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[ice-phoenix-nerdcore]

I lied in a YouTube Comment thread.

This comment thread actually is gold. Gave me the best of Tumblr vibes, so I had to share

[emblemlife]

Closet Cosplay Ideas/Plans:

Aziraphale *needs adjustments, new wig, lighter color trench coat, a larger fit waistcoat

Ralsei from Deltarune

Harpo Marx *buy bulb horn (YOU HAVE THE PIPE JUST GET SOME DUCT TAPE AND STICK IT ON!), curly haired wig and maybe some smaller bulb horns...

Freddy Fazbear *get some black gloves + make or buy a microphone

Negasonic Teenage Warhead *get fingerless black gloves, fake leather tight pants, trenchcoat, turtle neck t-shirt etc.

JJ aka Jameson Jackson (Jse ego) *almost forgot my silent baby boi & mainly want to cosplay just to use that audio from Duck Soup when Harpo 'talks'/makes honking noises with his bulb horns on the phone or I could do like a Wile E. Coyote bit with letter cards?

Panchito Pistoles or Jose Carioca (could do both) *Must cosplay mis hijos ♡ (though I am more in favor of cosplaying Panchito since I AM Mexican (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧ and just for the sake of doing a grito in costume (≧▽≦))

Roger Rabbit (WHY AM I SUCH A SUCKER FOR 80S MOVIES) blue bowtie wth yellow polkadots, red overall pants (add 2 yellow buttons), white undershirt, bunny ears, ginger haired wig long or short and yellow gloves.

[x-strawberry-femme-x]

I’m gonna regret this tomorrow but fuck it one note on this post = 1 minute of self tickling in nylons with the hair brush! I will be privatising the post in 2 hours!

[retracing-my-steps]

….Ya—

From Krista Scott-Dixon’s book

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Never getting past needing approval, having no space to pay attention to things aside from the searching

According to Gabor Maté ADD/ADHD is a condition that is perfectly possible to recover from (just as a person regains most function after a stroke for example). It's all about identifying the problem and knowing the solution. It's a delay in development caused by alienation within the family. The attention-span one is supposed to be developing and using to pay attention to things like learning and growing is spent in desperation looking for attention from others, or escaping reality through daydreams to compensate for feeling alone. The ADD/ADHD kid is a symptom of deeply anxious or tense parents- the child is born sensitive and becomes like a radar and becomes frozen in their development in attention because of their need for emotional bonding, being that the healthy bond is not present in the family due to their parents' preoccupation with stress. Because the parents cannot manage their own stress, the child becomes world weary. The child believes that they are the problem and take the burdens of the world as if they are their responsibility-- causing things like social anxiety in the child. This causes a complete dependency on positive feedback from others and deep anxiety and insecurity in the child. ADD/ADHD lasts into adulthood when the problem with the environment of alienation is never solved, and the ADD/HD adult does not have adequate assistance or tools to repair the wounds and false perceptions, or to finally successfully build the synaptic connections in the brain to 'catch up' with others--healing their attention span and their anxiety overall. Basically, ADD/HD is a developmental delay caused by an unhealthy emotional environment in the family or a lack of emotional harmony and warmth between parents and child. Hah! Well then. It is perfectly possible to recover from. But it takes a while because you had your entire youth and maybe onward having those issues unsolved and unaddressed. I'm still reading this book so I'll report back about the solution for if you don't recover from your ADD/HD with an improved family environment before reaching adulthood.

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-me weightlifting- -brain screaming the entire time-: we aren’t drawing! We aren’t drawing! We won’t have time to draw! We aren’t drawing! It’s almost time for bed! Ahh!!

-me drawing- -brain screaming the entire time-: We aren’t weight lifting!!! We’re going to run out of energy! That was a commitment! You’re going to disappoint yourself! It’s almost time for bed and you should be weight lifting! Ahhh!!!

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Brain: AhhhhhhHHHH 😫 Me: What? Brain: I need to do all the things! Me: ..Well, uh- which of all the things? Brain: I don’t know!!!! All of them?? Me: Ok well… can we start with this one then? Brain: NO Me: but… Brain: NO, ALL of them! Me: but we can’t finish any of those unless we star– Brain: AHHHHHHHHH

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-grumbles- there we go. The train of thought has finally arrived at its station- And now, on to other things