#bedthoughts

[littlebitdeadinside]

So - why don't vampires just feed on women on their periods 🤔?

[xheyxx]

It'd be really great if there was a way to shut off emotions and just not feel anything for a little.

[jankid-blog]

3.

Middle school is over. High school is over. I’m still in college, but I don’t know what I want to do in life. No - let me rephrase that: I know what I want to do, but I don’t know how to live my life with realistic expectations.

When I was younger, I wanted to be a manga artist. Then I wanted to be a character designer for video games. Then just a video game designer. Something that had to do with art - that was all I ever wanted to do. But I lost interest in drawing, which was my only productive hobby, and now I just float on in life with no direction and no skill that I can proudly claim, “I can do this!” I’m studying digital media art at the moment, and it’s quite fun. But I don’t know if I am cut out for that line of work, because everything I do turns out disappointing. It goes like that for everyone who tries anything for the first time, I know, but I would be lying if I said it isn’t damned frustrating.

I can always get better, so long as I work hard enough. But that’s the thing - I never work hard enough. I’m the laziest person I know, and I tend to give up doing things as soon as they get difficult. I hate that about myself. I want to change, and I am trying to. But I fantasize about living life comfortably, doing something really easy and relaxing while making tons of money.

Funny thing, money. When I was a kid, I never understood why people did so many terrible things for some cash. Now that I am older, though, it would be easier to name the things I wouldn’t do to get rich enough to drop out of school. “Love of money is the root of all sin,” so they say, and I reply, “Make me a sinful man.” I don’t even have to be a one-tenth as rich as Bill Gates. All I want is just enough that I never have to take another class again. The money can come from anywhere; some cozy little job that isn’t too stressful that doesn’t require a college degree - that is the dream.

And that’s what I mean by living my life with realistic expectations. I know a life like that would take considerable luck. I know I sound like a lazy-ass, whiny little brat who takes college education for granted. But I’m being honest when I say that college isn’t for me. I can’t concentrate during lectures. I have trouble applying myself to book work. Memorizing facts and formulas just for the next exam - and for what? Just to earn a degree that is going to barely help me land a job, and even then, it’s to slave away in some office cubicle?

I thought about attending a trade school instead. Learning technical skills - that sounds a lot more useful to me. A hands-on job. If it were entirely up to me, I would be in a trade school right now.

But it’s not entirely up to me, even if it should be. My mom despises the idea of me not graduating from a good four-year university. She thinks people who don’t do less in life than those who do. She thinks I wouldn’t amount to anything and contribute nothing if I don’t. Even if she is right, I don’t fucking care now, do I? I don’t give a tiny piece of shit if I end up doing absolutely nothing productive in life. But I can’t do what I want to do, because for some reason, my life is dictated by her. I’m not some kid; I’m an adult in my 20s. I once tried moving away with potential roommates, but she stopped me dead in my tracks. I know she can’t legally stop me from just marching right out of the door and never returning, but that’s not how I want to leave the person who raised me. But I am also tired of all of this. I don’t know what to do. So I’m just keeping my mouth shut and finishing up what is left of my education, even though I see no light at the end of the tunnel that my path is taking me on.

Good night.

[pi490]

If I Was A Multi-Billionaire: The World Would Be A Better Place(Better Place For This

Child slavery in third-world countries?, homeless kids even in the States even in my own state and my birthstate?, poor parents having no choice but to get rid of their children often in unethical ways?, the fact that the current multi-billionaires could create jobs that pay well and is ethical and safe for adults or at the youngest teens but instead they do the world dirty and makes "jobs" for children and adults that are abysmal?, that would not be the case if I was a multi-billionaire, I would solve the two problems by 1. creating a children's entertainment venue where the forgotten and poor children are taken in and served with food so good that rich kids could only dream of getting,beds that a king would want to sleep on if they could fit, arcade machines that are not money-hogging machines and a school better then the most prestigious private schools without the money that is needed and the whole sell your soul to the 1% thing(meaning kids will be kids not a paycheck and they won't be expected to perform and be fancy). The employees would be put through rigirous background checks and screening to avoid predators working on site like so many current kids entertainment venues are plagued with, a daycare/nightcare for more fortunate kids and a summer camp and a brand that would become synanmous with child care, similar to the movie Baby Geniuses without the unethical child testing and like the FNAF SB PizzaPlex in look except no shady stuff and NO ABSOLUTELY no animatronics and if I do add robots they will NOT have an AI and would be programmed mainly for loving and caring for children. And 2. I would create a brand that employs people from the world with fair pay and nobody works in the factories unless they are 18 and up with extremely safe work environments that the only controversy that it brings will be the places would be TOO safe like the Chuck. E. Cheese recycled pizza thing where their safety protocols made people think the pizzas were recycled. Concerns like overstimulating kids or indulging them, the outside kids will have a food court with all the unhealthy food since they won't come in all the time but the kids under the care of what I coin "Little Miracles Nursery and Arcadeplex" will have a cafeteria AND occasionally the food court, good food that's both healthy and great tasting(*cough*public school making glop healthy but don't make it not you know glop thus making kids not want to eat healthy *cough*)and they can go outside the complex with adult supervision and there will be field trips.

