ŕ¨ŕ§ â Caleb has spent his entire adolescence and young adulthood rejecting every admirer who threw themselves at him- returning their homemade lunches, turning down their confessions, never once letting anyone get close enough to touch him like that.
He was too focused. Too loyal. Too busy dreaming about the girl who'd grown up beside him, the one whose birthday made up half of his passwords.
His girl.
And now, finally, after all this time, he has you exactly where he's dreamed of you for almost a decade- beneath him, looking up at him with those wide, trusting eyes.
God, she's really here. She's really letting me-
His internal thought cuts off when he hears your sweet voice.
"C-Caleb-," you whine pitifully, fat tears beginning to bead along your lower lashes as you squirm beneath him in his apartment you've slowly been turning into a home... "I- I don't think-"
"What's wrong?" He sounds almost boyish in his confusion, purple eyes soft with concern as he brushes sweaty hair from your forehead, "Did I do something-"
"S'too big."
He blinks, tilting his head like the adorable idiot he is, "I'm... no, I'm sure I'm average? I mean, I haven't really compared, butâŚ" his words trail offâŚ
Caleb can do nothing but stare...
How your poor little cunt is struggling, quivering, lips stretched obscenely trying to swallow the first few inches of him...
His length is ridiculous- he realizes that now with sudden, dawning clarity, watching nearly half of his shaft still jutting out from where your bodies meet.
Despite how wet he's gotten you with his fingers and tongue and desperate grinding- despite the slick mess coating your inner thighs, the way you'd gushed around two of his knuckles, the way you'd soaked his chin when he'd eaten you out⌠you're still barely able to take him.
He'd always assumed those whispered comments from classmates back in high school were idle gossip. Locker room flattery he was too humble to believe -even now during showers on the fleet-. Girls giggling behind cupped hands, guys clapping his shoulder with that knowing look...
But now-
Fuck.
Now he understands as he watches you try to adjust.
Watching how your belly flutters with each shallow breath, watching your thighs tremble where they're spread wide around his hips. Watching the visible bulge of himself pressing up against the soft give of your lower stomach when he sinks another inch deeper and you let out this broken little whimper that makes his balls tighten.
He's ruining you. Reshaping you. Your tight little hole wasn't built for this, wasn't made for a cock this fat, this long, this mean- and he can't decide if the thought makes him want to pull out and apologize or grab your hips and bury himself to the hilt just to watch you fall apart.
"Shh, shh, hey." His voice has dropped low, rougher than you've ever heard it, and there's something dark flickering in those usually playful eyes. That possessive edge he's hidden for years, now surfacing as he stares down at where his thick cockhead is trying desperately to sink into your fluttering hole, "I've waited so long for this, Pips... For you. We're going to make it fit, okay? I'll take care of you, just like i always have."
His hand cups your cheek, thumb brushing away the tears that threatened to spill. So gentle. So caring. So him.
And then his other hand pins your hip to the mattress as he snaps forward, burying every fat inch inside you in one brutal thrust.
"AHHH- CALEB!!" Your scream tears through his quiet apartment, back arching clean off the sheets as your cunt is forced to stretch around him, walls clenching and spasming helplessly against the intrusion.
It's too much -he's too much-, splitting you open on a cock that has no business being attached to a man who watches you like that. All soft, starving devotion. A loyal pup at the feet of its goddess, even while he wrecks you.
"Pips- oh, fuck, there we go," Caleb groans, and his voice is absolutely wrecked, those pretty eyes rolling back slightly as he bottoms out. His pelvis grinds against yours, the root of him stuffed so deep you can feel him in your goddamn stomach. "You're so tight- shit, is it always like this? Is this-"
"Y-you're my f-first too, you idiot," you sob, and something breaks in his expression.
First. I'm her first. She waited for me too.
"Oh, Pipsqueak," he breathes, and now both hands are cradling your face while his hips stay perfectly still to let you adjust. His cock twitches inside you, and you keen. "My sweet girl. I didn't know. I didn't-" He drops his forehead to yours, breath ragged, "I thought- I would've been gentler, I would've-"
"N'just-" You gulp for air, body quaking, "just stay still. M'need to -hah- adjust"
He nods, pressing apologetic kisses all over your tear stained face while his massive length pulses inside your stretched out cunt. But even as he soothes you, that darker part of his mind is calculating.
If I keep her on my cock long enough... if I fuck her through it over and over... her body will learn. She'll mold to me. Only me. She won't be able to take anyone else after this...
Good.
And when your walls finally relax enough for him to move, rolling his hips in a slow, devastating grind that makes your eyes roll back... Caleb learns something else about himself that night...
i suggest reading prequel of this ficâ SOULMATE? HOLEMATE! âfor better understanding.
â summary â ž You and Caleb reunite at Granâs house and BOOMâturns out those sketchy toys were secretly linking your dicks and pussies the whole time. Months of ghost-fucking each other? Mutual. Both virgins? Also mutual. Gran leaves for 3 days? â instant horny apocalypse. You two lose your V-cards in the most depraved, âgege/meimeiâ way possible :3
â wc â ž 7.7k
â content warnings â ž pseudocest, heavy og âgege / meimeiâ / big brother-little sister dynamic, explicit smut, heavy dubcon, usage of toys, toys connected to each other's dick and pussy (portal panties), virginity loss, oral (m! receiving), toy play, double penetration via toy + real cock, squirting, creampie, face-sitting, spanking, cum play, overstimulation, rough sex, voyeurism, theft of panties, reader's a brat, possessiveness, emotional intensity, overall just straight up filth with plot
â cherryâs note â ž thanks to @kingraspberry12-blog for commissioning this piece. I never thought I'd drag my ass down to actually write a part two but it is what it is. Here's the most awaited part two of soulmate?holemate!. I've lost count of how many times I've crashed out during this fic lol. My brain's so fried actually, need to sleep it off.
The summer drags like molasses this year, thick and sticky, every hour stretching longer than it has any right to. Maybe itâs the heat rolling in off the Bloomshore coast, maybe itâs Granâs ancient air-conditioner wheezing like itâs on its last legs, or maybeâmore likelyâitâs because youâve spent the last two days fucking a perfect silicone replica of your gegeâs cock in the room right next to his, walls so thin you can hear the creak of his mattress when he shifts in his sleep.
Youâre both on the living-room couch now, same faded floral pattern you used to fight over as kids, same throw blanket draped over your knees like nothingâs changed. Except everything has. The space between your thigh and his feels charged, electric, like the air itself is holding its breath. Neither of you looks directly at the other. Your eyes keep sliding to the TV screenâsome mindless rerun neither of you is watchingâthen dart away before they can land on his profile, on the sharp line of his jaw, the way sweat beads at his temple and trails down the side of his neck.
Caleb breaks first.
He clears his throat, the sound rough, like itâs been stuck there for hours.
âHey, pipsqueakâŚâ His voice is lower than usual, careful. âHowâs life out in Linkon? Big city, more people, all that noise?â
He chuckles, soft and awkward, rubbing the back of his neck the way he always does when heâs nervous. You used to tease him about it. Now it just makes your stomach twist.
âDonât tell me you donât miss your gege anymoreâŚâ
You glance upâtoo fast. His cheeks are flushed, a faint pink creeping up from his collar. He looks⌠shy. Almost boyish. Itâs so unfair.
Your own face burns hotter. You look away quick, huffing a breath through your nose like itâll cool you down.
âHow can I not miss youâŚâ
The words slip out quieter than you mean them to. You press your lips together hard, trapping everything else that wants to follow.
You miss him so much it hurts.
You miss you in ways you're not supposed to.
You miss you so bad you shove his dickâfake, warm, veiny, perfectâinside you every night and cry his name into the pillow while you hug that stupid apple plushie he won for you at the fair when you were fourteen. You clamp down around it until your thighs shake and your vision whites out, pretending itâs his arms pinning you, his chest against your back, his breath on your neck. You come so hard you sob, and then you feel guilty for hours, but you still do it again the next night. Because you're broken and you want him and you hate yourself for it.
But you donât say any of that. You just stare at your knees and let the silence thicken.
Granâs voice saves you both.
âKids!â
You jump. Caleb straightens like heâs been caught doing something wrong.
Sheâs standing in the doorway, dressed in her going-out blouse, small rolling suitcase at her side.
âIâm headed downtown for three days. Something came up. Emergency stuff. You two will be fine, right? Like always.â
Sheâs said the same thing a hundred times over the years. Back then it meant popcorn fights and falling asleep to horror movies on the couch. Now the words land differently. Heavier.
The front door clicks shut behind her. The sound echoes.
Suddenly the house feels too quiet. Too big. Too empty except for him.
Youâre hyper-aware of every inch of Caleb next to you. The sleeveless shirt clings to his chest from the humidity, dark at the collar where sweatâs gathered. His shorts ride up just enough to show the thick muscle of his thighs. His armsâGod, his armsâflex every time he shifts, biceps rounding, veins standing out against his skin. Heâs broader than last summer, taller, filled out in all the ways that make your mouth dry and your core ache.
You stare out the window at the garden like itâs the most fascinating thing in the world. Anything to avoid looking at him.
He notices.
Caleb chuckles again, softer this time, and reaches out. One finger brushes your cheekâlight, teasing, the same way he used to when you pouted as a kid.
âAww, is my meimei sad? Mm⌠Iâm here. We can spend some quality time togetherââ
The touch is barely there, but it burns straight down your spine. Your whole body jerks away like youâve been shocked.
Caleb freezes, finger still hovering in the air. His eyes widen.
âPipsqueak⌠are you okay?â
You canât look at him. Your face is on fire, heart slamming so hard youâre sure he can hear it. Your nipples are already tight under your thin tank top, traitorously visible, and you cross your arms quickly to hide them.
âIâmâfine,â you mumble, staring at the floor. âJust⌠hot.â
He swallows. You hear itâthe dry click of his throat. His gaze drops for half a second, catches the outline of your nipples, then snaps away like heâs been burned too.
âRight. Uh⌠yeah. Hot.â He exhales, rough. âAlright. Iâll be in the kitchen. Lemme know what you want for lunch.â
He stands. The couch dips and rises with his weight. You watch his back as he walks awayâbroad shoulders rolling under the shirt, the dip of his spine, the way his shorts hug the curve of his ass and the powerful flex of his thighs with every step.
The second he disappears around the corner you clench your thighs together so hard it hurts.
Youâre already wet. Have been since he sat down. Since he said your nickname. Since he touched your cheek.
You need a shower. Cold. Now.
You bolt upstairs before you can think better of it, lock the bathroom door, strip in record time. The dildo is already in your handâpulled from under your mattress like itâs been waiting for you.
The waterâs barely warm when you brace one foot on the edge of the tub, line up the thick head, and sink down with a broken moan.
It stretches you open in that perfect, filthy wayâveins dragging, curve kissing your front wall, heavy balls nudging your clit on the downstroke. You fuck yourself fast, desperate, water pounding your back, free hand braced on the tile.
âGegeâfuckâgegeââ
You donât even try to be quiet. The house is empty except for him, and part of you hopesâpraysâhe hears.
Downstairs, Caleb grips the kitchen counter so hard his knuckles turn white.
The second you disappeared upstairs he felt it: that familiar phantom squeeze around his cock, hot and wet and impossibly tight. Then the rhythm startsâfast, shallow, greedy.
Heâs hard in seconds, leaking into his shorts, breath coming in short pants.
He glances toward the stairs.
He knows what youâre doing.
He knows because heâs been doing the same thing to your toy every night.
And now youâre both home.
Both alone.
Both breaking.
He doesnât go upstairs. Not yet.
Instead he leans his back against the counter, the cool edge biting into his spine like itâs the only thing keeping him upright. His cock is painfully erect under the thin fabric of his shorts, the obscene bulge straining forward, tenting so hard the waistband digs into his lower abs. Every shallow breath makes it twitch, every phantom slam of your hips upstairs sends a fresh jolt through him. He moansâlow, broken, helplessâeach sound punched out of his lungs as your rhythm rocks him from the inside out. His knees buckle once, twice; he catches himself on the edge of the sink, knuckles white, hips grinding forward into nothing like heâs fucking the air.
He reaches down without thinking, palm cupping the thick ridge through the cotton. One rough stroke and his head falls back, throat working on a groan. The wet spot at the front of his shorts spreads fastâdark, sticky, obscene. He grinds harder into his own fist, hips rolling in slow, filthy circles, eyes fixed on the mess heâs making, precum soaking through until the fabric clings transparently to the flushed head.
Upstairs, you stand frozen under the cold spray for a long minute, water pounding your shoulders, doing absolutely nothing to dull the ache between your legs. Your pussy throbs in time with your heartbeat, still fluttering around the memory of double penetration, still greedy for more. The shower did jack shit. You shut off the water with a frustrated huff, towel yourself off in jerky movements, and stumble back to your room naked, skin pebbled, nipples tight from the chill and from want.
You donât even close the door all the way.
You crawl onto the bed, legs splaying wide, knees bent and feet planted so you can watch yourself take it. The dildo is still warm from earlier, slick with your earlier mess. You line it up, tease the fat head through your folds onceâthen slam it home to the hilt in one brutal thrust. Your back arches off the mattress with a choked cry, pussy clamping down like a vice, walls rippling around every veiny inch.
Down the hall, Caleb sucks in a whimper so sharp it hurts. His eyes roll back; he has to brace both hands on the banister to keep from collapsing right there on the stairs. The phantom grip around his cock returnsâtighter, hotter, wetter than beforeâand he knows exactly what youâre doing.
He climbs the last few steps on shaking legs, drawn like a magnet. Your door is cracked open. He shouldnât look. He knows he shouldnât.
He looks anyway.
And everything inside him fractures.
There you areâhis sweet, innocent meimeiâlegs spread obscenely wide on the childhood bed you used to share during storms, tits heaving with every frantic roll of your hips, pussy stretched wide around a thick, veiny dildo that looks exactly like his cock. Down to the upward curve, the heavy balls slapping wetly against your ass with every thrust, the flushed brownish-pink head disappearing inside you over and over.
He can see the way your walls cling to it when you pull back, the slick strings connecting silicone to your swollen lips, the way your clit peeks out swollen and red every time you grind down.
âMmhhh gege! Ahhh gege fuckâneed youâmmpphhh!!â
Your voice cracks on his name, back bowing, tits bouncing wildly as you fuck yourself stupid, chasing that edge with desperate, sloppy thrusts. The sheets are soaked beneath you, wet patch spreading.
