@bcggars said: [ point + knife ] your muse holding mine at knife point. - idk what brought it to this point but Kaz @ Sonia
violent reactions // accepting
She does not like the person she is now.
It’s miles better than serving under Junko Enoshima, that’s for certain. But the Sonia she had been in the game, the one without memories of the atrocities she’s committed, the one who was almost blindly loyal and protective of all her friends...That Sonia was a good person.
Sonia wasn’t sure she would ever be able to be good again.
Not when her mind was clouded with grief over their fallen friends. Not when she could hear the screams of her family and friends back in Novoselic being slaughtered whenever she attempted to sleep. Not when a dark, treacherous part of her heart convinced her to sneak a knife from the kitchen for protection as she slept hunched over Gundham’s pod in the Future Foundation headquarters.
How could she even attempt to call herself a good person if she couldn’t trust her friends?
Especially not when, startled by a noise, the princess of a fallen empire reacted on pure instinct. Novoselic had always been a country well versed in the art of war and her time working as a Remnant of Despair had only honed her craft. It’s pure muscle memory, the way she grabs the knife from the floor, spins with all the grace of the Ultimate Princess, and pins the intruder against the wall, blade to their throat.
It’s only a split second but Sonia swears she sees her brothers in Kazuichi’s frightened eyes - her dear older siblings begging silently for their lives with just their expressions. And maybe she’s not a good person but that sharp sting of horror that blooms in response to Kazuichi’s reaction is enough for Sonia’s eyes to mirror his terrified look.
The knife clatters noisily to the floor as the princess, eyes wide and haunted, attempts an explanation. “I...Ka....Kazu...I...y-you st...you startled me, I...I’m so...I’m sorry, I..”
She’s aware of the stinging in her knees first; second, the ache in her chest, like a vice grip on her lungs, her blood pumping noisily in her ears. It takes several moments later for Sonia to realize she’s collapsed to the floor - and several seconds longer than that to realize the reason her vision has blurred so suddenly is the influx of tears flowing from her eyes.
She can’t even manage to blubber out an apology as the sobs wrack her frame. How utterly rotten of her.







