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[edenfenixblogs]

Maybe my most ADHD moment in ages???

I'm not talking about the annoying or frustrating ADHD moments. I'm talking purely, stereotypically, wildly off-the-wall thought processes. Even as I was thinking, I was like, "Brain, what are you even doing right now." So I just read an extremely dark, tense book that involved a bunch of people studying Ancient Greek. Today, I'm excited because I just found out that my new fridge is being delivered. How are these things related? My ADHD! The following thought process and related actions happened in less than 5 seconds total.: So, my mom just texted that the new fridge is here, unexpectedly early. I wrote back, "Aaaaaaaah!" Because I am very excited about this (I hated our old fridge so much).

I guess because of the book I just read, Ancient Greek was on my mind. I remembered a Tumblr post from like 10 years ago, back when an absurdly large portion of the people on my dash were in PhD-programs for studies in Classics. The post had English text that said something like, "Nothing really compares to the beauty of Ancient Greek. The writing is so profound and cannot be replicated by the lesser authors of the modern age," and then had a quote with a lot of Greek letters that looked fairly identical/repetitive and several exclamation points and an attribution to a famous Greek author or playright I couldn't recall at the moment. All the Classicists on my dash were reblogging it with "LOL!!!!" or laughing-crying emojis. Luckily, my BFF, who at the time WASN'T on Tumblr, happens to be a Victorianist with an extensive background in Classics (do I know why I attract Classicists into my life? No. No, I do not.). I sent her a screenshot of the post and said, "Please help me. Why is everyone laughing at this????" She replied first with a lot of crying laughing emojis and then explained that it was, essentially, a quote that translated to. "Aaaaaaah! aaaaah! AAAAAAAAH! AAAAAaaaaAAAAH!" Because someone in the play/poem was screaming, probably from some kind of mortal wound or anguish. For some reason, this memory leaped fully, vividly formed into my brain. I knew I had to text back my mom and find the quote--something I dropped literally everything to do. I eventually found what I THINK is the quote in question (from Euripides) and texted back my mom just to say, "Or, as Euripides would say, [INSERT ANCIENT GREEK HERE]." I then had to EXPLAIN THE JOKE TO MY MOM, who does not know AND HAS NEVER EXPRESSED THE FAINTEST INTEREST IN ANCIENT GREEK that this just meant *incoherent screaming* (which, to be fair, she did find funny). My brain would not let me focus on work until I made that joke that literally was SO OBSCURE ONLY I PROBABLY GOT IT. AND I'M GLAD I DID. IT AMUSED ME. BUT WHY DID MY BRAIN COMPELL ME TO DO THIS????? So, I immediately called my BFF to tell her about this. Because she's perfect, she immediately remembered the post and totally got my joke. So, the moral of the story is--don't expect to understand your ADHD friends. Just accept their randomness LOL.

[star-anise]

It's amazing how many ADHD people I know whose friends and family are just like "It's like they have no clue that this Big Bad Consequence will happen if they don't do this thing! I keep trying to tell them but it never sinks in!" and when I talk to the person themselves they're like, "I can't do the thing they want me to do, so here are my plans for surviving the Big Bad Consequence."

I think that a lot of us with ADHD have so much experience failing "simple" tasks that we just get numb to it. Failure is so normal it's practically inevitable. Success doesn't feel possible, so why worry about that chance we're "throwing away" if it was never going to work for us anyway?

(And of course our senses of what's acceptable, of what we should demand for ourselves, have often been ground into absolute dust. Of course I'm going to fail the test/flunk out of school/lose my job/get evicted; of course I should meekly accept this as my lot in life and not ask for any help in "cleaning up my own mess." We're almost never taught to question authority and demand better treatment that understands our disabilities.)

Non-ADHD people tend not to get: A lot of the time it's not our understanding of cause and effect that's totally broken. It's our sense that we are competent people capable of shaping better lives for ourselves, and that we deserve support and understanding.

[peridotsarelongterm]

Shout-out to all the former “so mature for your age!” children who really just liked to read and had no idea how to communicate with humans their own age. 😭🤣

[lemonsharks]

This is what I did with my calendar

Now my phone tells me what time of day it is every several hours and I have a visceral color coded understanding of what time an appointment is going to happen, which has really helped with my ADHD "waiting mode" (malfunction when a brain wired to process time as now/not now is faced with the cold reality of "not now but also not not now" aka why a 3:00PM commitment will ruin your entire day.)

It took about 30? minutes to set up and the power of repeating events means that it will do this until I manually un-set it uo

[beyondthisdarkhouse]

I'm fully off my old ADHD med now and instead of being able to prescribe me a new med to start with last week, my psychiatrist had to reschedule for a month and a half later.

I'm not best pleased with him, and being unmedicated is honestly kinda hellish. I'm veering wildly between hyperfocus and not being able to drive safely or fucking feed myself. It's a good thing I know how to access emergency psychiatric care in Edmonton (Access 24/7) because I fucking cannot live like this. Especially when I have to fight multiple bureaucracies and move house by the end of July.

So my new plan is to jump into the extra special gamble of accessing emergency short-term psychiatry resources to see if someone who's never met me before can prescribe me a brand new drug that will help me in time.

"ADHD is societal, you don't need meds" COME FUCKING FIGHT ME

[earlyaughts]

Dark urban/eldritch fantasy headcanon: ADHD is the product of genetic tinkering by Old Ones to create functional heralds and more sophisticated human servants. The lack of focus/short term memory means that people with ADHD have a better chance of being able to move past the all-encompassing awe and majesty and grandness of a Great One because to even attempt to process it requires too much focus and the ADHD brain quits on those tasks before it gets started.

Its why ADHD didn't show up until the late 1600s, because that's when the Old Ones started breaking through.

[popconfession]

stuck in that overstimulation/understimulation vicious cycle

[garden-of-succulents]

Broke: Depriving someone of a major source of comfort and solace in a stressful time

Woke: Encouraging someone to work in a manner you know is easier for them and providing them ongoing feedback and support

(Sincerely, a person with ADHD who would like to remind you that unlike Bitty’s teammates, you do not live in a webcomic written by a kind person, so you personally should not override a person’s vehement statements of preference and do what’s “good for them” by taking away something that brings them joy, even if they use it to procrastinate.)