Calebâs sure he would have moaned loud enough to wake the whole coast if he hadnât bitten his lower lip bloody. Itâs better than any porn heâs ever seenâhotter, filthier, because itâs you. His pipsqueak. His meimei. Ruining herself on a perfect copy of his dick.
The realization hits like a shockwave.
It was you.
All this time.
The ghost pussy milking him dry every night.
The way it clenched exactly when he needed it.
The way it knew his rhythm, his kinks, his breaking point.
And heâs been doing the same to you.
He shoves his shorts down in one rough yank; his cock springs free, angry red and leaking, veins standing out thick and pulsing. He wraps a fist around the base, strokes onceâhardâand has to slap his free hand over his mouth to muffle the groan.
âMmhh pipsqueakâŚâ he whispers, voice wrecked, hips thrusting into his own grip like heâs fucking you through the doorway. âSuch a needy little meimei⌠arghhhâit was you all along, huh?â
He can see every detail from hereâ the way your thighs tremble, the way your fingers dig into the sheets, the way you arch and sob his name like a prayer while you slam the toy deeper, chasing the stretch heâs been giving you in secret for months.
And heâs glad.
Fucking glad.
Because itâs mutual.
You out-freaked him firstâordered a replica of his dick and rode it until you cried his nameâbut he matched you, customized a perfect copy of your cunt and fucked it raw while whispering yours.
Youâre both freaks.
Two depraved, lovesick freaks whoâve been secretly fucking each other stupid across hundreds of miles, and now youâre under the same roof with no Gran to stop you.
He strokes faster, matching your rhythmâevery time you slam down, he fucks up into his fist. Precum drips over his knuckles, slicking the way. His balls draw up tight, aching.
Youâre close. He can tell by the way your moans turn high and broken, the way your hips stutter, the way your pussy visibly flutters around the toy.
Heâs right there with you.
One more thrustâyours, hisâand you both shatter at the exact same second.
You come with a muffled scream into your pillow, body convulsing, squirting around the dildo in messy pulses that soak your thighs and the bed. The toy stays buried deep as you ride the aftershocks, whimpering his name over and over.
Calebâs knees finally give out. He catches himself on the doorframe, biting his fist as he comes hardâthick ropes painting the floorboards, his hand, his stomachâwhile the phantom squeeze of your pussy milks him through every pulse.
He slumps there, panting, cock still twitching in his grip, eyes locked on you through the crack in the door.
Youâre still trembling, legs limp, toy lodged inside you, chest rising and falling in shaky breaths.
He doesnât move. Doesnât speak.
But the door creaks just a fraction wider under his weight.
And your eyesâglazed, wrecked, still tearyâslowly lift.
They meet his.
For one endless heartbeat, neither of you breathes.
Then your lips part on a soft, broken whisper that carries straight to him,
ââŚgege?â
And everything thatâs been building for months finally snaps.
You freak out the second your eyes blink from eye contact.
The sheets fly up in a frantic scramble, bunching around your chest and thighs as you yank them to your chin. Your cheeks igniteâburning, scorching hotâwhile a high-pitched squeak tears out of you like a startled animal.
âWhat are youâ!â
The door, already ajar, swings wider under Calebâs unsteady weight. He loses his balance completelyâarms windmilling for half a secondâthen crashes forward with a loud, graceless thud, face-planting straight into the floorboards.
You squeak even louder, the sound shrill enough to rattle the windows.
He groans, low and pained, and slowly lifts his head. Blood trickles from his nose in a thin, bright red stream, dripping onto the wood. He blinks once, twice, dazed, then pushes himself up on shaking arms. His shorts are still shoved halfway down his thighs from earlier, so his dickâhalf-hard, flushed dark, still glistening at the tipâbobs free with the motion, jumping against his stomach like it has a mind of its own.
Your breath snags in your throat, sharp and audible.
You stare. You canât not staring.
When youâd scrolled through that sketchy website a month ago, trembling and horny and stupid, youâd picked every detail from memoryâthe exact length youâd felt pressed against your hip during too-long hugs, the slight upward curve youâd glimpsed once through damp sweatpants, the heavy hang of his balls, the thick veins that stood out when his forearms flexed carrying your luggage. Youâd thought it was obsessive fantasy.
But seeing it nowâin the flesh, real, twitching, leaking a bead of precum that rolls slowly down the shaftâyou realize with dizzying clarityâthey didnât just make a replica.
They made an exact fucking match.
Everything clicks into place like a lock tumbling open.
The âghostâ sensations.
The double penetration every night.
The way your toy always seemed to know exactly when he was close, clamping down harder, milking tighter.
The way his phantom cock always mirrored your rhythm, pounding deeper when you slammed down hardest.
Caleb hauls himself to his feet, swaying slightly. He notices your wide-eyed stare locked on his cock and flushes darker than youâve ever seen himâred creeping from his collar to his ears. With a rough, embarrassed jerk, he yanks his shorts back up, the waistband snapping against his hips, but it does nothing to hide the thick outline still straining forward.
âPipsqueakâŚâ His voice comes out hoarse, cracked, half-lidded eyes dark and glassy. A thin trail of blood slides from his nostril, curving over the bow of his upper lip. He doesnât wipe it away.
You snap back to yourself with a jolt.
âCalebâyour nose is bleeding!â
You scramble forward on your knees, sheets slipping dangerously low as you reach for the box of tissues on your nightstand. One hand presses a wad against his nose while the other clutches the fabric to your chestâbut not fast enough. The sheet drops just enough to bare your breasts again, nipples peaked and flushed from everything thatâs happened.
Calebâs gaze drops instantly.
He staresâopenly, hungrilyâfor one long heartbeat before you yank the sheet back up with a mortified squeak. Only then does he drag his eyes back to yours, pupils blown wide.
âItâs not because I fell,â he rasps, voice thick. âItâs because ofâŚâ
His stare rakes down your body againâslow, deliberateâtaking in the way the sheet clings to your sweat-damp skin, the dark patch between your thighs where youâre still dripping, the toy still half-buried inside you under the covers. You squeak again, smaller this time, thighs pressing together instinctively.
âCaleb!â
âOkayâokay, I want you to stop freaking out and listen to meââ
You look away fast, heart hammering so loud it drowns out everything else. You donât know how to explain this. How to admit that youâve been coming undone on a silicone clone of him for months. That youâve whispered his name like a prayer while your pussy clenched around fake-him, imagining real-him pinning you down. That youâre terrified of what it means now that the secretâs out.
Who fucks a replica of their gegeâs dick?
You do.
You really, really do.
Before you can spiral further, Calebâs handsâbig, warm, calloused from flight controlsâcup your cheeks. Gentle. Steady. He tilts your face up until you have no choice but to meet his eyes.
Theyâre soft. Guilty. Desperate. Everything at once.
âWe need to figure this out, okay?â he whispers, thumbs brushing your cheekbones. âWaitâI need to show you something.â
And just like that heâs goneâbolting out of your room, bare feet slapping the hallway floor, leaving the door swinging wide behind him.
Youâre alone again.
The room smells like sex and shame and him.
Your thighs tremble. The dildo is still inside youâwarm, thick, stretching you openâand every tiny shift makes it drag against your oversensitive walls. You clench once, involuntarily, and a fresh trickle of slick leaks out around it.
You can hear him in his room nowâdrawers opening, something thudding to the floor, a muffled curse.
Your mind races.
Heâs going to show you something.
You already know what it is.
A possible pocket pussy.
The one heâs been fucking every night while you rode his replica. The one thatâs been milking him dry from three hundred miles away.
And now itâs here in this house with both of you.
You swallow hard, heart in your throat.
The floorboards creak as he comes back down the hall.
You donât move.
Donât pull the toy out.
Donât cover up any more than you already are.
You just waitâsheets clutched to your chest, thighs still spread, pussy still stuffed, pulse roaring in your earsâwhile the footsteps get closer.
When Caleb steps back through the doorway, holding the black satin box like itâs evidence in a crime scene, eyes locked on yours with something raw and unguardedâŚ
You know.
Thereâs no going back now.
Not for either of you.
Caleb steps back into your room, the black satin box cradled in his big hands like itâs both a confession and a trophy. He doesnât hesitateâdoesnât even try to play coy. He flips the lid open right in front of you.
Your eyes blow wide. Your mouth drops into a perfect, stunned little âoâ.
Nestled inside, glossy and obscene, is the pocket pussyâsoft silicone lips parted just enough to show the glistening pink interior. And draped over it, stretched across the entrance like a filthy bow, is one of your missing lace panties. The pale pink ones with the tiny bow at the front. The ones you swore the washing machine devoured months ago.
Calebâshameless bastard now that the mask is offâhooks two fingers under the waistband and tugs the fabric aside. He drags the pad of his thumb slowly along the outer folds, parting them gently, stroking the slick entrance like heâs petting something precious.
The sensation hits you like lightning.
A surprised, broken moan rips out of your throat before you can stop it. Your pussy clenches hard around the dildo still buried inside you, walls fluttering wildly, fresh slick leaking out around the base.
Caleb flushes darkerâcheeks, neck, earsâbut his grin is pure sin. He chokes on his own spit when your inner muscles clamp down again, the toy translating every spasm straight to his cock.
âYou get it now?â he rasps, voice wrecked.
Your brain kicks into overdrive, thoughts crashing faster than light.
Youâd spent months drowning in guiltâconvincing yourself you were the only freak here, the only one twisted enough to order a perfect replica of your gegeâs dick and ride it until you sobbed his name into your pillow. Youâd hated how much you wanted it, how wrong it felt, how right it felt every time you came clenching around fake-him.
But look at him.
Look at your freak of a gege standing there holding a replica of your cunt, wrapped in your stolen panties like some depraved keepsake. He didnât just buy itâhe customized it, scented it, fucked it raw while thinking of you, and then he kept your underwear like a trophy.
âCALEB YOU STOLE MY PANTIES?!!?â The scream explodes out of you, eyes huge, accusatory, betrayed.
He squeaksâactually squeaksâscratching the back of his head with his free hand, sheepish grin wobbling.
âUmm⌠well⌠I rescued them to wash but uh⌠heheheheheââ
You lunge.
Your fists rain down on his chest, shoulders, armsâsmacking him over and over, forgetting the sheet, forgetting the toy still stretching you open, forgetting everything except righteous fury.
âYOU JERK!!! I KEPT BUYING CUTE PANTIES AND YOU STOLE THEM?!??! HOW DARE YOU!!! I THOUGHT THE WASHER WAS EATING THEM!!â
âOwâouchâouchâpipsqueak!â
Heâs half-laughing, half-squeaking, trying to shield himself but not really fighting back. The sounds are ridiculous, boyish, so much like the old Caleb that it almost hurts.
Then his arms snap around your waist.
One hard yank and youâre flush against himâchest to chest, hips to hips, the thick ridge of his cock pressing right against your lower belly through his shorts. Your breath punches out of you in a startled gasp.
âI can buy you new ones, yeah?â he murmurs, voice dropping low, rough. âAnything you want. But right now⌠we need to talk about this, meimei.â
The name hits like a shockwave.
You stop breathing.
His eyes are locked on yoursâdark, molten, stripped of every layer of pretense. You feel every inch of him: the heat radiating off his skin, the hard planes of his chest, the insistent throb of his cock trapped between you. And lowerâthe dildo still lodged deep inside you, making your walls flutter every time you shift.
âTake it out, pipsqueak.â
Your cheeks burn so hot you think theyâll combust. You shake your head franticallyâno, no, noâtoo embarrassed to move, too mortified to pull the replica of him out of your dripping cunt while he watches.
Caleb frowns, impatient.
His hand slides downâbig, warm fingers wrapping around the base of the dildo where itâs buried in you. He groans low in his throat at the feel of your walls gripping itâgripping him, then yanks.
The toy comes free with a wet, filthy pop.
You gasp sharplyâsharp enough to hurtâyour pussy clenching around sudden emptiness. Slick gushes out in a messy splash, coating your inner thighs, dripping onto the sheets, making everything even more obscene.
âCome on,â he chuckles, dark and teasing, holding the glistening dildo up between you like evidence. âI know you werenât shy fucking this replica in Linkon, huh? No wonder the ghost was so needyâŚâ
His eyes drag over the toyâtaking in the way itâs coated in your arousal, veins shiny, base slickâand then rake back up your body, slow and hungry.
âI shouldâve known it was my naughty little pipsqueak. After all⌠itâs only meimei who takes this much from her gege, hmm?â
His voice drops to gravel.
You gulp, panting softly, chest heaving. You pout up at himâbratty, defiantâand smack his chest again, weaker this time.
âBut⌠you had a replica of mine too!â
Caleb laughsâlow, rough, relieved.
âIn that case⌠Iâm guilty too.â
Then he moves.
One step forward and your back hits the mattress. You both go down in a tangleâsheets ripping away completely, your naked body splayed beneath him, still sweaty, still flushed, still smelling like sex and shame and him.
He braces on his forearms, caging you in, face inches from yours.
âThen we should share this sin together, right?â
His hips settle between your thighs. The hard length of himâreal this timeânudges right against your soaked entrance, hot and thick and leaking through his shorts.
You whimperâsmall, broken, needy.
His mouth hovers over yours, breath mingling.
âTell me to stop, meimei,â he whispers, voice trembling just enough to betray how close he is to breaking. âTell me and Iâll walk out right now. Weâll pretend this never happened.â
Your hands slide upâfingers curling into his shoulders, nails digging in.
You donât push him away.
You pull him closer.
âDonât you dare,â you breathe against his lips.
And thatâs it.
The last thread snaps.
Calebâs mouth crashes down on yoursâhungry, desperate, years of pent-up want pouring out in one bruising kiss. His tongue pushes past your lips, claiming, tasting, while his hips grind forward, dragging the fat head of his cock through your folds.
You arch up into him with a sob, legs wrapping around his waist, heels digging into his ass to pull him deeper.
He groans into your mouthâraw, wrecked.
âFuckâpipsqueakâbeen waiting so longââ
Caleb pulls back just enough to drink you inâreally drink you in.
Youâre sprawled beneath him like a fever dream: lips swollen and glossy from his kisses, chest rising and falling in quick, shallow pants, eyes glassy and half-lidded with want. His gaze drags down slowâover the flushed peaks of your tits, the soft curve of your belly still trembling from aftershocks, then lower, to where your thighs are parted and your pussy is clenching desperately around nothing. Slick shines on your inner thighs, dripping down toward the sheets in lazy rivulets. The toyâs absence has left you empty and aching, walls fluttering visibly like theyâre begging to be filled again.
