Come back to how it was, come back to normal, come back to patterns , come back to it being a give and take, come back to wear it all feels safe. Come back to answers and questions and ways to escape that feel whole and in place . Come back to normal I desperatly scream, do i not matter ? Do I not mean a thing-- come back is all I am asking because now its been a week of this travisty and My body is trying as it shakes and it cries , my body is trying to convice itself with these lies, i am begging and pleading because I CAN NOT TAKE IT THIS TIME, come back to whats normal 30 options to be normal, 30 ways to change, 30 times I'll beg for things to stay the same because now im drowning and im expressing whats on my brain . -- please for me come back . Normal , is needed-- normal is supposed to be safe, your supposed to be safe. Whats safe your safe. This is safe and for once I just ... half assed replies welcome--- Im at that point in tears begging for something to stay the same, i have been abused and abandoned. Beaten and raped, i have been lockef up and shut down but you stayed all the same, you are the constant the only persom i havent ignored its funny as im drowning here , --- wondering if this will change i have 30 reasons for you to respond i have 30 reasons to beg , i have 30 things to type in -- please just stop leaving please answer , please stop leaving because this doesn't feel okay . At all , this is not normal and its what my brain craves --- patterns, normal. You reply , I reply, we repeat--- please.
