#aching inside

[breakingdeeper]

So it’s Friday.

And the last two weeks have been filled with unavoidable, exhausting anxiety.

It hurts to hurt, and hurt people... they aren’t very nice.

So it’s Friday.

And I want this weekend on my couch to last ten years.

Because I am an open wound

and it seems everyone has this habit

of throwing salt around.

[nordicearthfae]

A poem for Papá John

The wind sweeps over the bay in sorrow,

For another soul has been taken.

A good soul,

A kind one.

For this giant was so fucking proud,

His kingdom was beautiful.

And he built this shit himself.

He loved his land,

He loved his family

But most of all,

He loved his life.

And he darn well lived a good one.

I did not know this kind giant for long,

But it felt like we were family.

It felt like he belonged in my life.

[portraitofwords]

I'm still emotionally crippled from the last episode of shameless us This is the worst i've been effected by anything and i've lost a parent

[m-a-p-t-h-e-seoul]

it's like, no matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, everything is just falling apart and I'm always struggling. 

People tell me "You were given this life because you are strong enough to live it" etc. etc. 

The thing is, why should I fight my way in a world that I do not even feel is worth living in? 

How can I love people? In such a pigonistic world like this? 

The are all for themselves, even people say they are better because they are like, 'fighting for themselves only now' because no one cared, your the fucking same as your so-called enemies, what are you trying to prove? How the fuck are you different to them? How?! They even have a fucking religion for it 'satanism' what the fuck? You are exactly the same as everyone else in this world. You are no different.