#adbpd

[unlikelykingdomphilosopher]

"You have to remain hopeful! Everything always gets better! I hope you feel better soon!"

Do you tell that to terminal cancer patients? Do you tell amputees that you hope their leg grows back? Or is this just what you tell people living with chronic pain and invisible disabilities because you don't know what the FUCK you're talking about?

[unlikelykingdomphilosopher]

Now Its Time to Play My Favourite Game: "Is This My Autoimmune Disease or is This Covid?"

The hot new game that everyone with a chronic illness has been playing since March!

Today's Episode Features the Following Symptoms:

* fever

* chills

* GI issues

* headaches

* muscle weakness

* general breathlessness

* extreme fatigue

[unlikelykingdomphilosopher]

me: my goal this year is to accept myself and my disability as they are.

everyone: no! you have to be optimistic!

me: ???? what does that have to do with what I just said?????

[unlikelykingdomphilosopher]

looks like its gonna be another long night. every single bone in my body feels like it's slowly dissolving into nothingness. i am so desperate for some relief. ibuprofen does nothing and i don't understand how I'm still alive and breathing when i feel like this every waking second

[unlikelykingdomphilosopher]

"I got boulders on my shoulders,

Collar bones begin to crack.

There is very little left of me and its never coming back."

[unlikelykingdomphilosopher]

난

그냥 부담이다.

난

아무것도 아닌 것 같다.

[unlikelykingdomphilosopher]

Guess who's back on methotrexate, bitches?

This loser!

Yayyy...now it's time to throw up, feel guilty for missing work, get dizzy/confused, and take a nap!

[unlikelykingdomphilosopher]

life is just *trauma* *poverty* *religious guilt* *male violence* *being unwanted* *being abandoned* *slaving away for a dollar until the point of burnout* *rise of white nationalism* *mental breakdown* *degenerative chronic illness* *never being good enough* *suicidal ideation* **suffocating lonliness*