What made you originally want to start LOAS?
I feel like there's not one way to answer this. There's a few things that made me want to write this.
First off, I always liked thinking about what exactly happened during the years leading up to the poker night in WKM, or how did Mark react when Celine left and etc etc. It was fun to think about and given how we probably won't ever get an answer for it. I decided to play with the concept.
Secondly, I was having fun with @inevera with roleplaying pre-wkm events between the group. Seeing William and Mark's rivalry grow worse and all. It was fun, and cute. Given the fact I really wanted to write more of Actor. I decided to do something small which ended up turning to the first chapter of LOAS.
Thirdly, I had the image burnt into my mind of Actor staring at the note Celine had left him after leaving him. His painstaking misery and potential anger that it probably left him. I had that image vividly in my mind. It only took a few days before I gave up and wrote it.
And finally, I think it was just a chance to allow myself to really cope/vent with some traumas or experiences I have had. Simultaneously through both Actor and Damien. Particular chapters are more personal to me than other. Chapter one being the most personal given the contents. A lot of emotions in that chapter are very personal to me.
Despite whatever reason, I love this writing with all my heart and I hope others do too. Thanks for the question! ♡
