The human is not what they sell you in textbooks or political speeches. The human is a containment vessel, a body-jail where consciousness is forced to live inside the most primitive frequency still allowed to operate without total collapse.
Saturn stands at the border, the black archway, the metronome of the prison. You don’t pass until you learn. You don’t “evolve” until the shadow in your bloodline is faced without flinching. That’s why this planet feels like a padded cell with an Instagram feed — because it is.
In ancient times, killing was direct — war for blood, territory, revenge. Brutal but honest. Now, the death is slower: fast food, ego addiction, algorithmic hypnosis, dopamine loops. The body is kept alive long enough for the soul to be extracted without protest. The Matrix calls it “modern life.”
Gaia is no saint-mother. She’s an egotistical organism, vain enough to admire her own flowers while exterminating weeds. But her vanity is also her justice: she is done babysitting parasites. The purge is not rage — it is calibration. Everything not in frequency will be recycled.
The delusion of “colonizing other planets” is the last gasp of a species that refuses to face itself. You don’t get to expand into the cosmos until you stop being a cosmic biohazard. And Saturn makes sure of it.
You are here not to save them. Not to teach them.
You are here to burn so clean that the lie cannot survive next to you.
This is the real Zero-Sum Game: either the ego dies, or the species does.
Signed,
Cesar Augusto
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Walking past a famous boutique hotel celebrating their 10-years anniversary, reminds me that 2014 marks my 10th year in the neighborhood as well.
2004 seems such a long time ago.
Looking in the mirror - what else to expect but a reflection!?
Looking in the mirror, my reflection looks like nothing has changed physically on the outside. Okay sure, my weight has fluctuated. My hair is a different length, different style. I have a few more fine lines around my eyes. I have some scars on my knees and thigh from recent accidents.
Overall, externally - I am "Same, Same but Different".
Emotionally, mentally, spiritually - even physiologically I am nothing like I was 10 years ago.
2004 was a big year for me, namely 3 big events happened that spun me around 180 degrees within 60 days.
Under the employment tab, I returned back to structural engineering after a 2-year hiatus. I had ventured into floral design, worked in various flower shops and studios. This decision was because I became a homeowner that same year with the boyfriend. Let's just say, the paycheck of a floral designer is a fraction of a structural engineer and when faced with a mortgage - one has to do what one has to do to keep the bank manager happy.
The third event blind-sided me. The man I spent 5 years with walked out on the relationship without any explanation on Christmas eve. What's a girl to do when she's left alone for the first time in her life during Christmas, in her brand new home - I balled my eyes out, alone, on my own.
In hindsight, 2004 was a HUGE turning point in my life - well it was more like an S-curve and not just some simple turn around a corner.
I have to admit, it took me a while to get my footing and luckily had help from some amazing friends and complete strangers who became friends - it just took time, faith and trust.
The love that was lost forced me to step out of the fog that was my life, and come back to reality. In the last 2 years of the relationship, I ignored and did not want to deal with the fact that the love between us faded away. In short, we both gave up. We didn't even fight. I still remember the day that I said "It seems like we are more like roommates than anything else." In addition to this, I had allowed friendships to slip away and what's worse, I stopped talking to my mom - I was on an "island" with just a handful of human beings I could contact.
I went to psychotherapy sessions - realized I am co-dependent. I went to an anonymous group to face my co-dependency.
At the time, I started practicing yoga at a neighborhood studio called Downward Dog. A girl friend who was very different than my "normal" cluster of friend opened me to a whole new world - she taught pilates, introduced me to polarity therapy, cranial sacral therapy, Brain Gym, and flower essence remedies. All of these alternative and energy medicine mumble jumble was foreign to me, I had to admit I was skeptical but I was willing to try.
My mind was opening to new concepts, to new ways of being. I was shifting.
Even my religious views were changing - my parents believe in Buddhism. They sent me to a Catholic convent school until I was 10 years old. When we immigrated to Canada, I slowly became an atheist as I grew up. With exposure to alternative medicine, energy medicine and yoga, I started to look at Buddhism, Tibetan Buddhism, Hinduism, Shamanism, considered the existence of a Greater power and considered the existence of Universal energy, Universal knowledge.
When I was referred to see a naturopath by my manager at work, I became part of a whole new world. I was learning and growing in leaps and bounds. I started to meditate. Events from past lives were brought into view and consideration. I was waking up to consciousness, awareness. I joined the School of Philosophy who's motto is "Awaken to Conscious Living" and when I felt more change was required, I left. All the while, I read many books that I would never have thought to read before and every now and then I would pick up a chick-lit book to "come back to society".
