#anxious-avoidant

[holidayhearrt]

when you are anxious-avoidant in relationships how do u prevent yourself from actively seeking/being drawn to anxious-avoidant partners? my romantic relationships are constantly dumpster fires and I want to die

[8tch]

The Fearful-Avoidant

The fearful-avoidant attachment style (also called disorganized or anxious-avoidant) is a more recently recognized attachment style, exhibiting characteristics of both the dismissive-avoidant and preoccupied-anxious attachment styles. People with this kind of attachment style have an ongoing ambivalence in the sense that they never want to be too close to their partner, but never too far either. They have a need for love and intimacy but fear it at the same time, creating a push-and-pull dynamic within the relationship. They oscillate between the spectrum of fearing too much closeness and too much distance from their partner or close relationships, and go through a lot of inner turbulence, causing this to serve as a breeding ground for anger and resentment.

People with this attachment style tend to pick up a lot of subtle micro-expressions like their partner’s change of tone, or slight change in mood and expression. Resulting from trying to observe and predict their caregiver’s behavior, their hyper vigilance to other people’s behaviors manifest as a need to manipulate their way out of being controlled, manipulated, or betrayed. They generally fear not deserving or being worthy of love, and have a hard time trusting or needing another person in fear of having their needs left rejected or unmet. In childhood, the person they turn to for comfort is also the person who caused them pain. The fearful-avoidant wants to love, but when they start loving outside a certain degree, they tend to feel helpless or trapped, turning that feeling into resentment and anger towards their partner. They can look for subtle flaws in their partner to make sense of the negative feelings they feel and self-sabotage the relationship. Sometimes this type finds themselves with a dismissive-avoidant partner, and they can exhibit more anxious behaviors, depending on the situation. They tend to express feelings well, but typically good at communicating needs.

Some characteristics of the fearful-avoidant:

Negative view of self and others

Constantly “testing” a partner with negative behavior, looking for signs of abandonment

Self-sabotages relationships

Low self-confidence and self-worth

Tendency to avoid relationships

Difficulty building trust

Feeling trapped and smothered when a partner gets too close

Finds it hard to express feelings, show affection and seek intimacy

Fears being too vulnerable or revealing too much

Constantly seeks approval from their partner for security

Disassociation, feeling detached from reality and feelings

In childhood:

Fearful-avoidant attachment is the traumatic result of emotional neglect or abuse during childhood. The fearful-avoidant child does not really develop their ability to self-soothe, because their caregivers do not fully deprive them of their physical and/or emotional needs. They are totally dependent on their caregiver to meet their needs, but at the same time does not fully trust the caregiver. Their needs will sometimes be met, and sometimes be dismissed, creating insecurity and turbulence within the household. Because of this, they fail to develop an organized attachment strategy, hence the term “disorganized”. The key emotion experienced by the child is fear. The child might have seen their parents regularly fighting, abusing each other, or even be the recipient of abuse. The child might also have only had their needs met under conditions (like when they sit down quietly for a certain amount of time, else they are punished). They learn, at an early age, that love is turbulent and chaotic. That’s what becomes familiar to them, and they associate it with what "love" should be in their adult lives.

How to work towards secure attachment:

Seek help from a professional. A therapist would serve as a secure attachment, while helping the fearful-avoidant process and resolve past trauma. The therapist can help them identify triggers and come up with solutions that help regulate emotional distress, slowly working them towards a more secure attachment.

Be more mindful and aware. Being more mindful and aware of your attachment style can give you a clearer understanding of why you feel and act the way you do and can help you look at things more objectively. Mindful practices like meditation can also help rewire your brain, reversing damage caused by past trauma.

Seek secure partners. Partners with an insecure attachment style can cause more damage and trigger a fearful-avoidant person’s unhealthy behaviors. A securely attached person can help provide a sense of security and acceptance to the fearful-avoidant.

