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[djarinova]

the skys more blue‧₊˚.

HIDDEN BEHIND THE TORN CORNER OF A CANVAS IN A FRAME THERE LIES A NOTE. IT READS:

he took me to the beach this afternoon!! i dont know how he managed to prep all of this in secret but he made us the most beautiful picnic, it had all of my favourites—raspberries, strawberries, lemon water and that pastry i can never remember the name of (to name a few, but there were so many more things!!).

the sky was so beautiful, my favourite shade of blue and he wore that shirt that i love... ♡

i still don't know how i got so lucky. to be surrounded by the love of my crew is one thing, but this new, scary and exhilarating relationship i have with sanji... i never thought something like that could happen to ME

I never sat by the shore under the sun with my feet in the sand

But you brought me here and I'm happy that you did

..

We watched the sun go down as we were walking

I'd spend the rest of my life just standing here talking

..

We are just like the waves that flow back and forth

Sometimes I feel like I'm drowning and you're there to save me

And I wanna thank you with all of my heart

It's a brand new start

A dream come true

thank you so much @lyqiche for the wonderful comm! you were so easy to talk to & im beyond happy with the end result !! you're amazing!! thank you again <3

[dannirr00ni]

the every breath i take is a self confession. my roleplay character of that one shitty fandom who's friends with everyone but would abandon all of them at any moment for a select few, addict of some sort, a dramatic two-faced liar who acts all high and mighty but barely even knows who he is? his brother who's a jerk to everyone, wallows in his self misery, harms himself to get the attention of everyone else, has emotional outbursts three times a day? also me. the way both of them wallow in their stupid misery because it makes them feel more validated than doing all the right things and still feeling like shit? the way every character i own has "shitty and toxic" as part of their personality and is "proud" of it to not have to face the truth crashing down on them that they're actually fucking unbearable to be around? that's all me and yet you see all those and act surprised when i drop you for my best friend? face it penny, if you never expected me to "pull a kaz" and choose my shitty toxic best friend over you, my shitty toxic friend, you're fucking stupid. ive always been like this, ive TOLD YOU the entire personality description was just me. even without telling you you knew, you told me, yet you're the one giving me long-winded surprised speeches on the topic? honey, I'm only really loyal to four people and you were barely ever part of that.

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

I know it’s been talked about ad nauseam, but I think one of the things that got lost in the discourse about TTPD and the muses and whatnot is how one of, if not the core trigger points of the album is the yearning for commitment and perhaps even more poignantly, motherhood.

The reason she was so susceptible to falling for the “conman’s get love quick schemes” is because she was grieving that imagined life with the person she had long assumed would be the one to give her that. What has been beyond clear in several albums, let alone interviews etc, is that those plans for building a family were very much real and top of mind for years, and she kept holding on and shifting her world in service of making that happen. And when whatever happened happened that pulled that rug out from under her, it left her bereft not just for the relationship that had once been her world but also the imagined family she had been hoping for and sticking out the hard times for.

And that’s likely why she was swayed by and trusting of the promises of someone who knew her history and knew how unmooring that loss was to her. It may have been partially about the person himself or lust or whatever, but the core issue was the pain of giving up the dream, and sublimating that dream into this new opportunity in front of her, because she was so desperate to hold onto the last scraps of that imagined life she wanted so badly. (And I don’t mean desperate as in pathetic or negative, I mean as in fighting within the last ounce of energy and hope she had.) It wasn’t rational and it wasn’t love, it was grief, not just for a relationship but even more so for the family it represented.

So to me the core issue of TTPD isn’t just the Joe vs. Matty or whoever of it all: it’s Taylor and her yearning. She wanted a family badly and a life that was theirs and was processing losing that in all kinds of ways. It’s all over the album in overt and subtle lyrics. It may not have been grieving a literal death but I’d bet it felt pretty darn close.

And I’d also bet that’s why we’re seeing… what we’re seeing now.

(I have so many more thoughts about womanhood and motherhood on TTPD but that is another post being worked on piecemeal in my drafts… this is just a little Saturday morning post-zoomies reflection)

[rozanovshane]

they should invent a me that doesn’t get migraines

[owen-not-carvour]

ok starkid fans, question.

why do we hate robert manion again??

and why so much???

little disclaimer before i get to the tags: not trying to raise any chaos or anything… i genuinely want to know because in my memory the issue wasn’t That Bad (not trying to diminish anything ofc) bc i thought it was all mostly resolved by the time it was publicized..

[oni-dump]

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[lilacponds]

i was tired and was gonna go to bed, like, 3 hours ago, but i was in a vc with friends and then one of them asked if i wanted to play something together so i was like sure !

we just stopped playing totally reliable delivery service, me and them and two other friends

and, man.

i missed just playing silly videogames and having fun with my friends.