Jan 1
anyways ive been feeling agitated non stop lately... which is stupid because i should be feeling ok. im on a trip with the family.
#which look ik i have a sort of... lets just say not so savory view of my parents (its rlly more complicated tbh) but sometimes i do enjoy#being around them#especially my mom's side of the extended familu#*family#its complicated...#anyways im not agutated because of them#its more of a personal thing im trying to work out#im sort of reflecting on myself and my values and principles and wondering if im doing this whole human morality thing right#yaknow#partly ocd related but mostly legitimate just#questioning everything#i cant really think straight about anything thou because my stupid neurotic brain is panicking over everything#i wish it was easy to think clearly#anyway#ryant over#ive been doomscrolling (on bad internet) all day trying to avoid it but#i should probably do some deep reflection on myself#once ive fully calmed down#my head tends to really play up the dramatics when it comes to trying to criticize myself... not helpful!#i cant think clearly i need 2 breathe#ryanmbles#ryants#my mind tends to really pick... extremes
