#becomingeli

[elilhash]

I can’t promise you that I’ll be around forever

One thing I know that we are good together.

I will try to hold hold you up through those times when you are gone.

Despite the weather it gets better.

You won’t do this alone.

[elilhash]

Transitioning is made of many battles with yourself.. Some resulting in victories while many never seem to end. The struggle and pain is worth it. I will always identify as a male but I'm aware and accept I had to transition to get here. I would never be able to grow if I could never accept that. Don't let the fear of starting, continuing or even ending stop you. Never fear your transiting, you control and define your own transition never let others take that from you. #transdayofvisibility #transgenderdayofvisibility #trans #transguy #transformation #ftm #femaletomale #lgbtq #becomingeli #selfhappiness #loveyourself #youmatter

[elilhash]

Life has been so busy and hectic lately, but I wanted to say happy 6 months on T to me! 3.22.17 ♥️ #trans #transguy #happy #sixmonths #smile #happiness #ftm #becomingeli

[elilhash]

🔹 PRE T 🔹 THREE MONTHS 🔹 FIVE MONTHS 🔹 (don't mind the poopy videos it's hard for me to find decent pre t videos. 😂 #voiceupdate #becomingeli #ftm #femaletomale #f2m #trans #transguy #transgender #transformation #selflove

[elilhash]

09' // 17' 😱 Crazy what 8 years can do to you. #transformationtuesday #ftm #transguy #transgender #trans #testosterone #trueself #selflove #findingyourself #becomingeli #whosethat #holyhell

[elilhash]

Never stop searching for yourself. #journey #personaljourney #ftm #transgender #trans #transguy #becomingeli

[elilhash]

4️⃣ MONTHS DOWN. many more of growing to do. 💪 This voice comparison it CRAZY! The largest struggle is living with yourself day in and day out because you don't fully get to see these changes because they happen ever so subtly for me, and many other traveling a similar path documenting this is super important so you don't loose sight of your progress. Also; I am extremely hard on myself in many ways. December 22nd is my official maniversary but I'll keep moving and pushing myself day in and day out to become the person I desire to be! Keep your head up fellas. Continue to fight the fight, stand for what you believe in, find yourself, find YOUR happiness. And always know you always have a safe place here with me. 💙💕💕💙🏳️‍🌈 #trans #transgender #transman #ftm #f2m #voicecomparison #fourmonths #testosterone #vitimint #lgbtq #becomingeli

[elilhash]

My original intent of this simple shoot I did was to have base comparison images after I began HRT. within seconds of me beginning to shoot, my body dysphoria was horrible I began to get really, irrationally angry. I was disgusted, I hated every last image I took I literally only took a handful of images because I was so disgusted in everything I was seeing. It's gotten to this point where I can no longer even look into a mirror..This IS NOT me. I'm forced into this skin that is NOT me, is not Eli. I've come to realize that even though I'm taking this journey one day at a time because that is all that I can do. I need to remember to celebrate the steps I am taking because I AM taking these steps. I need to post these for others. Regardless of gender identity or personal self image. Whoever you are, whatever struggle you are going through - this is for you. And you are not alone. And so many of us need to fall in love, with falling in love with ourselves. If you aren't there, or even close like I am currently in my life. Just remember YOU control those actions. Only you. So get up and become yourself. Because I'm becoming Eli. And each and every day, with and without my struggles. I'm finding happiness I never even knew I could feel. And I know others can feel the same with themselves. 💕 #vulnerable #becomingeli #elisjourney #transman #trans #femaletomale #ftm #f2m #selfimage #before #innerstruggles #findyourself #findhappiness