Learn to communicate needs. Fearful-avoidants tend to internalize things, often having suspicions for their partners. They may overanalyze their partner’s actions and hold on to things that validate their suspicions, and may lash out for seemingly no reason.

Learn to express vulnerability. For a fearful-avoidant, expressing themselves and their vulnerabilities is a difficult task to do. Expressing themselves might communicate that they care, and for them, caring can make them seem more susceptible to being harmed or rejected. In a relationship, vulnerability is important to build emotional connection. The fearful-avoidant should realize that they are no longer children, and are strong enough to handle being vulnerable to whatever problems come their way. They need to realize that they have autonomous control over their actions and decisions, and are able to leave in events that they are harmed.

Set clear boundaries. Being able to communicate boundaries helps your partner have a clearer sense of what you need to feel more secure. For example, in an event you start to feel smothered, communicating the need for space could be the only thing you need to solve the problem.

Repetition and emotional regulation. The traumatized brain was programmed through repetition and emotion, so rewiring can be done in that way, too. Repeatedly give your brain reasons as to why you're safe and no longer trapped, helpless, and powerless. Convince yourself you are safe in love, and that you are strong enough to handle it. You are no longer a helpless toddler, but an adult that has gone through growth and experience.

Resources:

@EmotionEnhancement, Rachel. (2018). The fearful avoidant attachment style. Retrieved from https://www.emotionenhancement.com/single-post/Attachment-Styles-In-Adults/The-Fearful-Avoidant-Attachment-Style

Personal Development School — Thais Gibson. (2018, September 3). Fearful Avoidant Attachment Style [Video]. YouTube. Retrieved from https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nJJJpvJ2TAc

Levine, A. & Heller, R. (2011). Attached: the New Science of Adult Attachment and How It Can Help You Find--and Keep--Love. TarcherPerigee

Last Updated: 5/20/2020

[aparrotandaqrow]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Decided to try my hand at some Catradora!

Summary: Catra and Adora sleep beneath the stars on their way to a mission together--and Catra wrestles with relationship anxieties.

Note: Some of the themes and events in this fic are drawn from my own relationship experiences. If you're curious, Catra is exhibiting some anxious attachment in her relationship with Adora, which is super common and can easily lead to unhealthy relationship behaviors. Specifically, Catra is probably anxious-avoidant, which can be quite challenging to deal with. If what Catra is feeling resonates with you, just know that you don't have to feel this way--it is possible to work to understand yourself and learn secure attachment responses and behaviors. I have been benefiting a great deal from navigating my anxious attachment behaviors with my therapist. Spending your relationships worried that your partner doesn't want you is no way to live--trust me, it can get better ❤️

[pupspup-j]

trying to heal my toxic attachment styles to have a better healthy secure relationship.

[w0uldntitb3nic3]

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[psychologyy-blog]

attachment & love

Secure attachment:

More trusting 

Tend to have long-term relationships 

High self-esteem and high regard for others 

Generous and supportive when lovers are under stress 

Positive optimistic and constructive in interacting with others.

Anxious-resistant:

High break-up rate despite deep involvement 

Intense grieving following loss 

Unstable self-esteem with self-doubt 

Tend to be emotional, especially when under stress 

Jealous and untrusting.

Anxious-avoidant:

Less investment in relationships 

Prefers to be alone 

Withdraws from partner when under stress 

Find social interactions boring and irrelevant 

Do not like self-disclosure by self and others.

[lost---focus]

fucking breathe.

I’m really fucking sensitive (mer, whatever), but that also leads to a lot of passions about (and regarding) most things. A lot of the time it’s all-or-nothing avec moi, and I don’t necessarily think that it’s a bad thing—though, sometimes…don’t get me started. So, part of me feels bad for what I’m doing (and about to do, still), and I’m sorry if it’s going to effect you (though, it most probably won’t-let alone noticing in the first place), but it’s absolutely something that -I- need to do. Y’know. For sanity’s sake. And, now…time for more homework. This has been a personal post. Thank you.