deserve or need this i mean i hopr i want it i have been waiting for fucking ages and gone through so many phone calls and consultations and general turmoil and now i am being told it will all go away but also was it ever that serious 🥹✌️












