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Drink. 😍 #drink #wine #alchoolic #loveit #lovedrink

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[stefanobelingardi]

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[m1nd5t0rm]

#Beerpong di #fineanno! 💪😜🎆🎾 #Alchoolic #Christmastree #pingpong #cocktail #shot #table #friend

[lifentimesofmargo]

Don't be so surprised Everyone drinks It's no big deal Ya it's personal

[myinsanerecovery]

Funny (kinda) story

I was contacted earlier by a good friend of mine from the Corps, I wont use names as he is still in. But He and I used to travel to San Diego together often. Anyways he had seen the picture of me holding the glass of wine and said it took him back to a awesome (I guess it was almost a year) run we had together between Yuma and San Diego. It was probably one of the most camaraderie filled, fun and adventurous points in my life as well.

I digress. I remembered each Friday planning-out at work how we would stagger our schedules to be ready the quickest, so we could jump in the the car rock out to Figure & Whiskey Pete "Cutt Throat" like 80 times, or the time we were playing a song I had declared gay, Ellie Goulding "Lights" (a year at least before any of you had heard it,) and another close friend of ours who went on our trips snapped awake and said something to the affect of "dude she just said your name", and how now whenever I hear that song I cant not hear her say Cody instead of Calling. I should have never broke that poor girls heart, haha. 

I was reminiscing about all the planning we would do on Friday, or if we were lucky to get a long weekend on Thursday, because of all the fun we were gonna have that weekend. The feeling of trust and friendship I felt when I was with these people was phenomenal, I knew we were going to have a lot of fun but that nothing bad was going to happen because we had each others backs. 

And then I remembered those Fridays in my room getting ready. Walk in the door with the freshly purchased 5th of Vodka after an entire day without liquor cause I had been at work. Excited to get ready to go! Take off the camis, swig of vodka (not much time.) Jump in the shower, swig of vodka. get out of the shower to start getting ready, swig of vodka. Double check everything was packed from the night before, swig of vodka. Look at my phone, send back vulgar replies to my 2 amigos, to the first that I have been ready and no I haven't heard from Pedro. And to Pedro, hey bro you better not be playing batman, its time to roll (I wouldn't get a response almost always had to go to his room and pound on his door where I would find him in underwear playing Batman, or Assassins creed lol. Id pack and he would dress, then Id drag his ass out). After the texts, swig of vodka. Text back ok man Im coming to the car. Ready to walk out the door to find Pedro, swig of vodka, kill that bitch. Then start with the bubble gum and cigarettes.

I wasn't chugging that fifth of vodka because I wanted to get drunk for a 3 hour car ride, I was doing it because I needed it to feel normal. And I didn't have to balls at that point to tell anyone about that part of my life, not even my closest friends at the time.  But that is what alcoholism will do to you, it will cloud your mind light it still does mine. It will make you truly believe that you need it, and as it begins to progress you truly chemically and physically will need it to be able to be normal. If I hadn't had a drink that day, my friends would tell me I was acting weird at that point. So because they didn't know my struggle, they in a way assisted my fears that I did in fact need that poison for my body. 

I wish now I could go back, and experience those times completely sober. I did go back to San Diego after my first time in rehab 3 times, the first 2 times I was completely sober. It was a great experience, but unfortunately Pedro had passed away, on a San Diego trip with someone else I was supposed to go on with him but could not go. And my other close friend has been re-stationed elsewhere where it just wasn't feasible to pick him up (haha.) The third trip I had my first relapse after an attempt at maintaining sobriety. I remember thinking I can have just a few, Ive been sober 80 days now I can just have a few and Ill be fine. And it scared the death out of me once I felt the alcohol in my system because I knew I wanted more. I ran, unfortunately I ran in my car back to Yuma from San Diego while drunk. And when I say ran I was clocked at 138mph, I topped out at 165. I was charged with felony reckless driving, 2 counts of DUI, and one count evading arrest because at 138mph I had no idea there was a cop I had passed who was stopped on an on-ramp where I couldn't see him at 80. I was focused on the road. Boy you should have seen SgtMaj Michael Montoya's face after that one, it was fucking priceless. He didn't like me much after that cause I held a billet that he said he was going to take away, and I told him I had already stepped down myself. He looked at me said 'Arent you mr stand up guy' all of a sudden, get the fuck out of my office. You guys will be hearing much more of my interactions with him, they are hilarious I swear some of my best stories. TTFN TaTa For Now.

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