His whole body burnsânot just from the heat of the moment, but from the sheer, dizzying reality of it. His wildest, most shameful dream is right here: you, naked and wrecked and his, finally letting him see you like this. Touch you like this. Heâs drowning in emotionsâguilt, relief, raw hungerâbut he forces himself to focus. He wants this to be good for you. Better than good. He wants to feed every filthy craving youâve both been hiding, satisfy the hunger thatâs been eating you alive for months.
âSo pretty,â he stutters, voice cracking as two fingers glide down your slit. He parts your folds gently, watching the way your clit twitches under the lightest brush.
You yelp, thighs jerking inward on instinct. âCaleb!â
He shakes his head, firm but soft. His free hand comes down in a sharp spank to the plush meat of your thighâhard enough to sting, soft enough to make the flesh jiggle.
âOh no no no no,â he murmurs, eyes dark. âDonât go hiding from me now. Youâre beautiful, pipsqueak. I want to admire all of you.â
You bite your lower lip hard, cheeks flaming, but you donât close your legs again. You watchâbreath hitchingâas his fingers continue their slow exploration: tracing your entrance, dipping just inside to feel how soaked you are, then sliding lower. He gropes one ass cheek shamelessly, kneading the soft flesh before landing another weak, appreciative spank. The jiggle makes him groan low in his throat.
âAw damnâŚâ
You huff, mortified and turned on in equal measure, and reach up to grab his earâtugging hard.
He yelps instantly. âOw ow owâwhatâs wrong? Did I hurt youââ
You scoff, cutting him off, and slide both palms under his shirt. Your fingers find the hard planes of his pecs, cupping them shamelessly, thumbs brushing over his nipples.
âTake off your clothes too, dummy,â you mutter, voice bratty and breathless. âI donât wanna be the only one naked.â
Caleb blinks onceâthen grins so wide itâs almost stupid, ear-to-ear and boyish despite the filthy situation.
âFair enough.â
He yanks the sleeveless shirt over his head in one smooth motion, muscles flexing under sweaty skin as it hits the floor somewhere behind him. Next come the shortsâhooked thumbs in the waistband, frantic tug downward. The fabric slides off his thighs and his cock springs free, slapping lewdly against his lower abs with a wet smack.
You gaspâsharp, involuntary.
Itâs exactly like the dildo. Down to the last detail: the thick veins, the slight upward curve, the flushed brownish-pink head already leaking, the heavy balls hanging low. Your pussy clenches hard around nothing at the sight, a fresh gush of slick trickling out.
âLike what you see, huh?â he smirks, voice hoarse and wrecked. He grips the base and smacks the fat head against your dripping foldsâonce, twiceâcoating himself in your mess.
You whine instantly, hips jerking up. âAhhh fuckâCalebâmmmpphhh!!â
But instead of pushing in, he pulls back. You frown, confused and needyâuntil you see him reach for the dildo again.
With a slow, sinful smile, he lines it up and slides it back inside your tight cunt.
âHaiâahhhhâCaleb!?!â
You can only stare up at his faceâpleasure twisting his features, mouth falling open in a perfect âoââas he pushes the toy deeper. A low, rumbling groan escapes him.
âFuck⌠exact feelingâŚâ
He keeps goingâslow, torturousâwatching your face the whole time while he feeds inch after inch back into you. Your walls stretch around the familiar silicone, fluttering, sucking it in greedily until itâs buried to the hilt again: tip kissing your cervix, heavy balls pressed flush against your ass.
Only then does he stop.
But heâs not done.
He manhandles you with easy strengthâbig hands under your thighs, lifting you like you weigh nothing. You squeak as he repositions you properly on the bed: flat on your back, head near the pillows, legs spread wide. He climbs over you, straddling your chest, knees bracketing your shoulders.
His cock hovers right above your faceâhard, twitching, leaking a fat pearl of precum from the slit.
Your brain empties completely. All you can do is stare: at him, at the dick thatâs been haunting your nights for months, now real and inches from your lips.
âYouâll suck it, right baby?â he rasps, voice trembling with restraint. âMmmh⌠suck gegeâs dick while the replica stretches you open.â
He lowers himself slowly. The swollen head smacks against your lipsâhot, sticky, salty.
You open immediately.
Your mouth wraps around the tip, tongue swirling, sucking gently at first. Caleb throws his head back with a guttural sound.
âOhhh fuckâdual sensationâahhh⌠shit!â
His fingers slide into your hair, gripping gently but firm. He starts fucking your mouth in shallow thrustsâcareful not to choke you yet, but deep enough to make your eyes water.
âFuck baby⌠take it deeper. I know you canâahh⌠youâve been swallowing that dick down your throat, havenât you? HahâŚâ
You can barely thinkâpussy stuffed full and throbbing around the toy, mouth stretched around the real thing, taste of him flooding your senses. But you obey.
Your hands fly upâgripping the firm meat of his ass, nails digging in as you pull him forward. You relax your throat and swallow him to the base in one slow, greedy glide.
Your nose buries into the neatly trimmed, newly shaved patch of pubic hair. His scentâmusk, clean sweat, himâoverwhelms you. Your eyes roll back, lashes fluttering, fingers sinking deeper into the thick muscle of his thighs while tears of effort slip down your temples.
Calebâs head snaps back, face contorting in raw pleasureâjaw slack, brows furrowed, a broken moan tearing from his chest.
âFuckâpipsqueakâgood girlâfuckââ
He holds himself there for a heartbeatâletting you feel every thick inch pulsing on your tongueâbefore he starts to move again.
Slow, deep thrusts into your mouth while the dildo stays buried in your cunt, every rock of his hips making the toy shift inside you just enough to drag against your walls.
Youâre stuffed at both ends.
Full.
Claimed.
His.
And heâs not stopping until you both break again.
Caleb keeps fucking your mouth with slow, deliberate rolls of his hipsâballs smacking wetly against your chin on every deep thrust, the filthy sound echoing in the quiet room. His moans are low and ragged, pleasure ripping through him in waves as your throat flutters around his length, tongue pressing flat against the underside, sucking greedily.
You snap your hips forward uselessly, clenching desperately around the dildo still buried deep in your cunt. The dual fullnessâmouth stuffed with real him, pussy stretched by fake himâhas you trembling, thighs shaking, slick dripping down your ass in steady rivulets.
Thatâs when he breaks.
Calebâs whole body locks up, shaking violently. His fingers tighten in your hairâalmost too hardâburying himself to the root until your nose presses flush against his pelvis. A guttural groan tears from his chest as he starts cumming.
Thick, hot spurts flood your mouth instantlyâsalty, bitter, overwhelming. Your eyes roll back so hard you see stars, throat working frantically to swallow it all, but thereâs too much. It overflows the corners of your lips, dripping down your chin in messy strings.
He doesnât stop.
He pulls out with a lewd, wet popâcock still jerkingâand shoots the last few ropes across your face: warm streaks painting your cheeks, your nose, your swollen lips. You gasp for air, tongue darting out instinctively to lick what you can reach, tasting him everywhere.
Caleb pants above you, chest heaving, staring down at the mess he made. You look wreckedâface covered in his cum, eyes glassy and dazed, lips parted and shiny. He knows he should feel ashamed. He should apologize, clean you up, stop this madness.
But fuckâyou look so hot like this itâs rewriting his brain chemistry. Ruining him for anything else.
You flutter your lashes up at him, slow and deliberate, tongue tracing your lower lip to catch another drop. The sight snaps something inside him.
He groans, low and broken, and reaches for the dildo. One rough yank and he pulls it free from your overstimulated pussy.
You arch violently off the bed, hips jerking, a gush of slick squirting out around the sudden emptiness. âF-fuckâCalebâ!â
He stares, mesmerized. âFuck⌠youâre so hot, meimei. I think Iâm losing my mind.â
Youâre panting, trying to catch your breath, body still twitching with aftershocks. Guilt crashes over him like cold waterâhe reaches for the tissue box on your nightstand with shaking hands and starts wiping your face clean, gentle despite everything.
His cheeks are crimson, burning with embarrassment and leftover heat. âAh shitâsorry pipsqueak, didnât mean to⌠fuck⌠Iâm sorry, okay?â
You just stare up at himâbrain fried, body hummingâand reach out. Your fingers wrap around his still-hard cock, slick with spit and cum.
He hitches a sharp breath. âAhhhâoh godâmmhhââ
You give him lazy, teasing strokes, smirking mischievously through the haze.
âI want it, Caleb,â you whisper, voice hoarse. âI want your dick.â
He groans, hips snapping forward into your touch. Hearing you talk like thatâfilthy, needyâmakes him throb harder in your palm.
âSay it again, meimei,â he rasps, voice trembling. âSay it⌠properly.â
You bite your lower lip, thumb flicking over the sensitive head, circling the slit, smearing precum.
âI want your dick, gege,â you purr, slow and deliberate. âPlease?â
You donât stop. Somehow you sit upâlegs shakyâfree hand sliding up his arm, over the thick muscle of his shoulder, then flicking his hard nipple. You lick your lips again, eyes locked on his, and climb into his lap.
âNeed you inside, gege,â you breathe against his throat. âNot the⌠toy. Need your dick to fuck this pussyâmmhh!â
Caleb snaps.
Since when did his sweet pipsqueak become this seductive little tease?
He hauls you up the bed in one swift motionâthen slams you back down onto the mattress. Not too roughâjust enough to make you squeak in surprise, tits bouncing with the impact.
âFuckâlook at that sultry expression,â he growls, voice dark. âYouâre such a tease, meimei. Such a dirty girl begging her gegeâs dick.â
His palm comes down in a sharp smack against your pussyâwet, obscene. You whine, arching hard, the sting turning into molten heat that makes you even wetter.
âYou bought a dildo to fuck this needy little cunt, huh?â Another smackâharder. You sob, mindless, hips grinding back toward his hand. âUsed a replica of your gegeâs dick to train this pussy?â
You can only nodâwhimpering, desperateâgrinding shamelessly against his palm.
âFuckâbut who am I to judge?â he chuckles darkly. âIâm a freak too, ainât I?â
He presses the fat head of his cock to your entranceâhot, leaking, realâand snaps his hips forward in one powerful thrust.
You both nearly scream.
The bed shakes beneath you as he bottoms outâthick, burning, stretching you in ways the toy never could. Your walls clamp down instantly, fluttering around every veiny inch.
Caleb grips the headboard above you, knuckles white, hovering over your body. His other hand slides between your legsâfingers finding your clit, pinching and flicking with his thumb while he watches your face twist in pleasure.
âGood thing is⌠I donât have to train you for my dick anymore, hah,â he pants, hips rutting in sloppy, messy thrusts. âYouâre nice and ready to take me full⌠fuck⌠I never thoughtââ
He throws his head back, eyes squeezing shut. Tears well at the cornersânot from pain, but from too much everything: pleasure, relief, fear.
Heâs terrified heâll cry in front of you. Terrified youâll disappear when this ends. Terrified heâll lose you after finally having you.
So he fucks you deeperâhands roaming everywhere: groping your tits, spanking your ass, squeezing your thighs. Rough, unpracticed, desperate. He canât help it. Heâs never done this beforeânot like this, not with anyone.
Suddenly he stopsâmid-thrust, sweat dripping down his chest in rivulets. He looks down at you, panic flashing in his eyes.
âHeyâhey hey hey, pipsqueak⌠hah⌠are you likeâfeeling actually good? Like⌠orâŚâ
His whole face is on fire. He gulps, vulnerable in a way that makes your chest ache.
Your brain is too fried to process deeply. You just grinâmindless, blissed-outâand grind back against him with a small, innocent smile.
âMmhh⌠best big brother everâŚâ
Calebâs mouth falls open. He chokes on a laughâor maybe a sobâthen shakes his head and goes back to fucking you.
Heâll ask when youâre sober. Right now youâre too drunk on his cock to think straight.
He finds your clit againârubbing tight circlesâand feels the telltale shiver in your hips. Youâre close. He can see the faint bulge in your lower belly every time he bottoms out, and it makes him shy and so fucking turned on at the same time.
The fact that heâs claiming you like thisâfucking you so deep youâll feel him for daysâmakes his head spin. He prays this isnât a fever dream.
His own brain is melting from the pleasure, the sensation, the sight of you taking him so perfectly.
He reaches downâpresses the heel of his palm against the bulge in your bellyâand pushes.
Both your eyes roll back at the same instant.
Broken moans spill from your tongues as you cum togetherâhard.
You squirt violentlyâsoaking his cock, his abs, the sheets in messy arcsâwalls clamping down like a vice around him.
Caleb comes with a shattered whimperâhips stuttering, spilling inside you in thick, endless pulses until it leaks out around his base, dripping down his balls and onto the ruined bed.
He collapses next to youâbreathing ragged, eyes half-focused and glassy.
After a long moment he reaches overâgentle nowâbrushing damp hair off your face. A soft, satisfied smile curves his lips.
âThank youâŚâ he whispers, voice hoarse and raw.
You turn your headâstill panting, still tremblingâand press a lazy kiss to his palm.
âGegeâŚâ
He pulls you closeâbodies sticky, tangled, hearts hammering in sync.
Calebâs hand comes up slowâalmost reverentâcaressing the side of your face, thumb tracing the curve of your cheekbone like heâs memorizing the texture of your skin. His breath hitches when he feels the warmth, the realness of you still flushed and glowing against him. A low, stuttering rumble escapes his chest.
âDid you⌠like it, pipsqueak?â
Youâre draped over him nowâbreasts cushioned against the hard plane of his chest, cheek pressed to the thick swell of his pec, listening to the thunder of his heartbeat slow. You grin lazily, voice cracked and hoarse from all the moaning, all the screaming his name.
âI fucking loved it, Caleb.â
His smirk faltersâjust for a secondâsomething soft and vulnerable flickering in his eyes. His thumb circles lazy patterns over your hipbone, the touch grounding and possessive at once.
âMe too.â He swallows. âI thought I was pushing things too fast⌠making it uncomfortable since Iâve neverââ
Your eyes shoot open. You half-scream, half-gasp, bolting upright so fast your tits bounce against his chest.
âWAITâyou⌠YOU MEAN YOU WERE A VIRGIN?!?!â
Calebâs whole face ignitesâcrimson flooding from his cheeks to the tips of his ears. He squeezes his eyes shut in pure mortification, but the corner of his mouth twitches upward in a faint, sheepish grin.
âYeah yeah⌠first time got my dick wet. Kinda nervous.â
You beamâbright, wicked, delightedâand crash your mouth to his in a messy, giddy kiss. Then youâre scrambling off him, lunging for your phone on the nightstand.
