#assholebrain

[kityote]

Anyone else call that little voice that makes you worry about things you can't control, or that focuses on worst case scenario the "Asshole Brain"?

Dunno why, but it definitely helps me to compartmentalize when I start thinking like that.

[linfas4]

Wow!

My boyfriend proposed to me last night on my 35th birthday under the brightest fireworks! It was magical and wonderful and I was totally surprised! I am still basking in the afterglow of everything that happened and how well everyone kept it a secret from me. My best friends knew and both of our families. We have not really talked about planning yet. He suggested a destination but I have to make sure my dad would be on board. He doesn’t like to travel and I obviously need him there. I know the rest of my family would go. We’ll see!

As excited and happy I am with all of this, my anxiety is trying to get the best of me and trying to convince me something terrible is going to happen. A death, a horrible accident...I wish I could just shut my brain the fuck down and just let happiness take over! I am so excited to be planning my wedding...something I never thought I’d ever get to do considering how previous relationships had panned out...I just wish I could get through it without my anxiety being an asshole. I really hope that getting through all of this will be simple and fun.

When my best friend got married in 2015, planning her wedding was such a blast! Her bridal party was made up the most incredible ladies ever who all meshed so well together. We had a ton of fun planning surprises to the bride and groom. The bachelorette party went off without a hitch! I’ve prayed that when my time comes that everything goes as smoothly. I hope everyone gets a long and just comes together to help us plan the best day of our lives! I hope that everyone I want/need to be there will be there without an issues. I just want it to be perfect!!!!

Hope everyone had a great 4th!!!

[nekomimikyuuu]

My boyfriends cat disappeared in the rainstorms yesterday and I don't know what to do. I've looked everywhere except downstream. That's on today's agenda. My cat is almost as upset and almost frantic looking for her as I am. Naturally because my subconscious is a dick I dream she came home and got in bed with us only to wake up and realize it was all a dream. Asshole brain.

[crystaldemon9]

Nightmares and anxiety

My brain is an asshole!

Last night, I woke, abruptly, from a nightmare. I jumped out of bed and yelled "oh my God!" because someone was coming through my wall at the corner of the bed. I had to spend about 10 minutes calming myself down before I could go back to sleep.

You had better behave yourself tonight, brain.

[ishouldbesleepingwastaken]

I can feel my brain yelling at me for not sleeping enough eXCEPT ITS MY FUCKING BRAINS FAULT I COULDN'T SLEEP GODDAMMIT