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i wanted to make a few doodle pages dedicated to black clover headcanons & thoughts but i got tired, blanked, and thus ran out of ideas .. so here's the four things i DID draw

gender fuckery (tags for more + heavy elaboration on second image)

if you've any ideas or input, feel free 😭 i do genuinely want to draw more of these (when i've ideas), i just haven't slept LOL

#black clover #luck voltia #magna swing #my favorite two tags...#finral roulacase #transfem bigender finral is real and true to ME #langris vaude #idk i genuinely do mean i want to get into BC's verison of gender affirming-care #because obviously a lot of their health system revolves around healers #and a lot of their day-to-day life is influenced by the presence of spells in basic tasks (ex. farmwork)#so its like. in theory. there would probably be magic items for these kinds of things right #but if so... what is it and how does it work #PLUS looping in clover's problems already with classism n whatnot — would this type of care be available for everyone?#what sort of polticial stances would the kingdom have? what's the societal standard? etc etc etc #overall there's a lot to think about when it comes to #i havent even started with it yet LOL im a bit mentally drained rn but if anyone wants to start up this discussion #100% feel free id love to hear thoughts #on top scars: dont really have a specific reason for this yet other than i think its a neat character design choice #though it could be one way magic is applied in the field. i dunno #also fyi i do NOT strictly hc all three of them as trans. theyre just the three guys i thought of and hence the three i drew #doubt that needs to be said but just in case #edit: HOW THE FUCK DID I FORGET ABOUT GREY'S TRANSFORMATION MAGIC #lets pretend i added that as an example for how magic can be used for genderism(tm)

also so much of the language surrounding symptoms of disorders like bpd and bipolar disorder is so like....idk. it feels like it's ascribing malicious intent to something that honestly most of the time the person experiencing doesn't understand either

#like idk i didn't wake up one day as a teen and decide i was going to become so genuinely obsessed with someone #that I'd basically mould my entire life to revolve around them #+ all the heartbreak and negative emotions that comes with that kind of relationship #and if i could pick and choose i definitely wouldn't have chosen that person!#also simce getting diagnosed it's been a lot easier to manage now that i actually understand what's happening #idk sorry this is rambly it's just like. crazy ik but i don't like being villainised by pop psychology for something i was definitely #too young to really understand why it was happyor what was wrong with me #and tbh i probably would've gotten help a lot earlier if bpd and bipolar weren't so heavily stigmatized

Do I wanna meet my favourite drivers in Hungary next year? Hell yes.

Will I be able to be normal about it, not break down in tears, not do weird shit, and speak coherent English with them? Hell nah. Im so cooked😭

#i so wanna be a respectful fan #but on the other hand I am in fact a 17 year old girl full of emotions who’s entire life revolves around these men so #its basically impossible #welp it is what it is. i might give them some friendship bracelets as a thanks for tolerating my annoying ass😭#jenson button #david coulthard #nico rosberg #damon hill #<- if I get to meet him ill forever rub it under yalls noses #f1 #formula 1 #f1 fandom #f1 girls #f1 tumblr

RH: Prometheus Clark head/face rough design and a doodle of him with Jason (disclaimer: not ship art). Uncle C always there to lend comfort and to help your older brother try to gently drag you out of lethal anti-herodom, what a guy

#red hood prometheus #clark kent #jason todd #superman #red hood #I posted more face/head designs for RH:P last night but ended up removing them ‘cause I wasn’t happy with them <:)#maybe I’ll try to spruce them up later and add a couple of other characters…#(on second thought maybe it's just the oncoming depression spiral talking but no longer posting about my dumb AU ideas is also an option?)#(at least not until/unless I actually have something more concrete to show for them? my design posts don't generally catch much interest)#(though that may simply be due to me not being good enough yet. at my age I guess closer to not good enough ever?)#(my life revolves almost entirely around art in what time I get to make it but have basically nothing to show for it.)#(no career no skills no prospects no future. in the end I will amount to nothing at all.)

I know people have tagged me in stuff over the last week or so that I've been gone/busy. I promise I'm not ignoring you, I'm just not to the point where I have time/energy to go through my notifications and answer/reply to everything but I do intend to, hopefully this weekend.

#my visiting family leaves on saturday #when they're here my life basically revolves around them #also brain is screaming and I've been stressing about a bunch of stuff #so not enough social/emotional energy to interact online much

This view boils down still more simply to seeing other people as human beings

Meaning that they are allowed to be fully imperfect, to have bad days, to be irrationally angry for no reason and to have flaws, sometimes very steep ones. With it being an entirely acceptable and subjective point if the flaws become too much and other people are cut out of life as forgettable and forgotten.

Too often people hold other people accountable to visions of them that exist in their heads, and then these people get caught in a vicious trap they neither asked for nor signed onto. Allowing people to be fully and properly human also extends to fully accepting that much as we enjoy knowing other people and being part of their lives, they have lives of their own and sometimes if they do have bad moods or bad days it's because of things that have nothing to do with us.

Wanna know the real kicker? All of this sounds simple and yet I see so many people who cannot manage these very basic feats in real time and sow up great misery for themselves and everyone around them from failing all of this.

Nothing that I have said here is or should be (nor do I see it as being) anything but the most remedial baseline of expectations. And yet for so many people meeting this is beyond anything that they allow themselves to do.