#attentiveness

[lurasposts]

tsctir chapter novel where Hyeonje hugged Yoojin from the back before he turned Yoojin around to hide his face from Yoohyun and Yerim because Yoojin was clearly having a panic attack.

I remember Yoojin briefly mentioned that he doesn't know what Hyeonje saw in his (panic driven) face, but Hyeonje was "slightly uncharacteristically flustered" AND NOBODY EVER TALKED ABOUT THIS?

The way Hyeonje was clearly not used to people especially han Yoojin inadvertently showing vulnerability in front of him, or maybe it was because he was seeing Yoojin like that for the first time, that he wasn't used to it and flustered for a second because our might Hyeonje didn't know what to do in a situation for the first time. bro definitely was NOT used to comforting people during panic attacks episodes lol.

He didn't force Yoojin or anything. he knew Yoojin doesn't wang to look fragile in front of the kids, so he turned his face to do exactly that. covered his face, hiding him. and then made jokes to Yerim and Yoohyun to distract them for Yoojin so Yoojin could breathe for a second. all the while probably had never done this before.

and Yoojin's second panic attack after the Virtual Reality (Sigma arc) Dungeon, Hyeonje picked Yoojin up and "took wide strides" far enough from the others because Yoojin needed space, needed an out. he even used that soundproofing item so Yoojin could cry his heart out. he's just considerate like that. then he gave him space again, when Yoohyun is around, let this arms (that supported Yoojin) go to hug his brother.

and when they met again, Yoojin had many other things to think about that he pushed down the issue with panic attacks, but Hyeonje brought it up, still thinking about him (obviously) and– and you could SEE Hyeonje spent a few days after that thinking about it, considering what to do with Yoojin, how to get Yoojin talk about it.

[dreaminginthedeepsouth]

“[P]eople think of compassion as, like, kindness. The image comes to mind of some nice New Age guy bending to something with a look on his face like he’s about to cry. And I don’t think that’s it. I think of it more as a quality of openness that comes with being in a state of unusual attentiveness.” ― George Saunders

[bluewillowmoon]

“Hold your finger to the sky with so much force it lengthens like a spine. Look up to the point of it and beyond. There. That tiny patch of the world, no bigger than the tip of your finger. At first glance, it might look like one flat color. Blue, or gray, or maybe even orange.

But it's much more complex than that. Squint. See the daubs of lilac. The streak of sage no wider than a hyphen. That butterscotch smear and the faint wash of carnelian. All of them coming together to swirl at the point just above your finger.

Breathe them in. Let them settle in your lungs. Those are the colors of right now.”

— Emily X.R. Pan, from The Astonishing Color of After (Little, Brown Books, 2018)

[notesofamt]

I want to learn to show up, even when it’s inconvenient. 

[credits-roll]

You keep your eye on the queen, and the knights, and the bishop, because they are the sneaky ones. But it’s the rook that often gets you. The straightforward is never quite what it seems.

The Midnight Library, Matt Haig

[venuskind]

[firsttarotreader]

A question for the cards if you haven't done it...

He seems so attentive lately, specially with what Sarah P. Said about him buying her a purse, or Connie's bday and how lovely he was with Lux on the premier.

So the question is, Would he be an very deatalist partner? Would he expect the same kind of treatment?

Hello! You mean something like detail-oriented? Like caring for the person in all the details? I asked having this idea in mind. I did one pull for whether he would possibly be this kind of partner and one for whether he would expect the same treatment. The one for whether he does it himself, the cards were the 9 of Swords reversed, 5 of Wands reversed and 3 of Cups.

9 of Swords reversed means he might be the anxious partner who is super worried about every detail, who is always worried about them, in an almost paranoid way. 5 of Wands reversed could be about the way he’d just want to end any “conflict” for them, to solve any problems, take care of any issue they might have. 3 of Cups represents joy, happiness, celebrations, parties and having fun with your loved ones, which shows him being attentive to the person because he wants them to be feeling well and happy and enjoy their time together.

The second pull was on if he would possibly expect the same thing from a partner. The cards were the 7 of Swords reversed, King of Coins reversed and Page of Coins. 7 of Swords reversed means he would potentially feel like a fraud if he let the person take care of him that way, like he didn’t even need it and it wasn’t honest of him to expect that, probably a lot of guilt would be attached to it. King of Coins reversed shows him feeling like he is being vain, greedy, too indulgent, using the person or being irresponsible. Page of Coins, on the other hand, tries to find a common ground, because he’s the boy that wants to do everything right, who is very practical and wants to learn and develop his skills, but he is a bit ineffective still, he’s the quiet boys who just wants to do his work. This could be about him working on doing his best for them while also accepting the person to be that attentive of him, at least partially.