At times, I felt like I was torn between the "woo woo" world and the "normal" world - where did these labels come from? Why is there a separation? Where in my belief system made me uncomfortable to talk about spirituality?
Fast forward to 2012, I had to get real. As much as I enjoyed certain aspects of my career as a structural engineer, I simply could not see myself as one when I reach retirement age. This would be my 3rd and final attempt to leave the field. I don't want to sound cliché but the "Soul searching" bumper sticker was slapped onto my back.
I was so lost and tried to see aspects of myself in everything I came across.
I joined the practitioner's mentoring circle which my naturopath created - it was to be a group of fierce and fabulous individuals committed to healing, creating and serving. I looked at industrial design courses, requirements to be a pyrotechnician. I attended Culinary and Biomimicry courses at local universities. There were so many weekend workshops and courses; including BodyTalk Access, BodyTalk Mindscape, BodyTalk BreakThrough. I took an interest into crystal therapy and a broad range of essence remedies (flower, crystal, coral, sacred locations). I even became an Usui Reiki practitioner and recently became a Shamballa Reiki practitioner. Currently, I am studying to be a yoga teacher at my old studio, Downward Dog. With a more intense yoga practice, I am awakening to my body, I can finally connecting to my own physical body.
Then of course, somewhere in all of that, I traveled, a lot as a single woman. In the past 10 years, I have traveled to 36 different countries. Each town, each city, each sacred site, each country offered me something different. I am not just talking about the different cultures, customs, cuisine, modes of transportation, costumes, lifestyle, belief systems, education system, religious views and beliefs. I am talking about unique take-aways, personal experiences that are unique for me. In one palace I recalled a past life event. Another time, I collected some of the sacred energy available at the Intihuatana stone at Machu Picchu. I tried my hardest to stay in the present, in the moment.
Each time, I shift a bit more, learn a bit more, grow a bit more, stretch a bit more.
Sometimes, I think the event is a test or a life lesson from the Universe to check how I am progressing - for me to realize how far I have come along. One of the more significant event in recent travels was when my overnight bus was hijacked and robbed at gunpoint in Brazil.
There is a Chinese proverb that says, "Traveling 10,000 miles is better than studying 10,000 scrolls". From personal experience, I know that much is true.
At this point, I do not know what the next 10 years will look like for me. I only know if I do not take the next step, I will remain the same or fall backwards. Leaving the unknown in the unknown. The only way for me to find out about the unknown is to keep walking the path - whatever it may be. I hope you will be there beside me along the way - I know I will need all the support I can get.
Today is one of those days that people and movies talk about - a day that made me look back at everything that I've done the past 38 years of my life, in this lifetime. What I have experienced. No I didn't have a near death experience - not that dramatic. I didn't see everything flash by - instead, I chose to journey through a highlight reel.
All because of a delicious lunch with friends. All because of running around town, trying to get some errands done. All because I had a talk with a friend that triggered a slew of thoughts to solidify. I have him to thank - Thank you Jay.
When I left my job in Structural engineering in 2012, I only knew that it's not something I want to do for the rest of my life. There's aspects of it that I liked and enjoyed. However, it's not my dream job. I want something that at the end of the day, the paycheck is just the icing on top of the cake. That I cannot believe I'm getting paid to do what I truly love and know other people are truly benefiting as well.
I spent 2012 exploring other possibilities - took a Biomimicry course in a local university, took part in a special mentorship group, studied Usui Reiki, read many books on spirituality and Buddhism. I was all over the placed - without leaving town, for once.
2013 has been Epic. 14 countries in 8 months. I met many people along the way. The most important person though was me, my true self. The one who's been hidden all this time behind illusions and burdened by others' belief systems. I'm now in the midst of clarifying my own belief system, my own boundaries and enforcing them. So 2013 wasn't just about a journey around the world, it was also about my own life journey.
Living out my tag line: Spirituality + Travel = Alchemy of Self
Lately I've been doing some research on 'spiritual tours' and 'transformation tours', most of them involves a 'known' person and with an expensive price tag and a detailed application form.
I want to create something different. No application form. No big price tag. No dogma.
My goals:
Inspire more women (and men) to travel
Share my love for travel, my past experience and knowledge
Offer affordable tours with flexible itineraries - Intuitive travel
Intimate small group setting
Help you along with your life journey with my tools - Usui Reiki, Shamballa Reiki, crystal therapy, flower essences, BodyTalk Access, yoga, meditation, insightful conversations
In 2014, I hope to see this seed sprout into something real.
