#aleena talks

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Eid Mubarak 🌸🌸

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E I D ✨🌸🌸

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I need to relearn Urdu so I can read all the bomb poetry. I can speak and understand Urdu and used to be able to read and write it too but now I'm getting rusty because I haven't used it in so long. Does anyone know any language books that can help me learn?

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I don’t live in America but if I did then my current citizen status would be that off a greencard. It’s so scary to think that if I lived in America rather than England my mum and brother would not be able to return back into the country after their holiday. 

it’s just scary because you can have a greencard even when you have been living in the country for 10 years (like me) or even more and actively contribute to the society, if it’s all you’ve ever known you can still be seen as so alien. 

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Mum's gone on holiday and I've had to do all the household chores for the past week I literally had to do the washing THREE!!! times today and the day isn't even over yet.

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so I started talking to this guy, he’s really cute, I genuinely feel so comfortable with him and he actually reciprocates my level of love. I was just like- oh... a genuinely nice guy, how sweet, kinda like him. until I found out he has a girlfriend- like actually just kill me off fml 

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This guy is talking to me about how I shouldn't the proud of being brown or I should be proud of being Pakistani because race and nationality is just a concept that you shouldn't be proud off. I understand that but seriously fuck off- this pride is something I earned, I fought for it! I'm not just proud of my brown skin because I was born with it, I learned to love it and love my culture despite of western societal demands. Don't you dare come at me with your white,male, upper-middle class self and try to tell me that me being happy with who I am as a person is racist.

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4am, sitting in my room, thinking about Eurocentric ideas of beauty being fed to beautiful brown girls to destroy their confidence from within, getting angry.