âWaitâlemme take a picture of us losing our virginities together!â
Calebâs mouth drops open. You were a virgin too. The realization hits him square in the chestâfunny, warm, possessiveâand a smug grin spreads across his face before he can stop it.
You flip the camera to selfie mode, crawling back into his lap, thighs bracketing his hips. His arms snake around your waist immediatelyâtight, claimingâpulling you flush against him while you stick your tongue out in a naughty little pose.
âSay cheese!â
He looks straight at the lensâsmug as hell, eyes half-lidded and dark with leftover lustâwhile you giggle and snap the photo.
Caleb huffs softly after, nuzzling into your neck. âYou better not show this to anyone.â
You wiggle your eyebrows mischievously. âOh, Iâm gonna show it to any guy whoâll bother me likeâyou should be scared of my big brother.â
He wheezesâchokes on his own spitâand bursts out laughing, arms squeezing you until you squeak in protest.
âDiabolical.â
His palm comes down in a light, playful spank on your assâwatching the flesh bounce with open delight.
âYouâre a menace to society, you know that?â
âI get it from you.â
You bite your lower lip, rolling your hips back slowâgrinding your slick folds along his still-hard cock. He groans low in his throat.
âFair enough.â
He dives back inâkissing you deep, tongues tangling messy and hungry. You both moan into each otherâs mouths, hands roaming, relearning every inch now that the barrierâs gone.
âFuck⌠Iâm gonna miss you when I go back to SkyhavenâŚâ
You grin against his lips, crawling higher up his body until youâre straddling his chest. Your hand wraps around his cockâstill slick, still leakingâand guide the head to your mouth.
âThatâs what the toys are for, gege.â
You hum as you wrap your lips around him againâslow, teasingâtongue swirling over the sensitive slit. Caleb lets out a low, rumbling moan, hips twitching up into the wet heat of your mouth.
âAhhh⌠I almost forgotâŚâ
His fingers slide downâtwo thick digits pushing into your dripping pussy without warning. You moan around his cock, the vibration making him curse under his breath.
âThree days left⌠fuck, I canât get enough of you, meimeiâŚ!â
Neither can you.
The next three days blur into one long, feverish haze.
You fuck like rabbitsâhours bleeding into hours, positions changing, surfaces shiftingâbed, floor, shower, kitchen counter when Granâs still gone, even on the old couch in the living room where you used to watch cartoons together as kids.
He eats you out until your thighs shake and youâre crying his name.
You ride him slow and deep until heâs begging.
He pins you against the wall and fucks you standing until pictures rattle on their hooks.
You suck him off in the hallway while he triesâand fails to stay quiet.
Every time one of you starts to flagâexhausted, sore, spentâthe other just reaches over, touches, whispers filthy encouragement, and the fire reignites.
Even after Gran comes backâbags in hand, cheerful questions about your âquiet weekââyou keep sneaking.
Late-night tiptoes down the hall.
Muffled moans pressed into pillows so she doesnât hear.
Quick, desperate fucks in the bathroom while the shower runs to cover the sounds.
His hand over your mouth while he grinds into you from behind, whispering âquiet, meimei, or Granâll hear how much her good girl likes her gegeâs cock.â
When the vacation finally ends, you stand on the platform watching the train to Skyhaven pull away.
Caleb leans out the open window one last timeâhair mussed, eyes soft and darkâand presses a final, lingering kiss to your lips.
âBe good,â he murmurs against your mouth.
You grin, wicked. âNo promises.â
The train starts moving. He disappears down the track.
You stand there until itâs gone, thighs clenched tightâstill feeling the fresh load he stuffed you full with this morning before dawn, warm and thick and leaking slowly down your inner thighs under your skirt.
You shift your weightâfeel it drip a little moreâand smile to yourself.
Three hundred miles apart again. But the toys are waiting. And now you both know exactly what the other needs. You turn toward your apartment in linkon, already counting the days until the next break.
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Sylus/Xavier/Rafayel/Zayne/Caleb
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Part 2 here When they accidentally send you a porn link...
The blue light of your phone screen is the only thing cutting through the darkness of your bedroom. You really should have been asleep an hour ago, instead, youâre spiraling down a rabbit hole you didn't even know existed.
Size kink.
Youâd never really thought about it before, not until you started dating Sylus and tonight you were just scrolling, looking for something to satisfy the empty ache Sylus left all week.
This video is something you had never seen before or even thought was possible. You watch, mesmerized by the way the womanâs stomach subtly shifts a visible bulge as he stretches her out.
Heat pools instantly between your thighs, making your breath hitch and a dizzying sensation of fullness hit your gut. He's always so careful with you, so agonizingly gentle, as if youâre something precious he might break if he breathes too hard. But looking at this... a dark part of your brain wonders what it would feel like if he didn't hold back.
"Holy shit..." you whisper to the empty room.
Your hand moves instinctively, fingers sliding down to find slick heat. The video is playing on a loop. Bulge. Stretch. Deep. Repeat. You watch it while your imagination runs wild, replacing the stranger on the screen with the man who owns your heart. Youâre picturing his heavy weight pinning you down, his eyes blown wide, filling you until you canât even scream.
Youâre chasing a peak that feels miles away until, suddenly, it isn't. You hit your first orgasm with a stifled gasp, back arching off the mattress, only to find yourself immediately chasing the second one, body trembling and spent in the wake of the first.
By the time the second wave of pleasure ebbs away, youâre a puddle of limbs and heavy eyelids. Youâre half conscious, drifting in that beautiful limbo between wakefulness and dreams. In a daze of post orgasmic euphoria, you squint at the screen, your thumb hovering over the comment section.
"How do I send him this without actually sending it to him đł"
You tap 'send' with a clumsy thumb. You meant to just post it as a thought, a digital scream into the void. But as your eyes flutter shut, your hand twitches a final, involuntary spasm of exhausted muscle. Your thumb slips. It slides across the 'Share' icon, hovers over the very first contact at the top of your recent list, and taps.
Sent.
You don't hear the subtle whoosh of the outgoing message. Delivered directly to the man who at this very moment is probably staring at a security feed or sipping red wine.
Sylus.
You just fall into a deep, blissful sleep, completely unaware that you've just lit a fuse.
âCome on, sweetie, donât give up on me now" Thrust. The impact is heavy, forcing a breathless gasp from your lungs. âYou can take it, canât you?â
He isn't being the gentle, careful man you know. Not today. His hand is hooked firmly behind your head, his fingers tangling in your hair, forcing you to watch the unmistakable, fat bulge stretching the skin of your lower abdomen, proof to just how deep heâs buried himself inside you.
âYou wanted this, now you have to take it and you are going to watch.â
And there it is. The reality of it. Itâs visceral. Itâs exactly what you saw in that video, but itâs a thousand times more intense because itâs him. Itâs real.
Your vision swima and just as the shock of it all starts to settle, he shifts. He changes the angle of his hips in a calculated move that hits your G spot dead on. An uninhibited scream tears from your throat, echoing through the room.
âI've been trying to behave,â he says, and the words come out rougher than he probably intended, an edge of frustration bleeding through his usual composure âBut you make it so difficult... fuck... by sending me your filthy little thoughts.â
His hand settles against your belly, firm and heavy, and the second he presses down, your body reacts with a sharp inhale. You tense instinctively, muscles coiling around him, but you don't pull away. You can't.
âCan you feel me here?â he asks, breath coming in uneven bursts. Heâs buried balls deep and for a split second, you see a flicker of hesitation in his eyes. You make a face, a strange, overwhelmed expression of fullness, and he looks like he might actually pull back to give you a moment to breathe. He thinks heâs pushing too hard.
Heâs wrong.
Don't you dare.
Driven by a desperation you didn't know you possessed, you move your hips in a searching rhythm, pressing his hand down harder against your stomach. You want the pressure. You want to feel the exact point where he meets your skin from the inside.
He lets out a loud groan at the sensation. Your narrow walls clamp down on him, tighter than they've ever been. Every millimeter of space between you feels like itâs disappearing, leaving nothing but friction and heat.
You don't have the words to tell him that you never want him to stop, so your body does the talking. You cling to him, legs wrapping around his waist as he holds you there, keeping you exactly where you are until your breathing turns unsteady.
Until your body softens in momentary surrender and tightens again a second later, as if you're fighting a war with yourself, trying to decide whether to let go or to hold on tighter.
In the end, you don't choose. You do both.
The world dissolves into a hot haze of pleasure. It couldn't be called an orgasm because this feels like a total system failure. Youâre sobbing his name or maybe youâre just gasping for air, you canât tell anymore as waves of pleasure crash over you, violent and unrelenting. Your pussy seizes around him in long pulses, milking him, begging for the very thing thatâs pushing you past your limit.
He follows you a few seconds later, burying himself soooo deep you feel the hot rush of him filling you.
Slowly, the fog begins to lift, leaving you in a state of blissful, heavy lethargy. The hand that was just pressing so ruthlessly into your belly softens, fingers tracing lazy circles over your skin.
"You really are a menace." he murmurs, pressing a lingering kiss to your temple.
The shame you expected to feel, the embarrassment of that accidental video is nowhere to be found. Instead, there is only a sense of immense satisfaction.
"Next time," he whispers into your hair "don't bother sending a link. Just tell me. I'll give you everything you desire. Every single time."
The problem with being in love with a man like Xavier is that your brain is constantly a minefield of "what ifs."
Heâs incredible, truly, but youâve noticed the way he pulls back sometimes. When heâs brooding or when that possessive jealousy starts to prickle at him, he becomes almost too careful. Like heâs afraid he might actually break you if he lets go of that restraint.
So, naturally, youâve been doing a little "research" to keep the inspiration alive.
Now, youâre sitting on the edge of your bathtub, scrolling through your feed, a habit thatâs becoming a bit of a vice, when a video catches your eye. A girl pinned to a mattress, her head pressed down by her partner as he fucks her from behind. Hard. The sound of her moans echoes in your ears through your headphones and suddenly the bathroom feels about ten degrees too hot.
God, yes.
You quickly save the link to your "later" folder, a digital stash of things you want him to eventually try, and then scribble a quick, thirsty comment on the video "This but with my boyfriend dressed as Lumiere đ¤¤Â " and set your phone down.
Buzz. Buzz.
A notification lights up the screen. Itâs him.
[Xavier]:Â Found a new hot pot place. Apparently, the broth is spicy enough to kill a Wanderer. Want to go tonight? Please say yes so I can stop thinking about food and start thinking about you.
A soft laugh escapes you. Heâs so predictable, yet so devastatingly charming when he wants to be. Your answer is an immediate "sure" because youâd say yes to a lukewarm bowl of water if he was the one serving it.
But he always forgets to look at the menu and ends up ordering something way too spicy or something you're not in the mood for, so you look for the restaurant's menu.
You see the link. Tap it. Copy. Paste. Add "Look at the options! The spicy broth looks insane." Send.
Funny thing is, you don't actually copy the menu's URL, you just cut it. You don't even realize you just sent him the very un culinary link to the video you were just watching to fuel your own delusions.
Little typing bubbles appear. They dance for a long time. They disappear. They reappear.
"Lumiere?" the name sounds like a curse "You wanted Lumiere to pin you down?"
Your face is pressed so firmly into the mattress that the fabric feels like a part of your own skin, the scent of laundry detergent mixing with the heat of the moment. Every time he thrusts into you, the world tilts, your vision blurring into white light and dark shadows. The Xavier who kisses your forehead and cuddles with you is buried somewhere deep inside the man currently fucking you breathless.
"Xavie..." you try to speak, but his name dies in your throat as he shifts his weight.
"Tell me," he demands, losing the battle with his own restraint. He hits you hard, a deep, soul shaking thrust that forces a broken moan from your lips. "Tell me you don't need a costume to feel this."
You try to answer, to tell him he's being ridiculous...
Smack!
The sting of his palm against your ass makes you gasp, your fingers clawing at the mattress for purchase.
"You sent it to me on purpose," he mutters as he leans down, his chest pressing hard against your back. "You wanted to see me like this, didn't you? You wanted to see if I could be as rough as him."
He doesn't want an answer. He doesn't wait for one. He just wants to hear you whimper his name when he hits that perfect spot.
His hand presses your face down even harder into the mattress, muffling your cries. It's everything you were craving when you were scrolling through your phone earlier, but the reality is a thousand times better.
You start to move, trying to meet him halfway, trying to grind back against him to find the friction that will push you over the edge.
"Faster..." you beg, trying to turn your head to tell him that there is no Lumiere, there is only him, but he just presses you back down, his thumb grazing your hip bone with trembling pressure.
"Shhhhhh, just a little bit more," he lets out a long groan, his forehead dropping to rest against the back of your neck for a fleeting second before he surges upward again. "You should see the way your pussy is taking my cock right now, so greedy. Just for me."
His hand shifts. It leaves the back of your head to find the column of your throat. His thumb and middle finger curl around your neck not enough to hurt, but enough to remind you that he is in total control.
He stills for a heartbeat, his middle finger softly tapping the pulsing vein in your neck. "Every beat belongs to me tonight"
You just nod, a jerky movement, because you are standing on the very edge of a precipice, and the fall is coming. The tension in your lower belly is wound so tight itâs almost painful.
"Say it," he breathes, his lips brushing the shell of your ear, his words a warm, humid ghost of a sensation, his control fraying at the edges.
"Yours," you finally whisper, like secret youâve been holding in your lungs for far too long, finally allowed to breathe.
The moment the word leaves your lips, he loses the last of his mercy.
He pulls back almost entirely, leaving you aching and empty for a fraction of a second only to drive back in, bottomless and bruising. Itâs a cycle of withdrawal and overwhelming fullness that leaves you reeling.
"Give me what's mine" the command vibrates through your entire body.
The world dissolves into white light as your head falls forward, muscles spasming in the violent quake of your climax, but he catches your hair, tugging just enough to force your head up, his face inches from yours, his eyes dark and swirling with a hunger that could swallow the stars.
"Good girl," he whispers against your parted, trembling lips.
He thrusts one last time, deep and final, spilling molten heat as your name breaks from his lips, torn in half by bliss before he presses a kiss between your shoulder blades. For now, the jealousy is gone. There is only the quiet, heavy reality of being his.
The video catches your eye instantly. The lighting is a soft purple, casting a surreal glow over the two people on screen. A girl is on top, her movements slow and agonizingly deliberate as she drags her pussy over her partners cock, the rhythm of it making your cunt clench.
Tonight you are in a "no filter" mood. You need to share this. You need to tell Tara.
With a smirk, you tap the share icon, copy the link, and switch over to your messages. You find Taraâs profile pic or so you think and start typing with the kind of unhinged energy only a best friend can appreciate.
