#bee's random thoughts

[fromthebeehives]

#BRING BACK COLONEL CALEB

hnghh

[fromthebeehives]

hi, lads fandom! if you're a new player, feel free to interact with this post (heart/reblog/comment) so that i can also interact back/follow. you can even reply how long you've been playing, who you main (or who you used to main vs now), and/or if you're a f2p/spender.

i'm just suddenly feeling lonely and feeling like a kicked puppy as a new player because (1) i feel like i missed out on a lot of good banners, even though i know about the reruns, and (2) i feel like everyone i've seen are old players. ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ

[fromthebeehives]

damn i love rafayel, but i wanna fuck thomas sooo bad... he's so efficient... 🤭 might write a thomas x non mc fic AAA my brain is filling with ideas.

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Global concerns will never reach infold because they're dedicated to their chinese fanbase. I have seen very few complaints in XHS and Douyin compared to Twitter and Tiktok, and that's because majority of the CN players are casual whales or actual Whales. Global can complain over and over again, but at this point, they're not going to listen. It's been obvious all along that they don't care about the global side of the fandom in the first place. If you think you're burning out, please take a rest. This game is not worth the money and crashout that you may possibly get.

hi! thank you for the kind words at the end. i giggled at the 'crashout' because it's not even just a possibility anymore. i have crashed out over this game, especially when i got stuck in jhc and tbh every orbit (except for the open one). plus, whenever i get network issues and it won't let me enter the game for hours, it frustrates me (because it's like every other app works but this one.)

i've never heard of the term 'whale' before, and ooooh! i didn't know such a gaming slang exists. i searched it up (and for anyone who doesn't know too, it means 'someone who spends a significant amount of money on in-game purchases.') wild. i wanna be a card collector, but i guess it's impossible if i don't spend a stupidly huge amount of money on the game, which i honestly don't think is worth it because i could use that money for other, more necessary things. :( being a low spender, ik i should expect to miss banners, but the fact that i have to miss, like, idk, five of them to save up for three is just ridiculous. i already have a lot of missing caleb cards, and at this point, it feels like i'll never be able catch up (and it's not even just me being impatient or something, the game literally has a tight schedule when it comes to limited banners).

also, i thought some cn peeps were boycotting the game though, especially after the kod issue and the lawsuit, but yeah there's definitely a lot more complaints over in twt and tt (and a lot of other discourses that just stresses me out).

the hardest part about this is that i still totally love caleb and the other li's, but my motivation to write about them/keep loving them keeps taking a hit bc i genuinely think infold is so greedy, and that's taking the 'magic of hyperfixations' out of me. :/ it takes too long to earn 1.5k dias, and for myths, u need about 22.5k to guarantee the crate (and the fact that u can STILL lose your 50/50 twice... it's hell.) i'm just sad rn bc i feel like i'm floating, like my hyperfixation was lads but then i'm prematurely ripping myself off it bc i get too stressed and frustrated about earning enough dias just to be able to get caleb content. i also know u can just come over to yt to watch it bc ppl do post the content within the card, but there's just something special about seeing ur mc with ur main li.

(edit: also, if anyone has recs of what i can hyperfixate into next, feel free to talk to me about it. 🥺👉👈 i wanna find my footing again. i miss writing! plus, i'm open to playing more games that doesn't require regularly spending money lolll!)

[fromthebeehives]

just a little vent.

okay, so i've been playing lads for, like, 2 and a half months now. i stopped being f2p on the first month, i do the aurum pass and plan to get the 2026 yearly diamond and wish passes. i see myself as a low spender. i also only main one li, which is caleb, but even then i feel like it's impossible to get all of his cards/pull for every banner where he's in. i've seen the rumored schedule for the next year, and out of the 8 banners that caleb is in, i think i'll only prioritize the myth ones (1 rerun, 1 new, so that's just... 2 out of 8). like, i swear the main advice that people give for f2p players is to main only 1 li, but as a spender, i'm still struggling so much. i even only do r0, because it's the content i'm here for (+ i need to be wise about spending my diamonds).

it's so hard. ;-; i struggle with diamond farming too, because (1) the resources are so limited and (2) i get burnout from it all. like, i enjoy the battles, actually, but the burnout from struggling takes the fun out of it for me.

[i am in no way trying to start a discourse so pls be kind if you plan to comment/interact. :<]

[edit: also, i just realized i haven't written for lads in a while. my drafts are collecting dust. i think the burnout's affecting my desire to write. i haven't hit a creativity block, i legit just don't have the motivation to write T~T]

also rumored sched under the cut... (caleb's sched highlighted)

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the sulkiness i feel whenever i lose to caleb in kitty cards...... like i'm supposed to be your meimei, why aren't you letting me win >:T

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colonel caleb's gloves are so attractive OH MY LAWD

let's say it collectively: thank yewww illusio. i'm gonna be spending so much time w this feature >///<