Yeah I thought about this a lot before sleep, partly because I'm mad about how the 1% treats children and partly because I just love kids and hate to see them suffer

[egoloss-universalfind]

When I Wake Up...

It’s not that I’m ungrateful for being alive. 

But sometimes it’s too tough to live.

With the comfort and stability of a bed,

Why need more?

[minsansobranglabo]

Yeah, here i am again in the non so toxic social media! that’s why when i want to make myself free from stress, tumblr is my escape and ofcourse music!!!

Uhkay, let me start first with him, i tell my mom about den’s schooling again hays, as what i’ve expected, they tell me to just support him on his descision in life, He has a dream kasi to play in thailand, australia likeee wow! Im so amazed to him for being sooo enthusiastic in his passion by playing takraw, Since my parents know about our status, i don’t have to worry on sharing things that keeps on bothering me.

Okay my parents know what’s running on my mind, Yes naman! As a girlfriend palang diba mamsh? Hahahaha lalo na sating mga girls, we are fond of thinking sooo much negative things that tends to away away our partner diba? Hahahahah at the end of the day he’s still my peace. It depend on our partner lang talaga how they handle us and make us calm.

 Im not the marupok type of a person, sorry man, u can’t easily fool me from your flowery words, I loved you because of your actions towards me and how you treat me as a girl. Charot!

So ayun na nga, Nasa davao na ulit sya for his training and they have a game this may for 6th mayors cup eklavuuu at makakalaban nila ang buong bansa at may philippine team pa, Wala im so proud of him lang Haha. Though im not a type of a person na showy sa nararamdaman but deep inside i feel like im lucky because i have him. His number one supporter kung pwede lang maging -supporter para lang talagang masabing ako talaga ang maswerte Hahahahah. Okay another year para sa course nya, Hes one reason din kasi ay, Gusto nya ng may back up. Hes a man with advance thinking skills peewwww! What if pag napagod na syang sumakay? Atleast back up nya yung course na kukunin nya at magagamit nya yun dito.

Ako naman, Striving for victory, Step by step procedure lang tayo, i do have alot of plans in life pa, mag enjooooy but at the same time mag ipon. Fix na yung plan ko for davao as my workplace but i think may better plan pa si Lord sakin kasi unexpectedly nag call sakin yung Globe, Like wooow Lord, Seryoso? Last year pa yung application ko tas ngayon pa ako natawagan, 

Anyways im still waiting para sa last interview, I also tell them na sa may ang effective ng resignation ko, and im so doomed kasi i have my vacation this may alsoooo, One week for good! Sana payagan ako nila maam for our family vacation huhu. Bigyan ko sila souvenir and food delicacy if meron man dun, Lord gaya nga ng pinag dadasal ko, 

If your will is dito ako sa cot mag work, Make it smooth, pag sa davao naman make it smooth padin hehe but i prefer working here nalang kasi nasa puder pa ako ng magulang ko. Hindi naman sigurong halata g namiss ko mag tumblr diba? HAHAHAH.

See you again, Ciao.

[minsansobranglabo]

it’s so hard to deal in this family where they raised you in a middle living in life, after you graduate you get your job but the salary is too low, you always think of unholding the rope just to escape in this place. Humbleness is the only thing that i can assure you for now, jk ahahha i remain humble until i reach all of my goals in lifeee, pay back time for my family, i know i can’t do that financially coz yeahhh since i was born i know they pay everything for meee, but i will make them happy, make them travel the world with us, that’s why i don’t want to rush of getting married Hahahaha i want to enjoy my lifeeee with my familyyyy, friendssss and my habibiiii lol Hahaha i know he can travel the world for freee in God’s will, and that things makes me jelous coz he’s a seafarer, sana nag flight attendant nalang ako, anyway im still thankful for everything that i have and i am now, my journey is not yet over!!! I have a lot of things to doooo in lifee paa!! I don’t wanna loose my focus just for the person who don’t appreciate meee!!! So yeahhh!! That’s it for today, Hope you have a great day!

[foxie-herminah]

Body and Mind: “You did a good job today” Me: “But....i didn’t do anything” Body and Mind : “True.....but you’re still here” Me: “... All the things i could’ve done...” Body and Mind : “They are not yet in the past” Me:”....” Body and Mind : “They are newborns of the future.” Me: “Hhmm” Body and Mind : “Go to sleep.” Me: *drifts off to sleep*

You did a good job today...