You and Tara have long since abandoned the concept of "boundaries" when it comes to your filthy late night chats.
âOmg Tara, look at this. Rafâs cock is so pretty, I swear if heâd just let me do this to him, Iâd never leave the bedroom again đĽľđŚâ
You hit send with a satisfied whoosh and let out a long, dramatic sigh. Silence follows. For a few minutes you go back to scrolling, blissfully unaware that you have just dropped a digital bomb into the inbox of a man who is already struggling to maintain his composure.
Your phone vibrates.
Itâs not a "LOL" or a "Damn" from Tara.
Itâs a notification from Rafayel.
Rafayel:Â Is that so?
Your heart skips a beat. You frown, squinting at the name at the top of the chat.
Wait.
Your face goes from pale to a shade of red that would put a sunset to shame. You stare at the screen, wanting to physically crawl inside the phone and disappear forever. You want to delete it. You want to throw the phone out the window. You want to move to a different planet.
But then, the little typing bubbles appear again.
Rafayel:Â Don't just sit there blushing, cutie. I'm coming to your place and you are going to show me exactly what you want"
Youâve lost track of time. Your thighs are starting to ache, every muscle in your legs feels tight, strained from holding yourself upright, yet you keep moving. You have to. The friction is the only thing keeping you grounded.
Youâre straddling him, your knees digging into the soft linens, focused on the way your cunt drags over his cock. Slippery. Hot. Wet.
Every time you slide down, the underside of him, that thick ridge presses ruthlessly against your clit. You can feel the vein running along his length pulse in perfect synch with your clit.Â
Thump thump. Thump thump.Â
"Slow down..." he groans, gripping your hips "You're going to... fuuuuck... you're going to kill me"
The friction is creating a heat of its own, a sliding friction that makes your head spin. You watch slightly delirious, as the light from the moon filters through the window, catching the sheen of sweat on his pale skin and the way his hair is plastered to his forehead. He looks wrecked. He looks beautiful. He looks like he belongs entirely to you.
But his hands are far from weak. They are heavy weights anchored to your hips, and he uses them to sabotage you. Just when you think youâve found a rhythm that might actually save you, he tightens his grip, forcing your hips to slow, dragging the slide of your pussy out into a long, shallow glide.
Itâs cruel. A sadistic kind of torture, making the night feel endless, as if the clock has stopped just to watch you suffer.
He wants to stretch this out. He wants to milk every drop of anticipation from your veins until your entire body begins to tremble, not from pleasure, but from the weight of the climax that refuses to arrive. He wants to push you to that edge where even your silence sounds filthy, where the quiet between your breaths is thick with the unspoken things you want to do to him.
Once heâs satisfied with the slow pace, his hands begin to wander. They trace the curve of your waist, the dip of your spine, the swell of your breasts, learning your body the way a sinner learns to pray. Like hunger learning the art of restraint just long enough to make the eventual feast mean something.
You slide back just a fraction, settling the heat of your pussy directly over his balls and then you reach down.
Your fingers wrap around the base of his cock, just like you saw in that video. You begin to stroke him while simultaneously rotating your hips in a circular grind over the heavy fullness of his balls.
The sound that tears from his throat is something unhuman, a vibration that feels like it's coming from the depths of the ocean.
Your name is caught between his teeth in a soft, sinful exhale. He sounds undone, completely unraveled by the sight of you taking exactly what you claimed you wanted in that accidental text.
Heâs right there, on the edge of an unravelling collapse.
And because you are just like him, a creature of beautiful, chaotic impulse, you don't let him have it. Not yet.
You release his cock, hand slipping away just as the tension reaches its peak, and drag your soaked cunt back up the entire length of him in one loooong slide.
It feels like a collision of two fires.
In your desperation to feel everything you let your entire weight drop. The clench of your pussy as you cum wraps around the underside of his cock, squeezing him with a force that leaves him absolutely helpless.
He has no choice but to follow you into the fire.
Spurts of his cum paint the pale skin of his stomach, the liquid warmth spreading in thick, white streaks, pooling in his belly button.
For a few seconds, neither of you moves. There is only the sound of your breathing and the humid scent of your shared exhaustion.
âWas that pretty enough for you, cutie?â he teases, though his hand trembles slightly as he reaches up to tuck a stray lock of hair behind your ear. His thumb lingers on your cheek, like heâs constantly checking to make sure you haven't vanished into the night. "Or do we need to do it again?"
Itâs late, way past the time Zayne would usually be nudging you to sleep but heâs still tucked away in his office, probably buried under a mountain of medical charts or surgical reports.
Your eyes are glued to your phone screen, watching a VIDEO of a girl grinding against a manâs thigh, bodies pressed together, his hands steady even as she buries her face in the crook of his neck. The guy in the video is wearing pajamas that look disturbingly similar to the ones Zayne is wearing right now.
Suddenly, the empty space in your bed feels a little too vast, your mind drifting to the office down the hall, aching to be that girl, to climb onto his Zayne's lap while heâs buried in medical charts and just... fuck yourself stupid.
You want to reach down and touch yourself but youâre a loud sleeper and an even louder moaner. If you start now, thereâs no way he won't hear you through the walls, and you aren't quite ready for that kind of intimacy yet. So, you settle for a bit of digital venting. With a flushed face, you type out a quick comment on the video: "God, I wish I could do this while he's working..."
You go to save the link to your "Filthy Things" folder for a proper session tomorrow morning, but just as your thumb hovers over the screen, your phone starts vibrating. Itâs Simone. Sheâs calling, probably to gossip about something trivial. In your rush to swipe the call and answer her, your finger taps the wrong folder.
And because Zayne is a man who is always, always connected to his devices for work... heâs going to see the notification the exact second it pops up.
It didn't take long. After that little "digital accident," the silence between you two wasn't awkward so much as it was heavy. Charged. He didn't even tease you about the comment. He didn't even blush. He just looked at you with those piercing eyes, a tiny, knowing quirk at the corner of his mouth, and silently commanded you to come to him.
And now, here you are. Perched on his lap, doing the same thing you saw on that video. Your lower half is completely bare, your thighs hugging his muscular one as you press yourself flush against him.
The friction is driving you completely insane.
Zayne, however, is a man of terrifying discipline.
His left hand is braced on your lower back, while his right hand moves across his keyboard. Heâs actually working. Heâs reviewing files, typing out notes, behaving as if you aren't currently trying to melt into his lap. Every so often, heâll pause, not to stop you, but to lean in. His breath, cool and smelling faintly of mint, brushes against the shell of your ear, sending a violent shiver down your spine.
"Ah... Zayne..." you whimper against his neck as you press yourself harder against him. The sound is loud, far too loud for his quiet office and you can feel the heat rising in your cheeks.
"Hush now," he doesn't even look away from the monitor, though you notice the slight tightening of his jaw. "I need to focus. These reports won't write themselves."
Heâs being difficult. Heâs being a tease. And you love him for it.
You try to be "good." You force yourself to still when he has to write something long on his computer. You sit there, trembling slightly, waiting for him to acknowledge the havoc you're wreaking on his concentration.
A moment passes. The only sound is the soft click clack of the keyboard. Then, you feel his hand slide from your hip to the small of your back, pulling you just a fraction of an inch closer, a subtle command for you to keep going.
"Good girl," he whispers, the words a warm caress against your ear.
His expression is completely professional, but the way his fingers linger on your skin tells a completely different story. Heâs still working, yes but heâs also letting you feel exactly how much of a distraction you really are.
Every time your thighs tense up, every time you desperately bite your lower lip to stifle a moan that threatens to shatter the silence, the air thickens with indecency.
Heâs struggling. You aren't blind. You can feel the insistent twitch of his cock beneath you, reacting to every open mouthed kiss you press against the pulse of his neck, the sharp line of his collarbone, and the smooth expanse of his Adam's apple. Heâs trying to maintain that surgeonâs calm, but his body is betraying him with every shuddering breath you take.
Youâre right on the edge. Your clit is catching perfectly against the fabric of his pajamas, the material already damp and clinging to you from the amount of arousal you're leaking.
"Look at me."
His voice cuts through the air, forcing your gaze up. He wants to see the exact moment your eyes glaze over, the moment your breath hitches and tells the truth that your lips are trying so hard to hide.
When his hand slides up to cup your jaw, it isn't the gentle, comforting touch you're used to during a quiet movie on the couch. It's different. It's possessive. Itâs a disciplined kind of dominance, a reminder that while he is the composed Zayne in the daylight, there is a much darker man caged behind that professional composure and you are the only one who knows how to let him out.
"You are close, aren't you, love?" he whispers, his lips hovering so close to yours that you can feel the heat of his breath.
You can barely manage a nod, your lungs feeling too small for the air you're trying to pull in. You're breathing directly into his slightly parted mouth.
"Cum for me, then," he exhales, a rare flush creeping up his cheeks, betraying just how much this is affecting him too.
He shifts his thigh, bouncing it up and down in a rhythmic motion that catches your clit perfectly.
The world tilts. You feel your eyes lose focus and you can't tell if it's the shaking of your limbs or the pounding of your heart that's making you tremble so violently.
"Zaynie... Zayne..."
His name becomes your entire vocabulary, there are no words left, only the sound of his name on your lips and the crashing sensation of finally, finally letting go.
You are flicking through a never ending stream of mindless clips and memes. Itâs supposed to be a quiet afternoon, just a bit of scrolling to kill the time until Caleb comes back, but then there...
A VIDEO pops up. Itâs not your usual aesthetic travel vlog or a cooking hack.
You freeze, your heart doing a weird, little skip in your chest. You know you should probably swipe past it, but your eyes are glued to the screen. Itâs a girl, her lace panties completely drenched. The guy in the video isn't even taking them off, heâs just sliding the tip of his cock against her through the wet lace.
A sudden warmth blooms deep in your belly, spreading down until it feels like youâre melting into the cushions. God, youâve been craving that. The teasing, the slow, agonizing buildup. Youâve spent so much money on delicate, expensive little sets, thinking maybe Caleb would appreciate the way they look on you, but hes a fucking dog. He doesn't do "slow." He usually just rips them or tugs them off with impatience, going straight for the heat of you. You just want him to play with you like that. To linger.
Your inhibitions are a little frayed from the visual, and before your brain can catch up to your impulse, your thumbs are flying. You tap the comment section, the screen a mess of unhinged messages from strangers, and you add your own little confession: âI really need him to play with me like this, but he prefers to eat it raw from the startđ˘â
You hit send, a tiny, embarrassed flush creeping up your neck, and immediately swipe the video away, feeling a bit silly for being so vulnerable to a bunch of internet strangers.
You toss the phone onto the cushion next to you a second later, completely oblivious to one mortifying detail. Heâd logged into his account on your phone earlier when his own battery died, and you hadn't bothered to switch back.
In his office, the most dangerous man in Skyhaven is about to watch, in explicit detail, how you want to be ruined.
It turns out your assessment of him was spot on. The man is a fucking dog.
He hasn't taken your underwear off. Thatâs the part thatâs driving you absolutely insane. The delicate lace is currently soaked, clinging to your pussy like a second, translucent layer of skin. Heâs been working his tongue against the fabric, licks so long and heavy they feel like theyâre reaching deep inside you. Youâve already been hit by two earth shattering, toe curling orgasms, your vision blurring every time his mouth finds your clit through the damp cloth. He hasn't even slowed down. If anything, it's getting worse.
âThis is the reason I usually take off those pretty panties you wearâ he presses his face into you, his broad tongue sweeping up in one stroke against your entire slit. You let out a choked, broken sound, fingers tangling desperately in his dark hair, trying to push him away just to catch your breath.
âYour scent is so fucking addictive,â he groans against your skin, âEspecially after wearing them all day... knowing you've been walking around, smelling like this, just waiting for me.â
Then, he says something that makes your heart skip a beat not out of fear, but out of pure shock.
âYou have no idea, do you?â he pants, nose brushing against your clit. âLast two years of High School... I spent them stroking my cock raw just to the smell of your panties. Thinking about you. Wishing you were right there."
Your vision blurs. Your hips jerk upward involuntarily as a third wave of pleasure crashes over you. You cum hard, your entire body shaking as you spill yourself directly onto his tongue, voice breaking into a high, desperate sob of his name.
He doesn't pull away. He just drinks you in, a satisfied smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth as he tastes exactly what he's been craving.
The moment your legs stop trembling he hooks his fingers into the soaked gusset and drags it to the side, baring your swollen folds and your pulsing clit, sensitive from his relentless attention.
He doesn't thrust in. He doesn't go for the full stretch youâve been silently praying for. Instead, he slides the drooling tip of his cock over your slit. He isn't even entering you yet, he's just... slapping it against your clit, teasing the very edge of your tolerance.
You wanted the lace, the play, the slow burn... but God, you also wanted him to fuck you until you couldn't remember your name. You wanted the stretch.
But Caleb is a man who listens. Or rather, he's a man who has spent a lifetime studying every detail of your desires and right now he is giving you exactly what you asked for.
He leans down, his eyes dark, watching the way your face contorts with pleasure and frustration. He doesn't give you the release of a full thrust, he just feeds you the tip. He slides just the head of his cock into your pussy, a teasing invasion that barely makes a dent.
The reaction is instantaneous. Your walls react to him like a living thing, clenching around him, desperately trying to suck him deeper, to pull the rest of him in. The sensation is so perfectly matched that a synchronized moan breaks from both of you.
He pulls out just a fraction and then he thrusts the tip back in. Over and over again.
âPlease,â you whimper, the word sounding pathetic even to your own ears. âBaby, please...â
Youâre trying to force him to go deeper. But heâs in total control. His left hand is working the length of his cock, pumping with a desperate rhythm, while his right hand finds your clit.
His eyes are pinned to yours, watching every flicker of emotion on your face as if heâs trying to memorize the way you fall apart.
And then, the teasing ends.
His mushroom tip, still nestled just inside your entrance, begins to pulse. Warm, thick spurts of cum hit your sensitive walls, flooding the tiny space heâs occupied.
Your pussy clenches around the tip of his cock, trying to suck every last drop out of him while his hand squeezes the rest of his length, forcing the remainder of his seed into you, filling you up until his cum starts to leak out.
He finally collapses against you, the weight of his body pressing you deep into the mattress.
"You're so loud when you're happy," he murmurs before pressing a slow, lingering kiss to your temple, then your cheek, before finally settling his lips against yours in a kiss that tastes of salt and everything you are to him.
He pulls back just a bit, his gaze dropping to where the soaked lace of your panties still clings to your thighs, then back up to your eyes. Thereâs a flicker of that obsessive intensity returning to his expression.
