#another ramble

[ephemeral-roses]

I'll always be wary of people in mythology communities that only speak about fertility goddesses when talking about important goddesses, marking their fertility as feminine power and saying that about nothing else, and not talking about how there were fertility gods in these same religions.

It narrows down a woman's importance to their fertility and says that the only way a woman can find importance within herself is through the ability to give birth, and women's roles are only to conceive a child and that men don't need to worry. And, of course, it then says fertility is a sacred thing that women possess and must maintain, or else she is disconnected or had severed from her importance.

[k00ps]

Once again talking about the long walk because someone brought up that Ray and Pete’s connection could be seen as platonic brotherhood. While that’s true, I don’t think it serves one the themes of the movie very well: masculinity.

*Brotherhood* is seen within the musketeers, the camaraderie of the boys helping each other when they didn’t have to, and even when Stebbins did what he did near his last moments. The idea of brotherhood supports masculinity, and even with it being a competition, it feels more like a military draft, so brotherhood in some way was bound to happen. Because of the context, emasculation of the boys was inevitable the moment they were invited to the Walk. That was the ideal image the Major wanted. This is the same energy you see within modern day fraternities or sports teams.

Now take these very same environments and make two of the group members queer for each other. How would the others react? I’ll wait.

Jk but in all seriousness, the queerness immediately slices the idea of masculinity in half. Gay men are immediately feminized in masculine environments, so the very concept of Pete and Ray being queer undercuts what the Walk pushes for. Queerness has no place in a hypermasculine environment, so framing it as “brotherhood” is the safest way for it to exist without giving it an actual name. It’s also a very easy way for the two of them to engage with each other without even fully understanding the nature of the feelings. In my opinion, it isn’t until the very last moments the two have together that it is recognized as love that expands past platonic and into something more.

Queerness deserves to exist wherever and with whomever. Queerness doesn’t make you any less masculine or feminine. Queerness is just another way to express love, but the Long Walk only accept masculinity and strips all else. To have a queer love that endured such a long walk means everything.

[anothermention]

Does anyone else think about the fact that Magolor probably heard of or saw all of the Dream Kingdom versions of the dream friends before meeting their counterparts in Star Allies?

[aisquaredchoco]

Nothing to see here, just a TS2 window succesfully converted..😁

Another milestone I guess, and I'm proud of it. This just shows that when you wanted something so badly you'd go through hoops just to achieve it (a lot of trial and error aligning the mesh parts and those $*#@&%^ wall masks). And yeah, I guess I got what I wanted to have in my game, this TS2 window being converted at last.

[somestrangestone]

Oh btw I wrote down some predictions for pansmp...if anyone cares (aka im putting them here because then if i'm right i can scream about it)

these have been slightly adapted from the ones I wrote a couple weeks ago (aka ren has been removed)

Pearl as Hermes because she said she’s some kind of antagonist and also the VIBES

Cleo as Demeter theyre have such farmer vibes she’s so the kind of person who could be found in a field yk

Drift as Athena smort one idk it just feels right

Apo as Hera hellfire background plot anyone?

Shelby as Artemis I don’t have strong reasoning for this one it just seems correct as I’ve said THE VIBES

Martyn as Apollo idk if martyn is a particular good archer but like he’s kinda a jack of all trades and that’s the same as apollo

Scott as Aphrodite he would LOVE this he would be so good too another snobby Scott character would just be *chefs kiss*

Legs as Hephaestus THE VIBES DO YOU SEE THE VISION

Pyro as Poseidon he’s said he’s playing a more chill character iirc so yk sea man

Abolish as Zeus he’s powerful he’s important he’s like super good at pvp of course the most important god wants him

Owen as Aries he’s just got that aggression yk I just VIBES

Sausage as Dionysus again the VIBES this guy is very wine god core I feel like he’s love to represent

PS I know theyre CHAMPIONS and not the gods themselves I just didn’t phrase them like that shut up.

also most of them are just off vibes but like vibes and wishes are the way I live life soooo

(@aries0nmars I think you should see)

