Jan 12
Being a maternal alter is difficult when you don’t have anything to be maternal to. It’s not what any of our alters need right now, but I’m still a maternal alter. It’s difficult.
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Being a maternal alter is difficult when you don’t have anything to be maternal to. It’s not what any of our alters need right now, but I’m still a maternal alter. It’s difficult.
Maybe hot take but I don’t understand the host centric approach I often see when interacting in plural spaces. I have no problems with our host but I’m allowed to have other opinions. I’m allowed to disagree with how they are handling our body. Constantly in the past, it was either the host’s way or the highway. I wasn’t allowed to have a difference in opinion from the host in a space we were active in. I don’t get it.
Example, today, I started fronting later (by traditional standards) but I’m not allowed to do what I want because the others that were here with me (in the background) wanted to get the host’s priorities done. I would have loved to play the game I’ve been looking forward to but I had to do the host’s dailies in their game first. And now we are supposed to be going to bed shortly because we work full time. So between actually taking care of the body (which isn’t my problem, I’m universally expected to do this, it’s my body), handling my system roles (which is why I’m fronting in the first place) and handling the host’s wants (cause I was being influenced into doing), I wasn’t allowed to do my wants once the chores were done.
I just don’t understand how the host’s (who isn’t in front) priorities were put before the guy who is looking to have a little stress relief after handling his job.
Keep in mind, I have no idea who the host is. I’ve never met them. They’ve never met me. I know they exist because the others talking about them. They may know I exist because the assigned gatekeeper where I live innerly recorded basic details about everyone in our area in our SimplyPlural.
~ “Murmur”
do you ever have that urge to roleplay your source but you feel disgusted or cringe just thinking about it or is that just me.
we need to lock in. we get registered for classes tomorrow and we need to lock in- i estimate a few days before our academic alters realize they’re needed again- we’ll see XD
uggggghhhhhh i have energy but im still sick but i want a change like a piercing or new hair or something!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sometimes, I wonder how some of my headmates have so many sources.
There's this one guy who has over 7 different sources and just sits around with his hands in his hands cause he can't decided on what he wants to look like.
Shits wild dudes - A
Day 26
Day Twenty-Six: What aspect of DID do you find most challenging in daily life? I guess probably the fact that we, as alters, cannot really be ourselves when we are fronting. Especially those of a different gender, but not only that, it is difficult not hearing your own voice come from the mouth, it is not easy being shorter or taller than you actually are, not being an,e to wear the clothes that make you the most comfortable because we don't own them nor do we have the money to buy a multitude of different outfits. That is what we struggle with