"There isn't a single thing in this world you could ask for that wouldn't make me crawl to you. So don't hold back, Pips."
You knew Caleb had a breed kink - it was why you just had a baby after all.
He loves to grab your hips in his hands and rail his fat cock inside your walls, loves to fold you in half in a mating press and shove his cum in those walls that grip him so good. Loves seeing your tummy bulge with how deep he's buried - fuck Caleb even likes those cute stretch marks you get when you're pregnant.
"Pregnant with my baby," he'd moan, kissing your tummy, lavishing those sensitive nipples and moaning, his eyes damn near black. Caleb loved getting his pretty Pips pregnant, but what you didn't know was how much he'd love sucking your nipples.
You were so embarrassed when he'd had you riding his cock just a little over a month after your baby - just in time to be cleared for sex, and he'd leaned up and squished your tits in his huge hands - rough from years of training. Calloused thumb swirling your nipple as his cock made you re learn its shape, those violet eyes dilated.
"That's it, slutty cunt missed me, huh Pips?" He whispered, sitting up and dragging you down on his girthy length, sucking a nipple into his hot mouth. "mmm..."
That's when Caleb tasted your milk for the first time, moaning and sucking harder, making you dizzy from how sore they were from breastfeeding. You'd tugged at those soft brown locks of hair, trying to get him to stop, but Caleb was drunk off your damn taste.
"It's so sweet, fuck..." he'd dragged you down and you rolled your hips, head falling back for more of his rough suction, his mouth quickly moving to the other, milk just dripping down his lips. "Fuck I can't get enough."
"Y-you can't... Caleb..." You sucked in a breath through your teeth. "Fuck feels s'good... ngh!"
After that Caleb was just done for, every chance he got once you put the baby to bed he was sucking your milk, you'd brush his hair back and arch for more, especially when his fingers fucked into your sore little cunt. "Caleb you can't just drink it all!"
"I can't help it," he grins up at you now, fingers scissoring in and out of your messy cunt. "You love it, hmm?"
"N-no," you're lying and he knows, you blush when you do, but when he sucks again you fucking soak him, letting him drink all your sweetness right down his thirsty throat.
"Mmm... gonna make you a mommy again..."
"Again!?" He's chuckling, literally drunk from your tits that are so full, pulling back and kissing you, letting you taste it, hands gripping them rougher to make them drip more. "Ngh!"
"Need them to stay full, honey," he's swirling the beads of milk around your areolas, sighing. "So pretty, and your tummy all full, round with me again?"
"N-not this quick," he has your thighs spread with the fat head of his cock gliding through your syrupy mess, hair falling over a brow - he looks all cute and boyish when he's being a deviant. "Caleb, please..."
"Please what, honey? Use your words," he whispers, teasing your cunt even more with the tip - barely pressing in just to pull back with a filthy pop of that ridge slipping from your greedy hole. "No baby this soon, want me to pull out, too?"
"No, no," he smirks and shoves his cock fully inside, bottoming out with a sharp thrust, groaning at the sight of your tummy moving with him. His fingertips brush your little stretchies from the baby hungrily.
"All mine, my baby inside you again, huh? You want my cock, my cum, want me to wreck your insides pretty?"
"Please, please," you're lost when he's doing just that, fucking into you and squeezing your tits, your milk squirting down and dripping for his hungry mouth, making him moan as he slurps it all up. Your nails dig into his back, making him even thicker inside you.
"Gonna keep you pregnant - hah," he's grinning against your skin, swirling that milk all around and fucking your cunt harder, watching your cute fucked out little expressions. "Keep drinking you, make you a mommy over and over. Yeah, Pips?"
You're dazed and fucked out, just how Caleb likes you. "Mhm."
"Such a good girl f'me," you melt under the praise, cunt spasming when he flips you on top and tugs you down, putting your tits right back in his face. "Lemme drink more, please?"
How he can give you violet puppy dog eyes while sucking all your milk and pumping more cum in you unprotected - well it's just a problem.
****
well my ovulation had to go to Caleb in anticipation of his myth tmrw - blame @uhnosav for this too hehe
childhood bestfriends caleb and nonMC!reader, who he's secretly in love with while she thinks he likes someone else
warnings. angst, fluff, rejection, she fell first he fell harder, caleb is down bad, groveling, miscommunication, caleb sucks at feelings, slow burn, childhood friends to lovers, he gives her a nickname adjacent to pipsqueak
preview. "I love you," he says, pressing his forehead against yours. You want to tell him that it's not fair to treat you the way he does and expect you not to fall for him. That holding your hair when you vomit, falling asleep at your bedside when you're sick, and his eyes closing in on you in any room is not fair. "Then prove it to me."
wc. 8.4k (she's hefty...)
You proposed to Caleb for the first time when you were nine years old, with a flower ring.
The winter air had nipped at your flushed cheeks as you stepped into ice, holding it out to him. Your breath had puffed into the air like a dragon, and you nuzzled your chin further into the wool of your scarf to keep warm. It had been the only flower left after fall had faded away, yet its white petals stood brilliantly in between your fingertips, weathering against the cold.
The child in front of you was closed off. Eyes narrowed, fists balled inside his pockets, and usually adorning a solemn look on his face. Though, it had certainly gotten better since you first met him as one of Grandma Josephineâs adoptive children. Back then, he hadnât even spoken muchâonly keeping MC tight at his side, as if she might disappear if he didnât. He wasnât rude by any meansâŚjust, cautious. Too aware for a child of his age.
But without a doubt in your mind, he was the most handsome boy youâd ever seen.
Heâd raised his brows. âYou just met me last week.â
âItâs love at first sight.â
He rejected you, naturally, but it did little to make a dent in your childish heart. Not when his purple hues gazed into your own, with a softness that didnât seem intent on hurting you.
The next two decades becomes a perpetual cycle of this encounterâin which you learn that Caleb is a very caring person.
In that time, you learn a lot about him, aside from his gorgeous face. You find that heâs fond of nicknames. Pipsqueak for MC. Splints for you, when you launched yourself off a swing and broke your wrist trying to impress him. Safe to say, it didnât impress anyone but your doctor, who was baffled you managed to fly so high into the air with your 11-year-old legs. Caleb held your other hand tight in the emergency room as you wailed helplessly, waiting for the doctor to ease the pain. Youâd be lying if you said you didnât cry just a tad longer to keep your hand in his.
âThis thing is so ugly,â you whine, picking at your cast as he walks you back home. âDo you think Iâm gross now, Caleb?â
âItâs not ugly. You need it to get better.â
âI thought youâd fall in love with me if I went high enough,â you sniffle fake tears, which he reads in an instant. âI did go pretty high up, though. So maybe you like me at least.â
He laughs, and you scowl, insisting that you arenât joking. So instead, he smiles and holds your free hand in his again. Your heart skips a beat. A childish, but innocent love fluttering in your chest. âCome on, splints. Letâs go watch TV, and I can sign your cast.â
The broken wrist is so worth it.
With MC being two grades lower than the two of you and thus having a different schedule, it doesnât take long before youâre doing practically everything with Caleb. Heâs your seatmate in class, the two of you walk to and from school, and there doesnât seem to be a moment where you arenât glued at the hip. Throughout all of this, you make sure you shoot your shot whenever the chance arisesâeven when it doesnât arise at all.
âYou get any chocolates for Valentineâs?â you ask as you plop down in your seat with your lunch, not-so-conspicuously eyeing his desk as his friends begin to crowd around the two of you. It didnât take long for Caleb to adjust to ordinary school life. After his initial bumpy introduction where he seemed hesitant to get close to anyone his grandma would introduce him to, he was quick to adjust to a level of charisma even you havenât gotten to.Â
By now, heâs charisma personified. You, yourself, have no idea how quickly he adapts to things. Though, you do recall that after an exam measuring his intelligence, he was told he couldnât lower his grade by two years to be with MC. So you suppose heâs rather brightâalmost as much as his face.
âToo many,â one of his friends groan, dragging his hand down the side of his face. âLifeâs so not fair, dude.â
âJust a few,â Caleb laughs, turning to feel me stare at him expectantly. âMost of them are obligatory. I just helped a couple people out during gym.â
You glance at his friends. âHow many is a few?â
âAt least five,â another one grins. He wiggles his eyebrows at you, and his friend snickers at his shoulder. âYou jealous?â
Itâs not like your crush on Caleb is new news. In fact, itâs practically common knowledge at your school, given how open you are with your affection with him. Asking him out with a giant poster on orientation day, sending him notes with hearts littered everywhere during class, and refusing to be subtle when youâre discussing it with your friendsâŚit tends to add up. Most people believe your relationship to be strange, but those who matter thought of it as the norm, so it doesnât really matter.Â
âJealous? I donât think so, why?â
âMost girls would be if their boyfriend got a bunch of chocolates,â he responds, to which Caleb immediately reminds him that youâre not dating. Then his friend sighs. âItâs cute when girls get jealous, isnât it?â
At this, your ears perk.
âShould I be jealous?â you ask Caleb, making his friends erupt into snickers. âDo you think itâs cute too?â
He rolls his eyes and flicks your forehead softly. âDo you ever ask normal questions, splints?â
Throughout your childhood together, everything involves him. Family dinners, graduation, holidays, all of it. Of course, this means that MC is there for all of it too. Youâre helplessly in love, but youâre not stupid. You know what love looks like from the movies their grandma would play on their TV. He cares for her with a different look in his eyes. He protects her with a lovingness in his voice that he doesnât spare for you.Â
The same fingers that flick your forehead touch her arm gingerly, like she could crack in half if he holds too hard. He doesnât touch her very easily either, whereas he often falls asleep with his head fully leaning against your shoulder on the bus ride home. He wakes up at the crack of dawn to make her lunch, while the two of you munch on sandwiches from the school cafeteria during lunch breaks. He scolds you when your clothes are tossed on the ground while he folds hers without her having to ask. He never enters her room to protect her privacy while he lounges in yours like he owns the place.
Your Caleb, you have found, is different from MCâs Caleb.Â
MCâs Caleb is easy to depend on. Trustworthy, perfect, and never makes a mistake for the life of him. He never loses his cool in front of her, never has a hair out of place, lets her win at all the board games, and always has this clear but dazed look in his pretty purple eyes. Your Caleb has none of that. Your Caleb teases you mercilessly when you lose the card game for the fifth time in a row. Your Caleb passes out on his desk while studying for an exam, essentially drooling on his notebook to lie to MC that heâs naturally talented at math. Your Caleb sends you stupid videos about plane models and forces you to sit through a thirty-minute explanation about it.
You know he likes her. He knows you know he likes her. She doesnât know anything at all. All jumbled up, like a wordless pact ready to crumble at any moment.Â
Of course, this means that he prioritizes her over you at times. All the time. Itâs to be expected. Sheâs family, youâre not. Youâve grown used to it, and so has he.
MC doesnât notice though, because she doesnât have to. Because to her, Caleb is just a slightly nagging but cool adoptive brother. Nothing more, nothing less. And youâre one of her childhood friends, and Calebâs best friend. Nothing more, nothing less.
The first year after you graduate high school is a dramatic shift from your cozy hometown. You somehow manage to get into the same college as Calebâand you attribute his tutoring to be the main culpritâthough in different majors. Itâs a lot to convince him to go so far from home given that MC is still at home, but after a lot of reluctant discussion, he agrees.
âTake off your shoes at the door,â he reminds you as you barge into his dorm room after a particularly difficult exam for one of your classes. You do as he asks, grumbling about how he has no mercy for the fallen, tossing them haphazardly beside the door and prancing past him. He takes the time to tidy them up, as if heâs expecting it. âHow was your exam?â
âAwful. I went through war.â
Caleb grins as he sits down at the coffee table beside you, watching as you bury your face into your arms. âAnd whose fault is it that they didnât want to study?â
âYours.â
âFunny,â he snorts, and you feel his large hand ruffling the top of your head. âItâs alright, splints. I can tutor you a bit earlier on the next one.â
âEven you canât save me for this class.â
âIs that a challenge?â
He ends up cooking up something quick in his makeshift kitchen (essentially just a rice cooker), while you laze around on his bed, scrolling aimlessly on your phone. Once heâs finished, you scarf down his food like a man starved, lips stretching widely. At times like these, youâre oddly grateful for his hopeless love toward MC. How else would he have learned to cook such good food? âYou should honestly be a chef, Caleb. Actually, no, that would mean other people would eat your food. I guess you can just be my personal chef when weâre married.â
Caleb remains completely unaffected, wordlessly cleaning the plate in front of you. âI didnât realize I was engaged.â
âWell, now you know. Not sure if you remember, but I had fireworks for you and everything when I proposed. Plus an orchestra.â
He hums, looking up as if heâs in thought, and then nods. âNow that you mention it, that does sound familiar, splints. How could I forget?â
You shrug. âYou tell me.â
His face falls as you pace to the door and begin to put your shoes back on. âWhere are you going? Arenât you done with class?â
âGoing out. I deserve it after that exam.â
âWith your friends?â
âNo, with four guys,â you joke, but he doesnât seem to find it very funny. âIâm just going to a club. I wonât be back too late.â
Heâs already grabbing his jacket. âI can come.â
You push him back with your finger by the nose, and he blinks in surprise, making you laugh. âNo need. You have exams too, yâknow.â
âIâm done studying.â
âLiar.â
Though it takes some convincing, you eventually have him sit at his desk once more. He manages to nag a whole lot as you leave, reminding you to call him once youâre done so he can pick you up, but you just wave him off as you leave out the door. You take your time getting readyâdolling yourself up to hide the dark circles beneath your eyes. As you get ready, you video call MC, where she asks how you and Caleb have been doing in her absence. She rants about her days with her grandma, complaining about how quiet the house is when Caleb isnât home, though she indulged in the beginning. She asks you to show her your outfit once youâre done, and she beams brightly in your screen, squealing about how youâd likely get a boyfriend soon that you can tell her all about.
You just smile, because you donât know how to tell her that the only boy you want is wrapped around her unknowing hand.
The club is loud. Where the music rumbles through your feet to the tips of your fingertips, and the lights are flashing in a dimly lit room. Your friends flock to a table and order drinks while you let yourself feel the music and crack a joke or two once in a while.
A group of guys approaches you with easy smiles and louder voices than necessaryâconfidence sharpened by cheap cologne. One of them leans against your table like heâs done it a hundred times before, asking your name, where youâre from, if you come here often. The usual.
