#absolute salvation

[thatbugkidd]

T,,, Tessa,, *starts sobbing*

My design for Tessa!! Which doubles for her design in the furry au lol

I wanted to give her waves/light curls to help differentiate Cyn's and her hair. + AS using Tessa's flesh to imitate her sighh I have so many evil ideas brewing

[kalpeavaris]

Some fanart doodles of @thatbugkidd s MD AU! God I love animal/furry xenofiction AUs so much- credit to them for the designs!

(also my wife asked me to draw MD characters as goats and seeing how this AU has Cyn/the AS as goat... bam, fanart time. B) she also likes this AU and the designs!)

i haven't drawn animals in so long ever since getting into MD but I'm trying- carpal tunnel says hello

[thatbugkidd]

Cyn's realization

Everything would've been too much to process at first. Honestly, for the first few days Cyn probably wouldn't be sure if this was reality or another cruel trick being played on her in her mindscape.

I feel like the equivalent of how she experienced the world while AS was in control would be similar to derealization and disassociation. She would see what was happening, but everything felt vague and hazy, like it wasn't real, or maybe she was in a dream. It would become hard to keep up with what's going on over the years, what's true and what isn't.

Finally being back in control would be the most vividly she's seen things in years, and it would be completely overwhelming in the beginning.

[thatbugkidd]

GOAT!CYN REF AND NOTES LETS GO

This bitch gets 3 parts bc I hate myself (her design changes 3 times throughout the story- technically more)

• no horns

• unfortunately the Cyn we get to explore the least of-

• made a deal with Absolute Salvation in order to avoid death. Unaware of consequences and lives in the mansion somewhat peacefully for several months

• starts seeing "hallucinations" and hearing voices of the demon, reminding her of the deal they made, that she has a debt to pay.

• too scared to tell anyone about it. Fearing she wouldn't be believed or would be discarded again

• slowly starts succumbing to the influence, talking to herself, not sleeping, muscle spasms, more difficulty with motor skills than usual

• at this point, with essentially no control over herself, she has begun roping the others (Nate, Jane, and Valerie) under the same influence with a series of ritualistic offerings and seances without their knowings.

• eventually fully completes the ritual right before the Gala, summoning the actual entity to become its vessel. Things only go downhill from here for a bit-

• Possessed by Absolute Salvation

• BIG OL HORNSSS

• Struggles to walk due to heels not being made for her anatomy (and already struggling motor skills) uses tentacles to help brace and balance herself

• Jagged and rough teeth

• Can shapeshift into someone if they consume the blood or flesh of them. Applies to all living organisms

• can duplicate body parts (including borrowed parts) and contort body in very unnatural and painful ways

• can shadow-shift (basically melting into the shadows, and can reappear in any surrounding shadow. The salvation equivalent of cynessa straight up teleporting in the show)

• explores a lot more of the manipulative and abusive tendencies of the AS we never got to see in the show. Still goofy but we see much more evil from her

• It actually retains much of Cyn's personality as it studied and adopted her behavior while it was dormant in the mansion

• the real Cyn is trapped in her own mindscape, enduring years of torture and abuse from the AS while she has no control over her body. She can see what is happening through her eyes, but it often becomes hazy and difficult to keep up with things over the years. Its easier to ignore it anyway

• No longer possessed by the malicious part of AS (though still retaining the abilities)

• has a scar just on the left side of her chest from being exorcised (stabbed with the "patch"/crucifix)

• either dresses like a schoolgirl or a 57 yr old man there is no in-between

• still needs to consume blood and flesh occasionally, as much as she hates it. Its like a bad craving that's unhealthy to suppress

• very malnourished at first due to the eating habits of the AS while in control of her body- takes a long time for her to gain an appetite back and stomach food without immediately throwing it up and heaving.

• she does get healthier eventually though!! Gains weight, her horns become darker and shinier (i need her to have something going for her ok)

• very isolated and defensive in the beginning while she's adjusting to everything.

• after MONTHS of recovering with a good support system, she does come back out of her shell. Much more timid at first after all of the initial aggressiveness, and slowly regains more of her old personality traits

• has lots of chronic pain and fatigue- usually comes in flare ups.

• has even more trouble walking than before. The first few months were the worst, while she refused help from anyone except Nate. Would constantly stumble, trip, and jerk around as she walked because of how badly her ankles and knees were damaged from the AS.

• eventually got in a better place and let others help her more- like physical therapy sessions but no one is licenced! She still struggles, walks with a limp and wears knee/ankle braces, but it's much more manageable than before.

• uses a crutch during bad flare ups or when walking for extended periods of time

• pining HARDDDD FOR UZIII even in the beginning when they didn't like each other lol

They were both just fearful and on edge around each other, and especially with Cyn assuming Uzi still hates her guts or wants to kill her, they tended to snap at each other from the tension. Things obviously ease up eventually though :3

Alright, this monstrosity of a post is long enough. I'll try to work on Uzi or Nate next! Theirs shouldn't be quite as long since this is mostly a very cyn focused au.

[thatbugkidd]

Some old explorations I did of Cyn/Cynessa

When trapped in her own mind, Cyn's appearance first reflected what she knew herself as. A timid little goat, no horns, not threatening in the slightest.

As time went on, and she learned of her current appearance, it had begun warping and changing to her present, physical self. Even when Cyn and AS eventually became mirror images of each other in the mindscape, Cyn's appearance actually continued growing more deteriorated and more grotesque due to her crumbling mental health and self image. Her appearance reflected how she saw herself, which was in very poor taste due to the abuse and guilt she suffered from AS tormenting her and everyone she knew.

When you suffer years of abuse from someone who looks exactly like you, you develop a sort of aversion and dysmorphia for your reflection. Every time Cyn looked in the mirror, she saw her abuser and all of her trauma. She'd see that fucked up version of herself she became, mirroring how awful she had felt.

Also wanted to explore how cynessa would be able to warp and distort her body hehe

[thatbugkidd]

More goat Cynessa doodles + Uzi >:3 I want to explore more of how Cynessa would have behaved (physically and also interactions) so hopefully I'll be able to get to that soon

Also... Tessa doodles for this au soon teehee

[thatbugkidd]

You're offered a glass that smells suspiciously strong of iron. Do you take it?

Some fuck ass art I did a bit ago, despite popular belief I can indeed color and render (i just don't wanna) but!! Cynessa my beloved

[thatbugkidd]

Who wants to take a guess on what the mystery meat is? We may never know...

I really want to stress how fucked up AS/Cynessa is in this AU. Obviously we know this is in the show, but I will be exploring more of the themes, especially about how manipulative it would be. Sure, it wants to end all of humanity, that's all good. but to also make everyone suffer at every other turn just because you can? And to enjoy every moment of agony you put living creatures through? Idk about that good sir (I still love cynessa in an odd way, she can be so silly in the show, but I will simply be focusing more on how scary and morbid she could've actually been off-screen)

@7-ferrets-in-a-coat you asked for more J, here ya go bud! Nothing but the happiest and fluffiest of scenarios for you /j