This squish hurts me inside, knowing they probably don't feel the same way, and not wanting to loose the one person you're close to and enjoy talking to.
I've never had these kind of feelings before, especially not about someone who wasn't female/binary, and it's driving me nuts, because as much as I want to just "go for it", I'm worried it'll ruin everything and they'll feel to awkward to talk to me anymore and I'll drive them away.
I hate this, I just want to feel normal.