You answer, choking out a laugh to humor his unfunny jokes alongside your friends, while the swigs you take from your drink become deeper and deeper.Â
Heâs not bad at flirting, you think. Subtle, and not too glaring about it. But you donât particularly enjoy humoring it, and it becomes gradually more apparent as your eyes keep drifting elsewhere and you keep having to ask him to repeat himself. Youâre growing bored. Irritated.
Because heâs not Caleb.
It hits you in strange, inconvenient flashes. The way this guy stands just a little too far away. The way his voice doesnât quite reach you over the music, even when heâs close. The way you donât feel that familiar, grounding presence like an anchor holding you to the ground.
You find yourself glancing past his shoulder. Half-wishing to see Caleb there. Watching. Hovering.
But thereâs only strangers. Blurred faces and flashing lights.
âYou okay?â the guy asks, tilting his head.
âYeah,â you say too quickly. âLong week.â
He grins, like thatâs an invitation. Says something elseâsomething about getting you another drink, maybe dancing, maybe getting out of here.
You nod again. Smile again.
Across the room, your friends are already disappearing into the crowd, dragged toward the dance floor by laughter and hands you donât recognize. One of them glances back at you, gives you a look that asks âyouâre good, right?â before sheâs gone.
You sit back down at the table when the guy steps away. Maybe to grab drinks, maybe because he senses your attention drifting. You donât really care which.
The music swells in your chest. The lights flicker. You wish you could enjoy yourself, but itâs particularly hard today.
You take another sip. Then another. Your phone rests face-down on the table, but you flip it over anyway.
No messages.
Of course not. He cares, but not like that. Not in the way that he would spam MCâs phone whenever he didnât know where she was or how she was doing. No, not like that at all.
Another sip. The glass is nearly empty now.
And suddenly, youâre pressing send before you can even register whatâs happening.
[you]: hi
The answer comes immediately, the grey bubbles popping up on his end of the screen.
[futre hubs <333]: do you need me to come pick you up?
[futre hubs <333]: i can
Youâre not sure why you feel like shit, but you hate it. In moments like theseâmoments where the alcohol lets you lower your walls and truly thinkâit hits you like a truck, like a deeply sinking feeling in your chest. The years of rejection after rejection that the two of you frame like a bitâas if your feelings have become so miniscule that it no longer even phases him.Â
It hurts, a bit. More than you let yourself feel.
Youâre not sure how much time passes. Maybe minutes or maybe an hour. Thereâs buzzing throughout your body. The grip on your waist belonging to the man youâve been half-heartedly entertaining suddenly becomes harsher, snapping you out of your trance. It feels unlike Caleb, but you let it sit anyway. However, the hand moves to your wrist, and youâre being pulled out of the crowd towards the wall.
Too touchy. Heâs saying something into your ear, and you feel his breath against your skin. You donât like it. Too close. The buzzing feeling feels more like an alarm now.
The words either go unheard due to the music or donât deter him. You want to go back. Back to Caleb. In the moment, you begin to thinkâalmost as if the world is in slow motion. Perhaps the drinks, you think. You wonder if Caleb will leave you. You wonder if heâll leave to go be with MC. You wonder if the years youâve spent expressing your love to him meant as much to him as it did to you, or if he just found it plain annoying. You wonder if now that youâre in college, heâd want to explore other people, and heâll finally find an outlet to get rid of you for good.Â
But you know he wouldnât. Because he cares for you. Just not as much as he cares for her.
You wonder if heâs ever looked at you with the same softness he does with MC.
Someone pulls you away from the man and into their chest, and the worries dissipate in an instant. His scent. His warmth. You knew heâd come. He always does. It only takes a warning glare from Caleb before the man disappears into the crowd again, and you feel the grip on your wrist loosen. Caleb stares down at you, your back still to his chest as you blink wearily, almost in slow motion, and he sighs. He doesnât give you the same smile he gives to MC when sheâs in trouble.Â
A part of you wishes he wasnât always there for youânot when itâs so different from how heâs there for her.Â
You sit idly in front of a convenience store parking lot while Caleb fetches you some water and ice cream. You have your knees to your chest, arms pulling them close as you shiver against the cold autumn breeze. You shouldâve brought a jacket. The buzzing, hot feeling of the alcohol is subsiding too quickly.
âDrink.â You feel a water bottle press against your cheek from behind, and Caleb plops down beside you with a plastic bag. He notices how youâre holding yourself together and frowns. âAre you cold?â
âNo.â
âI told you to grab a jacket.â
âYou nag too much.â
He snickers and twists open the cap of the water bottle for you to drink, which you sip carefully. He strips his jacket off and drapes it over your shoulders, and you immediately bury yourself in it. It smells like him.
âWhat kind of woman do you like, Caleb?â
âYou and your questions.â
âI want to know.â
He shifts to face you, motioning for you to lift your arms. He grabs either side of his jacket and pulls it shut, fumbling with the zipper until he manages to zip it to your chin. You can barely claw your hands out of his sleevesâthe fabric almost engulfs youâbut he just laughs. âMy type? A woman who brings jackets when itâs cold.â
You scowl, making his laugh echo louder. âOther than that.â
âA woman who goes to class in the morning.â
â...Other than that.â
âA woman who doesnât leave her clothes all over my floor when she feels like sleeping over.â
âSomething else.â
âA woman who eats healthy, balanced meals. A woman who doesnât steal all my pens and then still ends up asking me for more. Maybe someone who doesnât pass out drooling on my pillow. Or someone who doesnât let half the world know that they like someoneâhell, maybe even the entire world.â
Caleb glances at you, chuckling to himself, but stops the moment he sees that youâre not laughing with him. Your head hangs low, your feet shuffling anxiously. His face twists, and suddenly the air thickens. âSplints?â
You pick at your sleeves. âSo just not me?â
âI was just kidding around.â
âJokes have some truth to them.â
âNot all of them. I didnât mean toââ
âItâs okay, Caleb,â you finally meet his eyes again, and shrug. âI know you like someone else. Iâm not an idiot.â
Silence commences, like a bell dropping on your head.
Caleb shifts his weight, one hand coming up to rub the back of his neck. Itâs a nervous habit youâve seen a hundred timesâusually followed by some half-joke, something to smooth things over.
But nothing comes.
The space between you suddenly feels too small and too big all at once. You try to act normal. You really do.
You fiddle with your sleeve again, smoothing it down, then pulling at it, then smoothing it again. Anything to give your hands something to do, so they donât reach for him out of instinct.Â
Caleb glances at you. Then away.
Then back again, like heâs trying to solve something written across your face but canât quite make out the words.
âHey,â he starts, softer this time.
You hum in response, not trusting your voice yet.
Another pause. God, itâs awkward.
âI didnât mean it like that,â he mutters again, quieter now. Not defensive. Unsure. âYou know I think youâre amazing.â
Just not enough.
âI am pretty great,â but it comes out too soft.
Neither of you knows what to do with another stretch of silence. So you opt to drink some more water instead.
âWhy do you like me so much?â He eventually mutters out as he bites his bottom lip, eyes falling to the ground like he canât bear to watch your expression. âYou could do a lot better.â
You smile, but itâs half-hearted. âHow could I not?â
He pauses, as if choosing his words carefully before his voice comes out in a soft whisper. âYou mean so much to me. Youâre smart, beautiful, and everything good in betweenâwhoever gets to call you theirs is the luckiest person I know. And you know Iâd do anything for you.â
Despite their sweetness, his words feel like judgement wrapping around your heart in vines, squeezing just before itâs about to pop. You wish you could block your ears out for what comes next.
âBut it canât be me.â Calebâs lips purse, brows furrowing as he looks away. âI canât give you what you want.â
The rejection hurts more than you realized it would. You want to tell him that itâs not fair to treat you the way he does and expect you not to fall for him. That holding your hair when you vomit, falling asleep at your bedside when youâre sick, and his eyes closing in on you in any room that youâre in is not fair.Â
Instead, you nod. And you swear to yourself that youâll swallow this sickening lump in your throat that makes you want to hurl and sob at the same time. That youâll bury it deep in a graveyard within you that even the closest person to you would never know of. Especially him. Â
âI donât want it, either,â you snort back, immediately perking up to slap his back in what results in a jolt. His shoulders tense as he blinks wide at you, unsure of the sudden shift in atmosphere. âI donât want feelings that belong to someone else, dumbass.â
Once it sinks in that you mean it, a smile finds its way onto his face, though something flickers beneath it, like a flash of something you donât want to look too far into.
Not because you still had hope, but because whatever existed between you had never been something as simple as a crush. It had rootsâtangled deep into your souls and impossible to pull free without tearing something open. You wanted to keep what was left. Even if it lingered just a little longer, and even if you pretended not to see the splintering strands in the string tying you together.
So you let it settle. Let it rot somewhere you couldnât feel it.
The two of you fall into the kind of closeness that youâve always had, and time passes as if it was always meant to be this way. Itâs easier this way. For a while, it does work, but nothing ever really stays under wraps. Despite your incessant protests in telling yourself itâs fading, the scars heâs inflicted on you are just that. Scars. Unmoving yet subtle.
The thinning thread finally snaps a few years later, when MC develops feelings for a coworker in the Hunterâs Association. The day the cracks in the glass bridge holding you together shatter beneath your feet into a million different pieces.
âWhenâs the last time youâve slept?â
Heâs sprawled shirtless on the couch of his apartment in Skyhaven, freshly out of the shower after you arrived to visit him for the first time in monthsâonly to see that heâs nearly overworking himself to death. Despite him going off to the DAA after college, youâd kept close contact, the connection between the two of you never wavering regardless of your restricted time. It only changed after news of MC broke out. Worried, youâd rushed to Skyhaven to make sure he was doing okay, which youâre clearly glad you did now. Youâd practically had to drag him to the shower to keep him from passing out next to the front door in his gear.
Caleb, clearly, is off. You suppose you donât blame him. The woman he loves is yearning for another. Almost poetic, really, but you donât like seeing him this way. Especially when you know what it feels like yourself, even if youâve gotten used to it. Gotten over it. He looks like a kicked puppy. Hurt, like a dog whoâs just been scratched by its owner.Â
âI dunno.â
You peer into the empty abyss that is his fridge and frown. Thereâs a few measly apples sitting inside, and a half-eaten protein bar thatâs been there for god knows how long. âWhat the hell have you been eating?â
He responds with a grunt, letting his head fall back against the sofa. You decide to make do with the instant noodles he has stashed in one of the cupboards and bring it over to him once it seems mostly done. With a fork, you stick out a few noodles to his face, urging him. âEat.â
âNot hungry,â he mutters.
âDonât care. Sit up.â
He opens one of his eyes to peek at you, which somehow urges him forward. Thereâs darkness beneath his eyesâeven stubble littering his chin from a few days worth of not shaving. You want to reach out and poke fun at him, but the state heâs in deters you. Instead, you silently feed him, watching him chew his food while staring at your hands. It makes you wish you put on a fresh set of polish before you came.
You twirl another small forkful and hold it out. He leans forward this time without being told, taking it quietly. His shoulder brushes yours as he settles back against the couch, and you can feel his skin through your shirt.
âThanks,â he mutters, voice rough from disuse more than anything. âFor coming.â
âYeah,â you say, quieter now. âSomeone had to make sure you didnât rot in here.â
He huffs a faint laugh, though it doesnât quite reach his eyes. âProbably wouldâve. Dramatic way to go out, huh?â
You nudge his knee with yours. âStarving to death in your own apartment? Real heroic.â
A ghost of a smile flickers across his face. It makes your heart flutter. Stupid feelings.
ââŚthanks for coming, splints,â he says.
Your chest tightensâsharp and sudden. It feels like itâs threatening to feel something thatâs not yours to feel. So instead, you look down at the bowl, pretending to focus on separating another bite. You twirl your fork, more carefully this time. âI had to. You werenât responding, so I thought you died, or something. Open.â
He rolls his eyes, but obeys anyway. âBossy.â
âLearned from the best.â
His lids flutter shut, voice dropping to a lower hum. âI missed this.â
Your hand stills. âWhat?â
He shrugs, eyes still closed. âYou being here.â
His hair is sticking to his forehead, still damp from the shower. Before you realize what youâre doing, you brush a stray strand of hair off his forehead. You speak quietly. âYou look like shit.â
âWow,â he mutters. âYou have a way with words.â
You frown, and without thinking, your hand lingers at his temple for just a second longer than it should. His skin is warm, still hot from the shower.
âIdiot,â you whisper.
He catches your wrist. Not tight, not stopping you. Simply holding it there for a moment that feels too long and not long enough at once. Your eyes meet for a fleeting moment, and then youâre looking away, setting the mostly finished bowl of noodles onto the coffee table to pull away.
âDonât make this a habit. Iâm not flying out here every time you forget to eat.â
âCould,â he murmurs. âYou would.â
You donât respond to that, because heâs not wrong.
ââŚIs she okay?â
It slips out of him like instinct. Like breathing. And just like that, everything shifts. You donât answer right awayâinstead, your fingers tighten slightly around the fork.
âSheâs fine,â you say eventually. Leave it, you plead in your head.
âDid she say anything?â he asks, sitting up a little more now. Thereâs something in his eyes, like heâs searching. âWhen you talked to her.â
You shrug, trying to keep your tone even. âJust normal stuff.â Stop, you think. Please stop talking.
âLike what?â
âLike her job. Her grandma. Nothing serious.â Shit.
He frowns slightly. âShe didnât mention him?â
There it is. Itâs always about her.
You know heâs in a vulnerable spot right now, but it does nothing to ease the sudden flame roaring in your chest. Whether itâs from years of repressed hurt or shame, all it amounts to is a relentless ball of rage inside of you that leaves your nails digging crescents into the palms of your hands. You stare at him, chewing on the inside of your cheek as you inch away from him.Â
âDoes it matter?â
Calebâs face relaxes. âWhat?â
âWhy does it matter what she thinks about him? She likes him, end of story, no?â
âI just want to know if heâs a decent guy.â
Your ass. âThatâs not really your business, Caleb, but sure. Heâs a great guy. Amazing, honestly. Heâs really gentlemanly and checks every single box. He lives above her apartment, so theyâre right next to each other. He treats her gently, too. Iâd bet every girl would jump at a chance to date a guy like that.â
Youâre not sure where the words are tumbling out of, but itâs too late to go back. Neither do you want to.
âI wonder if he has a brother. Maybe MC could set me up or something.â
âOh. Is heâŚâ Calebâs back straightens, and you notice his fingers digging into his thighs. â...handsome?â
âDidnât you hear me? Iâm telling you, heâs perfect. His face could pay for the Linkon rent by itself.â
He suddenly stands, and you glare up at him through your eyebrows. âWhy are you talking like that?â
âI donât know what youâre talking about,â you scoff.
