#and fear

[otterpuppss]

pickles endless hunger and greed

[visualheretic]

The tickling scene between Niall and Maura made me wonder if she's actually the perpetrator of Reuben's childhood abuse rather than his dad... and the implications of that... Reuben feeling a sense of obligation and devotion to Maura while still being revealed to abuse her in turn as an adult... Perhaps he holds so much hatred towards his father not because he's the one who abused him, but because he can't get himself to hate Maura for the abuse so he hates his father for letting it happen. I find it's very common for children to grow up with a parent who abuses them and find it difficult to hate them (especially mothers) because they're taught that the abuse is love. I wonder if Maura was the one who did this to Reuben and despite him knowing he was abused and the resentment bubbling up (beating on Maura) he was still very close with her and devoted to her even more so after she lost any capacity to do anything (another thought there..) and redirects his anger to his father because its easier to face than confronting his true feelings towards his mother and maybe the reason he's so angry when he learns his father is having another kid isn't because he's scared he will abuse that child, but that he'd let it happen again. Also makes me wonder about the scene of his dad outside the window yelling. If that's why it's so difficult for Reuben to hear and why his dad was so torn up about it. Thinking thinking thinking...

[around-the-venom]

remembered i downloaded TPK and i listened to Dive at 2am and although it was incredibly beautiful, it made me feel something i don’t think i ever want to feel again

[tacomicfujoshi]

Hey! Do you have any thoughts on taco competing in season 4? I remember when i first watched hearing there was going to be another competition i paused the video and said Taco Will Hate This. And then she joined and i was like oh okay! If she wants to i guess. As a certified tacoposter. Do you have any ideas why she did that?

YES! its because taco wants to make up for her failures in s2. taco is explicitly trying to show that she is a changed/better person now through the game . its the first thing she says to soap during the challenge!

taco wants to show everyone shes 'good' now that she can be trusted and relied on. this is also shown through her word in the challenge . 'clean' because she wants to play cleanly (boring, safe, tame etc!) but also MORAL! she wants to show everyone thats shes 'good' and has morals and isnt the evil/manipulative person she was coded to be . that she can be morally 'pure' and 'clean'

shes also motivated by mepads death. mepad was a figure that was important to her and was (another) object taco sees as 'moral' someone who was just and on her side that got cut out way too soon . mepad isnt around to see how taco is growing or changing . she wants to be able to prove that she can be the person mepad believed she could be

also i HATE HATE HATE to be that guy but its like . its microphone lowkey also . taco wants to make it up to microphone for how she treated her in season 2 . she still feels guilty about it .

taco talking to microphone and bringing up the game is a direct parallel to their conversation in the finale just with their roles swapped . taco has been itching for an excuse to make it up to microphone ! she wants to prove that they can work together normally and be friends

wait what the hell okay this made me . i just realized taco says honesty is important and then its revealed mics word is honesty. yeah okay. what the fuck . okay whatever . oh my god mics lie its litaerlly the lets not do it in secret one again . yeah okay

tldr: it all boils down to taco believing that she HAS to prove herself as someone that can be 'forgiven' and accepted into greater object society and that this can ONLY be done through her actions (such as helping her teammates)

[allastoredeer]

heya I had a question about your fics. I know you’re working on so many things at the moment and the newest fics and the olders that aren’t done and just wanted to say that you’re amazing with your work, love your arts and all, hope you’re doing healthy and happy.

So, my BIG QUESTION, is will your work “Deepest Desires” be continued? It was left on a cliff hanger. Ahaha

I love the theme of the story, amazing work 🙌🙌🙌

The rational side of my brain tells me not to post so many wips cuz I'm going to overwhelm myself.

The dopamine-addicted side of my brain says you can't tell me what to do POST THEM ALL!

They are at constant war but I think you can tell which one is winning.

THat being said, I have every intentional of continuing "Deepest Desires." I have too many scenes planned out in my head to never finish it. They are emotionally devastating and I love making people feel emotions.

[indighostly333]

beamed the toxic sludge in my mind onto jax. these doodle pages have been so good for me. i have more doodles coming soon that are less depressing i prommy

[fairytwles]

yell.....yellowja....yellowjackets day...... 😟