#actuallybdd

[exhaustedborderline]

[othellosyndrome]

how come everybody online with bdd also has an eating disorder. like fuck i’m sorry that’s really shit but is there literally nobody else i can relate to? i want to follow bdd blogs and feel less alone but they ALL trigger me because they post so many pictures of bodies. how tf do they not get triggered by this

[othellosyndrome]

literally how do i fix my chest? i cant get surgery because i’d have to get a consultation and i’d have to show my chest to a stranger and i cant go into surgery because my chest will be exposed to a stranger but if i don’t get surgery i’ll kill myself so??????????

[lamotriginerash]

My body feels like a fucking prison.

[lamotriginerash]

My therapist didn't seem to understand the severity of my feelings about wanting out of a body that isn't mine and feeling like I haven't been able to recognize myself in the mirror not just since gaining weight but for years. She thinks it's just a self esteem issue. It is partly but not completely. I didn't want out of my current body just because I wanted to wake up and be suddenly magically thin, I genuinely wanted to physically get out of a body that isn't mine and that feels like nothing but a shell I've been locked inside of.

Like I'm pretty sure she knows it's dysmorphia, but it felt a little dismissive. Like all it is is that I don't think I'm pretty.

[translucentgem]

I just can’t recognize myself in this body anymore

It’s wrong, ugly and disgusting

Let me ROT

[sweet-dee-npd-blog]

Me, remembering over people actually have control over what they eat: