#ask diz

[dizaraksanar]

💚what does my muse get envious over?

He's become a fairly secure individual over time, originally he struggled with feeling as though he wasn't enough for his mates. It took him time to adjust to polyamory and the natural jealousy/envy that can come from that but he has had more recent issues that he's worked through with it. Generally he is pretty level headed though and envy or jealousy don't phase him much.

Lately the biggest jealousy is when Vivi decides she absolutely done with him and she clings to her Aunties or other Papas.

[dizaraksanar]

👾what was my muse’s childhood bogeyman?

Oddly enough, not much scared little Dizarak, he was actually most terrified of poverty. He was convinced that the toy chest in his room was a mimic that would eat his money while he slept.

(Children are creative, are they not?)

[dizaraksanar]

🛌my muse’s biggest nightmare

Dizaraks biggest nightmare used to be turning into a monster, not in the literal sense but in becoming the worst kind of person. He discovered that in a sense he already had become one when he outcast his sister and turned to the void.

Lately his nightmares have shifted from replaying the night he cast her out and hurt her to somehow being mind controlled and forced to hill his mates. He always wakes up in a panic when he turns the blade on their daughter as she screams for help from Azryl or Ash. The name she screams changes almost every time but it echoes until he's fully awake and aware of where he is.

[dizaraksanar]

Favorite indulgence and feelings surrounding indulging?

Dizarak peers around, "between you and I there is only one indulgence I've been known to have... that my cigarettes."

From the shift of his eyes, it's clear this isn't the only one but that getting any more out of him will be a task. The large void male continues quickly.

"As long as no harm comes from your indulgences, I see nothing wrong with it."

[dizaraksanar]

Any daily rituals?

Dizarak rolled out of his cot, a hand wiping across his face in some vain attempt to wake himself. Tugging a brush from his bag he set to work combing his hair and tugging it into it's ever present pony tail, the small braids hanging in front of his ears. Leaning forward his fingers catch the wooden bowl full of cool water, and a rag. Beginning his daily ritual of washing his face in silence.

[dizaraksanar]

🌊 - Have they ever come close to drowning (Or have they caused someone else to drown?)

"In the literal sense? I've drowned a target before." He said flatly.

His eyes looked sad, "you never quite forget the feeling if drowning in void though. That's the closest I've ever come to drowning."

[dizaraksanar]

⚡ - In their eyes, do the ends justify the means?

He laced his fingers together atop the table and peered across at the question. His tongue darted across his lips tugging the silver and purple ring between his teeth.

"There are situations in life that require any means necessary....but no the ends dont always justify the means." His eyes fell to the rough wooden surface.

"Have I had moments of where this was the case? Yes. Have I looked back and regretted that mind set? Absolutely."

(Thanks for asking!)

[dizaraksanar]

NAMES: Dizarak Sanar, Dizarak, Diz, Zarak

EMOTIONS/FEELINGS: Worthless, solitary, sly, smooth talkin, unworthy,

COLORS: Black, silver, deep olive green, blue, white, purple

SCENTS:  Cigarette smoke, cloves, sweat, cinnamon, soap

CLOTHING:  Tight black pants, boots, glasses sometimes, scarves, tank tops, or his full armor.

OBJECTS:  Lip ring, Raven Shield pendant necklace, box of cigarettes, guitar, tattered leather bound sketchbook/notebook, hand embroidered pouch with a raven on it.

VICES/BAD HABITS: chewing on the lip ring, eaves dropping, smoking, drinking, isolating, over-analyzing, sleeping with anyone who thinks its worth their time, staring.

BODY LANGUAGE:  lip ring chewing, lots of lofted brows, leaning on EVERYTHING, idle hand actions (i.e. re-polishing a glass for 10+ minutes when it doesn't need it.)

AESTHETICS:  Rouge, body for hire, habitual smoker, big guy with a tender side, blood and poison, rainstorms, scattered papers.

SONGS: Imagine dragons: Thunder | Shawn Mendes: In My Blood | Imagine Dragons: Natural | (Full playlist is here)

Tagged by: @melisandemeadowshine

Tagging: @olathiawindgrave, @blackhooftrading (Specifically for Fhaliona and Bess but the rest if you wanna), @ashraenv, @azadzior