Adding to the DJSS theme…
Trigger warning for toxic parents, just in case
I think that some of his existentialism and inferiority issues stem from his mother…. Not all of it, because I think studying outer space enough to be a teacher may mess up your perception of humanity.
His mom didn’t help though. She was very much the type to pressure him to do great things, and she was even ashamed that his star matter needed to be held inside a helmet lest it sucks everything around him in.
He still visits her. It’s not always pleasant.
Ngl, I can kinda see him as having been put under extensive pressure from parents to have excelled in what he pursued—
I’ve always kinda hc’ed him being held to the expectation that he not only be held to this expectation of greatness, but almost this sort of… You have to be THE best, supersede everyone around you to really make an impact, to have any semblance of worth in the grander scheme of things… lest you harbor no significance—this sort of expecting him to be at the top… & thus simultaneously also frowning upon him for even the smallest of shortcomings, being subjected to an inordinate amount od pressure of having to “prove himself” to them through the aspirations he pursues, to not be deemed insignificant
Put under that pressure of needing to be at the top lest your shortcomings & mistakes be thrown in your face, to where it feels like they almost don’t have any faith in you—in addition to own hcs about him having been extensively met with ridicule & other such factors in much younger years?
Thus brings about my hcs on where his self aggrandizing behaviors have roots in—evidently they can’t even come close to your vision if they think of you as a failure. Besides they clearly expect you to excel, so evidently that means you must be destined for greatness, something they can’t even hope to comprehend. A means of disproving to himself what was instilled in him.
& like—due to that I’ve always felt that’s led to him viewing others as competition, the way they expected he outshine the rest & prove himself to be the best combined with… everything else, really. As a musician would very likely /especially/ view those with an even /remotely/ similar theme to him as competition to stomp out—please, these hopeless excuses of “artists” attempting to steal his shine? To outdo his clear superiority? He is the center of the cosmos, these other pathetic imitations of his greatness could never compare!
Tear down the stars around you to make room for your own, I figure, is how he ends up viewing others—but, coming back to the original topic…
I can absolutely hc that he would not. Be fond of any encounters with family because of this so I can see that finding displeasure in visiting her (I’ve had a hc where its either minimal contact, or straight up none at all after everything—but yeah)
-⚸ Is♄tar ♇