There's this concept that we talk about a lot in medical school and particularly osteopathy called the allostatic load. It is basically all the things that are weighing on the patient and causing their dysfunction. For example, if someone has cancer, they've got something huge on their plate. But they also have to worry about finances, who's gonna watch their kids, worrying about their loved ones, and maybe they have a bunch of somatic dysfunction from lack of movement. In OMM, our goal is to reduce that allostatic load. Sure, it might not fix all their problems, but it'll take something off their plate so they don't have to worry quite as much or be quite as uncomfortable.
My allostatic load is pretty high right now with just this neuro exam and maybe soreness from training, but I'm healthy and I can handle it.
Until the school decided to swoop in and teach us venipunture next week. I'm terrified of needles. And they keep emailing us to make sure we prepare. While they know we're studying for neuro.
I knew I would have to face my fear this year. But I really thought they would wait until after neuro to dump that on us. I'm literally full-body trembling as I write this. I can barely keep myself from crying when I get an IV from a professional, let alone a first attempt.
But I'm really trying to only focus on neuro until Monday at least.
Edit: I forgot to mention that I'm also terrified of passing as soon as the needle touches me. I've passed out after a finger prick before. And hit my head and got a concussion that I had to see a neurologist for. Ahhhhh