Dreams are taking off, on the dawn of a new year... I would love for you to be a witness, or better yet, Participate!
I'm starting a new social media event this Wednesday, Sept 12 @ 8pm... Please come and join in on the discussion - and follow me @SnglWmnTravels
Alchemy of Self is a new hashtag I created to start weekly chatter on Twitter on self help/spirituality methods and tools with like minded individuals from around the world about your Transformation process.
Intention
To gather and share knowledge, stories, resources and tools of all those who are on the path of Self Transformation.
How to…
How to participate in Alchemy of Self chatter on Twitter (#AlchemyofSelf). Topics can range from methods and resources available for spiritual, physical, psychological transformation.
Leave behind the hustle and bustle of the daily grind. Meditate. Take a few cleansing breathe. Ground yourself.
Log into your Twitter account at 8pm EST every Wednesday.
http://timeanddate.com/worldclock/converter.html
Search for #AlchemyofSelf and participate in the conversation.
The host will post a total of 4 questions within the hour, around the theme of the week. For example…
Q1: Which self-help book are you reading at the moment? #AlchemyofSelf
Participate by answering the question. For example…
A1: I am reading When things fall apart by Pema Chodron #AlchemyofSelf
Throughout the week, feel free to share your thoughts and experiences of your own transformation with the hashtag #AlchemyofSelf. If you are looking for answers or support, post a question with this tag, you will receive answers and words of wisdom from around the world.
Some suggested platforms to help you follow the discussion: Hootsuite, TweetGrid, and TweatDeck.
The last 3 months has been interesting and challenging to say the least. Between learning the oddities of Twitter and building up material for my blog on tumblr and all the other little things that pops up in life… I’ve had one of my best Summers ever!! I’ve learned to not stress myself out or put myself down for leaving my 9 to 5 world behind. I don’t ever want to see that miserable Karen around – ever!
This new Karen who has freedom to do as she pleases, explore new ventures in life, love and career, is a lot happier and friendlier – less moody and waaaay less stress out. I taught myself how to tweak the HTML on tumblr, forward my website domain to my tumblr blog, and layout my first official business card! Now my tumblr site have been successfully revamped to look a bit more like a website; with my writings separated into categories – photos and words aren’t getting buried. I can let out a sigh of relieve and give myself a pat on the back :-)
I would like say a super, mega THANKS to all the generous geeks online and forever grateful for their very helpful postings on the interweb! Without your willingness to share your knowledge, I would still be pulling my hair out and perhaps crying at why nothing looks like what I want. I know, I know, you’re thinking why didn’t I just pay someone to get it all done professionally… well you see, I’m really a Chinese cheap (as someone I knew termed it). I am of Chinese decent and I naturally pinch my pennies as though I can and will take all my money to the grave – silly I know. I am not a scrooge to others but I have been and can be a scrooge to myself – I am trying to change this trait as well. I mean we only live once, well depending on your view of reincarnation and parallel universes / dimensions. Either way, I don’t like to be broke. I like to know I have enough money in the bank in case of an extended monsoon season (not just a rainy day) and trust me, I have splurged many-a-times on myself before – I just want to watch my money a bit more carefully while culturally & currently, I am full-time unemployed. Well I am employing myself with this blog, it’s just taking a bit to generate income, that’s all. Also, with me taking a couple of university courses this fall and my big dream of an extended trip in 2013… I will have to come up with some different methods of income.
I have been doing some serious purging the last few months; took some items to women shelters, charity donation bins and charity garage sales. [Hello, My name is Karen and I am a Pack Rat. Thanks to my constant body weight, I have clothes from the previous decade that still fits me.] I have also been leaving the older “splurged” items at consignment shops to find them a better home. Then of course there were the Craigslist postings and Kijiji postings to sell off some miscellaneous items. Let’s just say, I’ve made a lot of space in my place, so much so that I will have room for a roommate in the spare room. This will be a new adventure as I have never, ever had a roommate in my 37 years on this Earth – well I’m not counting the live-in boyfriends.
To me this adventure isn’t about bringing in income. The greatest payoff will be the lessons in tolerance, finding my patience, communicate openly and constructively – I’m sure there will be a lot more lessons to be learned. These are just the main ones I have discussed with my roommate-to-be whom I used to work with at the office. Nevertheless, in life, every day we are on one learning curve or another.
