vent artttt thats why im putting it here
this was good for me though cuz i think i figured out what the feeling was. i think i have a lot of memories of places in the dark that have been newly colored by fear because i didnt know how to be alone in a situation like that back then, and thats what was really scaring me. My lack of autonomy in a memory. the knowledge that once i wouldnt have been able to do anything in situations i could easily navigate now. I was me, and I was helpless










