#aplang15conquered

[nayawsposts-blog-blog]

MY BACK BE KILLING ME.

LOL. For those who actually know me personally get to witness my everyday struggle with my terrible back. It just hurts ALL THE TIME. When I walk, stand up, sit down, everything I do just hurts my back. So in a way, I feel as though I've been conquered by my own back. It affects everything I do now. I can’t go to amusement parks or even the mall for too long because my back just goes out on me. Even at my job, I struggle tremendously. I find myself taking multiple breaks on the job just because of it. My mom says my doctor suspected early signs of scoliosis when I was a baby but he told us to wait and see if the signs were still there once I got a little bit older. Sure enough, they’re still here. Only difference is now it’s gotten worse since then. The whole idea of it scares me greatly. I wonder how my life will be once I get much older. I've been apart of the track team for years now, at least since 7th grade, and this is the first year I won’t be able to participate because of my back. :( It sucks. But I will say that having scoliosis makes me more aware of the way I do things, my posture, and other things of that nature.  

[nataliemarsala]

I have always been afraid to speak up in class because of what people would think of me or say after. Fear conquers me and its a big problem. We should be able to speak freely without judgement or others getting angry. Everyone has something important to say and everyone's voice should be heard. Our peers like to conquer each other because everyone wants to be over someone else.

[sivakoduvayur-blog]

Conquered

In this year of tennis, I had severe difficulty in hitting my forehand. Previously, I was an exceptional player. I believed myself to be good at tennis and took pride in it. This year, however, I had a strange feeling before every forehand. Something abut my overall execution was incorrect. I was conquered by my inability to hit a forehand. I performed below my expected standards in the season because of it. This is what negatively conquered me. 

[mariyaaa786]

UGHH SCHOOL -__-

Something that has conquered me for a while has been school. It got A LOT harder this year and with all the other stuff I’m doing it seems to stress me out. My life revolves around School, Homework, Volunteering, Community Stuff and much more. Balancing all this was hard but I finally learned how to. Being organized for me at this time was the most important because that's how I balanced to do everything I had to do. 

[jameslica]

I was long conquered by someone...that turned out to be me.

Usually, when I hear of the word conquer, I think of all the civilizations that have been taken over by people stronger than them. I'm reminded of all the terrible killings that have happened due to conquering. This is what I can relate back to myself. My mind and my thoughts conduct what I do throughout my life. My thoughts can either help me or the can kick me to death until I'm left with just a whim of breath. They are the ones who have conquered me at times when I thought I was stronger. They are the ones that I'm left standing up to if I stay weak with my defenses of positive thinking.

[addie-saltarelli]

I am my own conqueror

In everything I do my mind gets the best of me. In sports it's not my opponents, crowd or coaches that intimidate me, it's myself. In school it's not my peers or teachers that frustrate me, it's my own mind. When I worry it's not because someone directly insults me or something actually happens, my own brain betrays me and brings me down. This limits me from actually putting myself out there and being comfortable with myself and what I do, because the whole time my mind buzzes with a sense of " I am not good enough"

[danny-vincent-aplang]

A time when I was conquered

It was one brutal Saturday at Mt. Morris middle school. The gymnasium was circular like a coliseum and I was there for a wrestling tournament. I was conquered all day long. I lost 4 out of my 5 matches after I had been practicing hard for weeks. I was competing against some of the best teams in the state and our Avondale line was at its weakest. The only personal win I had was against a kid from anchor bay who is ranked third in the state. I wasn't totally conquered but overall for that day I was conquered and unable to come out with a winning record, and my body was dead tired. I was conquered and so was my team.

[alexisbrownaplang-blog]

Conquered by the Perception

I started playing basketball in elementary school around 3rd grade year. Around that time the team was coed and I mainly played to impress my father and to have fun. As I got older I continued to play through middle school. At this time basketball began to become a passion for me. I played because it was an outlet to my problems, I played because I was good, and I played because I loved the way I felt when I was on the court. Entering high school I continued playing the sport that had become apart of me. When I played my freshmen year the same reasons that I played in middle school connected back in high school. However, things began to change my sophomore year. Sophomore year I started to realize that I didn’t enjoy the competition that came along with basketball, I didn’t care about whether we won or lose. I started to see that I played for the community, for the fun of it, for the friendships created, and for the memories. Because of this walking into junior year I decided I wanted to quit. Immediately from students, coaches, teachers, and my family I heard the constant question ‘Why?’ and the constant statement ‘But you are so good.’ At the moment I realized that I was never playing basketball for me, I was playing for other people. I played not because of my passion but for the lack of passion, direction, the fear of change, and simply because I was good at it. In that moment I realized that basketball and everyone else’s perception had conquered me for 8 years.