#abyss .rambles

[lovebvni]

if you guys could see the stupid smile i do and the way my heart jumps whenever i see “i shifted!” you would all think im a dork.

i love every fucking post i’ve seen. i’m so happy for all of you. waiting for more and more stories to unfold this year.

i have serious hope. it’s the end of the first month of 12. imagine what you can do in that following time.

wishing you all the best. <33 you’re inspiring me <3

[lovebvni]

little things i’ve been excited for when i shift.

i think everyone should make a list like this. like a checklist, almost. this is more of a casual blog since i’ve been gone

most of these are about my mha dr, but some scatter between others. check @httpslqcie for my drs… lol

going on walks with my big dog, named fenrir

going to work

going to school. i’m genuienly so excited for my classes not to be so stressful

having a chance to live out my teenage dreams

making music!

food. it looks so good. i can see it in my mind!

blasting music in my friends car in the states, and bugging some people

the states not being not a fucking mess 🤍

being able to change my name every 8 minutes and nobody batting an eye

doing tarot readings on live for my friends and fans.

being able to do readings freely in general

hanging out w my close friends on a weekend. fridays after school >>

living with my fucking friends? in dorms? i can just go over whenever?!

having a pet snake

my two cats and dogs

being able to live with my siblings for quite a few years!

being in the direct rival school to my older brother

having powers!

skipping classes… whoops.

being friends with THE billie eilish.

seeing billie eilish. loml btw

seeing my boyfriend!! (guys… same dr as billie eilish but i love her.)

my boyfriends eyes. he has such pretty eyes, especially when he pouts.

my friends being the dumbest but funnest people on earth

letting my guard down around my friends and family

sewing?! like creating my own clothes!

my chronic pain is so minimal or i don’t have it (i haven’t decided yet.)

being a model! on the runway!!

making stupid ass youtube videos

hinting i’m a shifter to non shifters. never denying or confirming when asked

having time to do what i need to do, plus slack off

never having homework?!

destoying stuff (i mean diys, guys…)

going on the ocean and seeing orca whales

getting married. having a disney happily ever after.

posting on here, and still being able to interact with you guys and those versions of yourself (and not going mia every few months)

i’m going to

try to get back into posting. i love you all. drop suggestions for a tarot pack i would love to do one again!

[lovebvni]

no limits.

When you in your room and you starin' at the ceilin' Dreamin', I want you to know it's no ceilings I want you to notice that feelin' I want you to leap and go for it (Yeah) I want you to reach with no fearing Throat clearing, scream it, let 'em hear it

runitup — tyler the creator

i hope this clicks for you guys.

[lovebvni]

I will be honest, something that bothers me is when I say I am a Christian shifter, people believes I’m conservative. I, indeed, am not. I just believe in God and that He’s over it all.

I believe in other gods and deities. I work with them. I do tarot. I do and say things that go against the typical Christian. That does not mean I am less holy than you. That does not mean I am a demon. It just means I see the world differently than you.

I am not going to ever force my religion down your throat. If I ever do, or seem like I am, call me out immediately. I will warn you I have different beliefs, and I will state them as I see them, but I will never tell you that you have to conform to what I believe.

My religion does not change my belief in the spiritual realm or processes.

[lovebvni]

when i finish the star script (or just get it to a decent place) do you guys want me to post it here?

[lovebvni]

pssst…

just a heads up, i’m starting practice readings again in ren’s discord… maybe you should join to help me out?

[lovebvni]

you are worth it.

my whole life i’ve struggled with worth and seeing everyone else as above me or worth more than me. that is false. i am worth the world. YOU ARE WORTH THE WORLD. you deserve happiness. you deserve love. you deserve to shift. you deserve to have your desired body. you deserved to have your desired face. you deserve good people in your life. but in order to get those things, you HAVE to believe you are worth it.

that’s the most recent thing i’ve learned in my journey in witchcraft and self concept.

[lovebvni]

I’ll never understand why people talk to shifters the way they do. We’re not harming anyone by shifting, and even if we were just imagining things or dreaming, so? Let us have our fun! Even if they think we’re delusional and want to help us, that’s not how you talk to people with mental health issues around their reality, especially when they’re not providing any evidence to the contrary, they’re just saying it’s not real over and over again. If they think we have something seriously wrong with us and our mental health, why would they mock us for it?

They always come off so cruel for no reason. It’s just…Unkind. Maybe we’re cringe or something, but I thought we were leaving that behind? Just let people enjoy things…

i feel like it all stems from a place of insecurity. of jealousy too. “i wanna be able to do that but i don’t want to change my beliefs” type thing.

they want to experience a different life but they don’t want to evolve to be able to experience it.

i hate people that are like this :( it sucks that people project their own insecurities into others. it’s toxic.