[An AroAce experience with aegosexuality]
Aegosexuality was always an illusion to me. It made me feel like there was still hope for me to bloom later, to grow out of my asexuality.
But I was wrong.
I have high libido, which means that I often feel this sudden burst of arousal coming out of nowhere, not linked to anyone or anything. Just my hormones and my body communicating in a strange way. And I had to learn the best way to get rid of it or to seek sexual release by myself, using sexual content.
I never thought about anyone or even myself in the process. This is why it was so confusing. Getting aroused by sexual visuals or ideas, still not wanting to get involved. I was surrounded by boys (and girls), yet no one would turn me on. This is how I knew for sure that I 100% relate to the definition of asexuality when I first read it. I know how it feels to be turned on, but no one has ever turned me on.
