#about yellow

[reimeichan]

I've been really open at work about having DID, and that's great and all except for the fact this one guy is SCARY GOOD at clocking specific alters???? Like to the point he recognizes when it's an alter he hasn't met yet that's fronting???

Him, as I over-apologize for something: So which one of yall is the one that constantly apologizes? P sure it's not one of the guys I normally see.

Me-as-Cyan, sweating: How did you figure out that's a different alter from the ones you've already met and also hi I'm Cyan

Also him, as I'm bouncing around making drinks: hi Little Reimei

Me-as-Yellow: ???? I DIDN'T EVEN SAY ANYTHING

Also him, noticing the fact I went from "I love doing dishes" to "ugh please no more dishes": Okay I know that was Gray earlier, who are you?

Me-as-Purple: YOU NOTICED ME SWITCH BEFORE I DID????

And it's not just him, a few of the other baristas and shift leads also can tell apart some of the fronters (mostly when it's Green, Purple, or Yellow) or even note when we've switched.

Anyways uh. I don't think my system is super covert guys XD

[running2reanimation]

Yellow with Bug Types?

I could not convince myself or Yellow that she wouldn't have made a Genesect.

[reimeichan]

TW Car Accident (I'm safe, nothing graphic described)

Was on my way home from work when I happened to be the sole witness to a car accident take place right in front of me. I'm physically fine as I wasn't directly involved. Nobody was seriously injured from what I could tell, and I managed to give my number and information to the appropriate parties involved.

However... the DID of it all is hitting me pretty hard as I look back on all this that took place not even 3 hours ago. I know for sure that I experienced a split when the accident happened, as I have a noticeable hole in my memory there and no matter how hard I (Mint) try to actually recall what happened I get nothing. However, another part of me (let's call him Gray) has supplied me with the necessary script to tell the officer at the scene: "I don't have a great memory myself, and I don't remember which car hit which car, but I do remember that the <color1> car was in front of the <color2> car and the <color1> car tailspun before they both pulled over to the shoulder with me." And I trust that the script that Gray provided me is, indeed, accurate to whatever we witnessed, even if I currently don't have access to those memories.

Additionally, we decided to stay at the scene and wait for the authorities to show up. And when the first responders showed up and told us that we were free to go so long as we shared our contact info with the affected parties, our resident little Yellow would immediately pop to front and say "That's okay, I'd rather stay if that's alright!" And each time that happened I found myself trying to rationalize why I would say that. Was I trying to be altruistic to make sure the others involved in the accident were okay? Was I staying behind because I knew there would be a language barrier between the officers and the affected parties and wanted to give as accurate an account as I could to minimize any potential for discrimination or miscommunication? And then I realized.... oh. It's because Yellow LOVES being in high adrenaline situations and finds it "fun" and "exciting" to "experience new things for the first time" (in this case, being a witness to a car accident). And she wanted to be there until the very end.

And to top it all off, I realized that I was dissociating pretty hard throughout the whole thing. I was rocking back and forth (which is my go-to self-soothing stim) and would find myself staring off into nothing, not really thinking about anything. As the go-to alter to front during crisis situations like this, I'm usually disconnected from my emotions and thus present as having a very stoic and emotionless affect, but I was aware that due to the adrenaline my muscles were tensed up and my heart rate was elevated. But I was presenting as calm, cool, and even a bit bored. Except for the times Yellow fronted. Then, I'd be peppy and excitable and smiley.

But... yeah. It was def interesting to note just how different parts of my system was reacting to this entire situation. I'm really glad that I can have this kind of insight into my psyche now lol.

[reimeichan]

Reparenting yourself isn't all bad. For example, Azure has no memories of flying on an airplane before, so I used that opportunity to teach her about the science and engineering behind planes, how atmosphere pressure works, the different layers of the atmosphere, etc.

Meanwhile, Purple pointed at a funky cloud shape and went "Look Azure, it's a dragon! It's trying to camouflage into the clouds but we can see it because we're friends with it!"

And Yellow made a little game with her trying to count all the cars they could see before the clouds covered everything.

I'm glad I get to relive what it's like to be a child with these little parts of me.

[reimeichan]

Signs of healing: the alter who has no idea how to deal with children and would rather ignore their existence has decided to spoil one of our littles by buying some slime-making supplies and helped her make some.

He did end up getting frustrated and tossing the whole thing out after about two hours of them playing with it, but she was very happy that he took the time and energy to do that for her.

[running2reanimation]

✿ + Yellue? :]

who is more excited for halloween?

Blue. Yellow will dress up and stuff but she's not quite as into most holidays as the others.

who gives the best gifts?

I think they're both pretty good at gifts; they both often handmake each other gifts.

who sings along to the radio the loudest?

Blue, they like to jam while they work.

who actually finishes a book they’ve started?

Yellow, though sometimes she can miss details.

who falls asleep during a movie?

Yellow, she's not exactly great at sleeping, and if the movie doesn't hook her she's out like a light.

who plans a surprise getaway vacation?

Yellow. I'm highlighting the word plan here, brcause Blue is the type to spontaneously just... go.

who comes home with useless decorative knick knacks for the house every single day?

Blue, he likes adding a splash of colour to the house.

who takes more pictures?

Hard to say. Blue appreciates things and takes photos of everyday things. Yellow likes to keep meticulous records.

who likes baths? who likes showers?

Blue likes baths, Yellow likes showers.

who keeps a weekly planner?

Yellow. Blue has one but I don't think she's ever used it.

who actually watches the discovery channel?

YELLOW.

who brings up having kids first?

Probably Yellow. Blue wouldn't because he'd think that she wouldn't want kids.

who fixes things around the house when they break?

Yellow.

who leaves their dirty towels on the floor?

Blue.

who makes the coffee in the morning?

50/50, depends on who's up first. Also Blue prefers tea.

who gets jealous over very petty things?

Yellow can on occasion. It's hard for her to figure out what the appropriate response to some things are.

who exercises more?

Blue, they aren't as active as some of their other friends, but they're definitely more active out of the two of them.

who starts listening to christmas music in october?

Blue. He'll also listen to it in the middle of summer. He likes Christmas music.

who actually reads the newspaper?

Both of them. Blue will read it throughout the day when they get bored and Yellow reads it with her coffee when she wakes up.

[reimeichan]

We're house sitting for our parents and it's genuinely weird how our usual cast of frequent fronters have shifted around because of this change. Usually we'd have Cyan, Crimson, Purple, and Green fronting a lot with Pink, Yellow, Azure, and Mint occasionally popping in, but this past week, Cyan/Crimson/Purple/Azure have been nowhere near front unless we go back to our partners' place and instead Orchid, Yellow, and an unnamed/not fully identified Cobalt part have been fronting more (+Green, bless him) while Pink, Mint, and Beige are in the co-con/backup group. It's definitely super weird, especially when our partners check in on us and we feel kind of emotionally distant from them while knowing they are our partners and we'd usually be super excited to get any messages from them.

Unfortunately we have another 3 weeks of this x.x Here's hoping we can reach our main hosts pretty quickly once this is all over.... I hate being the temporary host.