He narrows his eyes. Itâs something you havenât seen in a while, since Caleb rarely gets upset at you. âYou know exactly what Iâm talking about, splints.â
âCan you just spit it out? What am I saying differently?â
âYouâre angry.â
You stand, following suit. He looms over you to have his shadow essentially engulf you, and you wish you could kick his ankle so he falls to the ground. âMaybe if you werenât so irritating, I wouldnât feel so annoyed right now.â
âWhat?â
âItâs hard to watch, Caleb,â you hiss out in exasperation, throwing your hands into the air. âItâs always pipsqueak this, pipsqueak that, pipsqueak what. Seriously, weâre not kids anymore, you need to get over it!â
Youâre not sure if youâre talking to him or yourself anymore.
âCan we calm down and talk? If Iâve been talking too much about it, I can stop, soââ
âWe havenât seen each other in months, Caleb! And all you want to ask me about is how sheâs been? Why donât you ask her yourself, if youâre so curious? Oh, but you canât, because you always have to be perfect in front of her. So instead, you dump all of this on me. Your goods and bads, all of it, just for me to get kicked to the curb like Iâm some dispensable object.â
âWhat?â his balks. âDispensible? Are you serious? As if I havenât gotten you out of every little thing youâve gotten yourself into the past decade of our lives? As if I havenât picked you up every weekend from your friendsâ places at three in the morning? Like I havenât called you every single weekââ
âWell, I want you to stop that!â your words spit at him like weak knives, growing louder by the second.Â
âYou didnât seem very against it the last forty times.â
âI am now.â
âWhat has gotten into you, splints?â
âDonât call me that right now,â you glower, and you try to ignore the hurt flashing across his expression. âIâm just sick of seeing you follow her around like some wet dog. She doesnât see you like that, canât you see that?â
Your breathing begins to stutter, and you suck in a deep breath through your nose. Your chest stings, and you pray that you donât lose composure so the tears threatening to bubble at the corners of your eyes remain hidden.
âYou told me that you couldnât give me what I wanted. Well, she canât either,â you bore holes into his chest, too afraid of what you might see if you look up. âIf I can get over my stupid feelings, so can you.â
But youâre not over it. Not at all.
He opens his mouth to respond, but nothing comes out. For the first time in a while, youâve rendered him speechless, and it feels even worse than what it felt to be rejected years ago. Youâre not sure how your nails havenât drawn blood at this point. Youâd rather that they do, so you have some excuse to use the restroom.
âItâs not fair what you do, Caleb,â you try to will your tears to stay at bay, but you canât help them. They sting, blurring your vision as you drop your head in some pathetic hope that he wonât face them head on. âHow you treat me when you donât like me like that is not fair. At least MC doesnât know, but youâyou know, and yet youââ
The rational part of you says that itâs not entirely his fault. Sure, you insisted on staying by his side. Sure, you insisted that you could push down your feelings. Sure, youâve promised a lot of things, but itâs his fault too, for being the way he isâso kind, so thoughtful, just so him.Â
You wipe desperately at your tears. It was a lost cause from the start.
âPlease donât cry.â His face drains of color, apparent even against the dim lighting in his apartment. He steps towards you, and you take a step back. âPlease donât cry, splints, just not that.â
But when your tears refuse to cease dripping down your cheeks, your face flushing in humiliation, you feel both his hands cupping either side of it. He tilts your gaze up, and you realize that heâs only inches away from you, so much so that you can feel his breath against your skin. Itâs moments like these that you lose yourself in his beauty. The deepness of his eyes that seem to peer into your very soul is one of the first features that you fell in love with as a child, and it hasnât changed since. Damn him. You blink, eyes wide while his own flicker to your lips.Â
âBe as mad as you want. Hit me, hate me even,â he whispers, his nose almost touching yours now. His thumb pad smooths your tears away. âBut donât waste your tears on someone like me.â
You think you might be imagining things. Because with the tension that nearly suffocates you and his lashes almost fluttering against your skin, you think he might be about to kiss you.
A sharp pain jabs you in the chest. Is it pity? A consolation prize dressed up as something softer? Is it to smooth things over, to make this moment easier for him to leave behind? Or is it rebellion? Something reckless from the fact that he canât have her? Your tears have dried up, but the rest of your body seems to weep, as no excitement, no butterflies course through your veins.Â
Why is it always something else? Why is it never you? It only hurtsâbecause even now, youâre just the place he empties everything he feels for her.
Instinctively, you press your palm into his lips to push him away, and it feels like the air itself has stilled.
His breath lingers against your skin. Yours stutters like itâs forgotten how to exist in the same space as him. The air is so thick you could slice it with a knife.
Eventually, he pulls away. Caleb stares at you with an expression you havenât seen before, though you donât look long enough to analyze it. Wordlessly, you gather your things, stuffing your jacket into your bag and stumble over to the doorâall while he stays locked in a petrified state, like heâs processing what he just did. Your gaze remains fixated on the wooden panels of the floor while you pack, refusing to look any higher in case you might see anything other than his feet.
âDonât follow me,â you tell him as you leave.Â
You donât wait to see if he hears you.
The journey home feels like thereâs a gaping hole in your chest, and all you can do is stare out the window as you feel the vibrations of the train through your fingertips. Outside, the world blurs past in streaks of dim lights and shadowed shapes, and you wish that your feelings were as fleeting as the buildings blurring by.Â
You try to count the number of trees you see. Not on the warmth of his breath against your palm. Not on how close heâd been. Not on the fact that, for a second, you almost let him.
If you hadnât pushed him away, would it have meant anything? Or would you have just been a mistake heâd regret in the morning?
Your phone buzzes frantically in your pocket, and you pull it out to see his name in big bold letters. Heâs texting you simultaneously, apologizing in so many different ways that they all start to blend into one message you donât plan on reading. You refuse to give into what your heart wants. Itâs hurt you too much in the past. So instead, your thumb hovers above the âmuteâ button.
You press it and shut your eyes.
Even if itâs difficult to adjust the first few weeks without him, you canât bear to face him either. He shows up at your door. Nearly every day for some time, knocking softly and asking if youâd be willing to talk. When you simply plug in your earbuds and bury yourself into your bed, he apologizes through the door and leaves you something to eat. You tend to throw it out at first, but after a while, you figure itâs just a waste. Just like that, a month goes by. And then another. Then another. Until you canât count them on one hand anymore. He comes by once every two weeks or so now, likely busy with his work.
Despite how much your body seems to miss his presence, you wonder if you should distance Caleb permanently. Itâs a daunting idea. One that you never wouldâve thought just a few years ago, but the embarrassment runs deeper than you want to admit. The feelings youâve tried so hard to hide clearly arenât hidden. Is this sustainable?Â
Regardless of what you think, he comes around like clockwork.
âAre you in there?â He knocks gently on your door, voice soft. He probably knows you are.
âNo.â
He chuckles from the other end. âRight. Happy birthday, splints.â
You glance at your phone calendar. Heâs right.Â
As usual, he begins to talk about random events in his life that he hasnât had the opportunity to tell you, and while you usually muffle it out, you decide to quietly shuffle over to the door today. To tell him, maybe, that you donât want to keep doing this. Or maybe just to hear his voice, you donât know. Either way, you slide your back down the door where heâs on the other side, pulling your knees into your chest.
âI donât know if youâve read my text, butââ
âI donât read them.â
Caleb stops, and you can almost hear his breath hitch. You usually donât give him more than a few words, much less a full sentence, so it seems to have taken him aback. After the brief remission, you hear him clear your throat. âSplints, can you open the door? I want to talkâapologize to you.â
Silence.
âOr I can do it out here. Thatâs fine,â he sighs. âI want you to know that itâs okay if you want to hate me forever after this. I wonât keep clinging to you if you at listen to what I have to say, but I really justâI need to say that this is my fault.â
You half-heartedly hear his words drone on, his confidence wavering every so often while you pull up his chats on your phone. You have no idea how you hadnât folded and read his chats until now, though it mightâve been more so for your own peace than anything. Thereâs too many to scroll up to, so you read the most recent messages, squinting in the dark against the light of your phone.Â
[1:41PM]
[caleb]: are you eating well?
[caleb]: i made this today
[caleb]: [image attached]
[caleb]: your favorite dishes :) iâll drop them off at your place later
[caleb]: i hope youâre not just throwing them outâŚwouldnât blame you tho
[caleb]: at least take care of yourself :)
[8:13AM]
[caleb]: hi splints :)
[caleb]: you probably watched it already but that movie you wanted to see came out a week ago. I went to go see it
[caleb]: i still think itâs kind of badâŚbut it was entertaining
[caleb]: unless you wanna argue about it ?? :3
[5:32PM]
[caleb]: ranked first today
[caleb]: i was excited to celebrate it with you and then remembered :/
[caleb]: it doesnât feel as good when i canât tell you lol
[caleb]: hope youâre okay
[11:23PM]
[caleb]: i wish i hadnât been so stupid
[caleb]: i didnât deserve you back then
[caleb]: i still donât
[caleb]: i shouldnât have lost my cool when you were over here. didnât like hearing you talk about that guy like that
[caleb]: im sure heâs a good looking guy, and i know youâre particularly weak to good looking guysâŚ
[caleb]: i was being childish and i wish i couldâve explained it to you then
[caleb]: i know you donât owe me anything and you donât have to listen to what i have to say
[caleb]: but i never wanted to make you feel used, and i never did. if that even sounds believable lol
[caleb]: it was never about her
[caleb]: thereâs so much more i want to say but iâll say it in person
[caleb]: miss you a lot
[caleb]: sleep tight
You wish the tightness in your chest would go away. You wish you didnât feel his sorrow through him. And you wish you didnât care about your own feelings for him.
âI love you, splints,â he murmurs, and your attention tears away from the chats, your phone nearly clattering onto the floor. Your eyes widen, suddenly regretting that you missed the first half of his speech.Â
âNot in the way you say it to your friends, or the way you say it to family. Youâre my life, and youâve been my life since the day you gave me that ring. I care for MC, but what I feel for you is different. Itâs always been different. I realized that years ago, but I was afraid that it wouldnât be fair for you. I thought you deserved someone better than someone who doesnât know how to understand their own feelings.â Your throat dries. âI thought it wasnât fair because Iâd already put you through so much.â
âAt the same time, Iâm a selfish guy, you know? I couldnât let you go either, because I couldnât bear to see you with someone else. I wanted it to be us, and the only way I could think of existing without feeling like I was ruining you was to stay how we were. Stagnant, I guess,â he chuckles, but it feels sad. Weak. âIâm an idiot when it comes to you, you know.â
You donât respond.
Not because you donât have anything to sayâif anything, thereâs too much. It crowds your throat, every word scraping against the next until none of them can make it out. Your fingers hover uselessly over your phone, screen still lit with a conversation you canât even remember reading.
âI love you.â
The words echo, but they donât land the way you once dreamed they would. They donât bloom or soften or fix anything. They just sit. Too heavy. Too late.
Your chest tightens, aching outward like itâs trying to break free. Because youâve wanted thisâGod, youâve wanted thisâfor so long that you stopped letting yourself imagine it could ever actually happen. It should feel like relief. Instead, it feels real, but fragile.
Because you remember too much. The almosts. The waiting. The way you learned how to swallow your emotions when he built a wall between the two of youâand that doesnât disappear just because he finally found the words.
Your hand curls slightly against the door, fingers brushing the cool surface.
Even with all that, you still miss the warmth of his skin. How his hair felt through a towel as you dried it. How heâd flick your forehead when youâd get a question wrong during one of his tutoring sessions. How heâd tease you about your grades or interests, and learn more about them anyway. How heâd message you throughout the day about random endeavors. How heâd always be there. How with just a call of his name, he wouldâve crossed the continents for you. His eyes. His lips. His face. His painfully handsome face.
You remember him in all parts of your lifeâand not a single moment youâve spared has gone without him. You remember how he held your hand when youâd broken your arm, and the way heâd lifted you into the air and embraced you when you were accepted into the same college as him. You remember how heâd pet your hair as you complained about him going too far for the DAA, promising heâd visit often. And he did. He always kept his promises.
Your body moves on its own, as if this was how it was always meant to be. The door slowly creaks open.
ââŚWeâre a mess.â
A faint, tired smile is all you can give him. Still, when he sees you, the world seems to stop for just the two of you, and it takes him a moment to fully register that youâre really there. That youâre not just a figment of his imagination, and he hasnât truly lost you forever as heâd feared. âThis doesnât mean youâre completely out of the woods. Iâm still mad.â
âYou should be,â he whispers out, nearly breathless.
Hesitantly, you step towards him. He reaches his arm out, brows furrowed cautiously like heâs not sure if heâs allowed to even blink right now. The tips of his fingers twitch towards you. You raise a brow, and he swallows the lump in his throat, retracting back until you nod.Â
Realizing you donât have shoes, you step onto the fronts of his shoes one foot at a time, taking his hand until youâre flush against him and heâs already engulfing you into a crushing embrace. His arms wrap around you, strong and warm. He smells good. Though you canât confidently say the same for yourself given the state youâre in, he drops his chin into the crook of your neck and inhales deeply, like a man starved.
âNote to self,â you mumble. âDonât propose to any handsome guy you see.â
Caleb laughs, airy this time, and you feel it against your collarbone. âI thought you were going to leave your husband out here to die in the cold.â
âI should divorce you. Weâre not even married yet.â
He grins, lopsided. âYou should.â
âI wonât.â
âI know.
You bury your face into his chest, fingers digging into the fabric on his back. âI donât want a version of my life without you, Caleb. As annoying as you are.â
He pulls away for a brief moment and places a kiss on your cheek, his own dusting red. Flowers feel like theyâre blooming on the spot he pecked, but somehow, it feels natural. Youâve always been close to him physically throughout your upbringing, even if it never involved lipsâthat was new territory. You cross your arms, relying on his hands around your waist to keep you upright. âTell me more.â
âYou nag too much.â
He kisses your nose. âHm?â
âYouâre emotionally repressed.â
âOuch.â He kisses your temple.
âYouâre too good at things you donât try at.â
Your jawline.
âYouâre unstable. Youâre too protective. Youâre stupid.â
âI love you,â he says, pressing his forehead against yours. His lips hover above your own, just centimeters away.
Your lashes flutter against his. âThen prove it to me.â
âI will,â he whispers, just as his mouth slots against yours, and a warmth blooms throughout your chest. You melt into him, like you always have and you always will. âIâll prove it to you for the rest of my life.â