feeling like benson probably has a deep dislike and distrust of other men. he hears what they say behind closed doors, sees the lengths theyll go for what they want . has been on the other side of it. watched his mom survive his deadbeat dad. saw the same anger in himself throughout his teens/early 20s. besides that, hes been on the other end of a piss covered mop in the men's washroom, shared a truck cabin with a crew of construction guys. has the view point of men as a whole being scum of the earth, while also knowing and recognizing the traits that he hates, in himself
[this becomes even more interesting and complicated when you take in trans!benson headcanon . being born and bred into the culture that perpetuates it. his learned understanding of what masculinity is, as toxic as it might be, leaning into it because it what makes him a /man/ in the eyes of those around him (and to himself, unfortunately). if he wants to be safe and seen as a peer, he has to act like one]