[valkoswolf]

y'all remember that moment at the beginning of the game? when atreus and kratos make it back to their home after the tussle with freya? how kratos is going to take care of the deer, since he thinks atreus is still handling the wolves? only to then turn around and see that atreus has both tasks handled on his own? and he's handling both so well at once? and he didn't even say anything? he just did them on his own without prompting, without needing to be told? and how you can SEE the realization in kratos's face that his boy is growing up? that he's blooming, unfolding into his own man, that will be able to care for himself, even without his father? the way he smiles softly, his face relaxing as he nods to himself with pride for the man his boy is becoming?

ya know, this moment?

yeah, cause up to that point, kratos had been so worried, so concerned, terrified even because of that prophecy that he would die and leave atreus alone, and without protection. sure, he doesn't believe in prophecy and believes in changing one's own fate, but that had planted the seed of fear in his mind. the thing is, though, he wasn't even worried that he was going to die. he wasn't afraid of death. no, he was afraid of leaving atreus on his own. he didn't care about his own death, he only cared about how his son would live without him.

so for him, seeing that, after atreus had hunted and held his own with freya, that was such a huge lift off of his shoulders. sure, he is still anxious, still terrified that atreus won't survive on his own, but what parent isn't?

that moment means a lot to me... so much said with no actual words on kratos's face.

[slxthserenade]

One thing I’ll really miss in P4rewind (I don’t CARE it’s rewind in my head) is the character portraits and how back then Persona was still willing to include SOME variety in facial features.

P3-4 were still willing to use shapes to give characters some variety, like how Junpei is overall quite lanky, Mitsuru is sharp everywhere, Fuuka was round and quite simple but still tilted to one side. Those things MATTER, and I missed them so much in P3R. I wasn’t a huge fan of its style honestly, yes it was more visually complete but the characters felt like .. rubber ??? I don’t know how to word it. Just so polished.

Recently JRPGs have been really leaning towards the very anime very cookie cutter genshin-style polished art styles, which is like really sad to me personally because P3-4’s character visuals genuinely did try to make them at least a bit diverse facially, maybe not necessarily through CLEAR inclusion of different features, but definitely through the angles and silhouettes they used for portraits. I think the thin lineart and sort of faded art styles definitely gave them more liberty.

I see this the most with P4’s cast tbh. Kanji DID have pretty clear hooded / downturned eyes, and his smile portrait gave him an almost childish softness to remind you this guy is 16 and also a lovely person. Yosuke doesn’t necessarily or clearly HAVE those, but the angle of his portrait makes me imagine him with a fairly long face and sorta full lips (I know this is a play with the shadow in his art but still !), and those things have him a near feminine softness in some situations OR alludes to his very acute intelligence in others. Yukiko has a heart shaped face and a button nose and for all their efforts to make her a traditionally beautiful Japanese girl, she still came out as one of the most unique vivid portraits to me. Chie had really round, big eyes and a tiny chin and I loved the inclusion of a BIT of muscle on her. Rise’s smile was SO COOL to me because of how you can tell her smile is almost practiced, but it’s become so habitual to her that it’s now just her smile, still a perfect parallel to her character.

Dojima and Nanako are so subtle but THEY LOOK RELATED I don’t know how to explain it. The way Nanako’s eyebrows look in her neutral portrait make it seem like she’s deadpanning just like Dojima, and Dojima himself has this softness that comes from the side angle of his portrait and reminds me of Nanako when she’s like waiting for something. Their faces also soften the exact same way. Maybe it’s also their mannerisms affecting my perception but I can just so vividly imagine these characters as real people and give them real features and expressions. Like sometimes I feel a bit intimidated by kids because their main mode is deadpan and I don’t know if this is a reaction or just a neutral state, and Nanako reminded me exactly of that.

This is so hard to explain especially because im really not well versed in art-related vocab, im just trying to articulate a really strong vibe and that vibe is just vividness in how REAL the game is.

[drieddpetals]

do y'all ever think about what if maybe wylan didn't want to run the van eck empire after jan was thrown in jail? he inherits everything his father and family before him has built at such a young age, and while he's fully capable, it's still such a massive thing to deal with. i feel like him maybe not wanting to do that with his life is never really explored. in conclusion i will be thinking about my boy and will probably be caught writing something pertaining to this.