#bendrian

[getyoursorryasstomine]

Okay, so I had a realization/thought a while back, forgot it, and now I remember it, but Ben/Adrian are literally SO Dan/Blair coded (Queen B/Golden Boy, the boy has an obsession connection with the golden girl (Amy/Serena) but they end up falling in love with the 'mean girl' (Adrian/Blair) and are frankly way more compatible with them, yet both ships get thrown in the trash for yet another run with the golden girl (at least Ben and Amy break up again for good. D*rena gets MARRIED smh.)

[mewiet]

In the silence of his bedroom, Ben heard the key in the front door and a few minutes later he heard the click of Adrian's heels on the kitchen floor. He crawled out of bed and padded down the dark hallway. At the end he peered around, squinting at first from the light. His eyes adjusted enough that he could make out Adrian standing at the table, frantically looking through the mail he'd carried in when he got home.

Ignorant of his presence, Adrian slapped the mail back on the table and melted into one of the chairs. She folded her arms atop the table and dropped her face into them.

Ben slunk back into the shadows of the hallway. He'd only been gone minutes, but his covers were cold when he finally climbed back into them. Although he shut his eyes, he wasn't asleep. He counted the seconds in his head and finally fell asleep without Adrian ever joining him on the other side of the mattress.

[blackstreak1]

WAKING UP FROM THE DARKNESS

GRAM'S DINER October 11, 2013 11:00 PM Back Entrance near the dumpster. Ben waits for the young man who works as the waiter, to dump the bread so he can get to it before anyone else.

Jeremiah: (dumps the trash and waits like his grandmother told him, then see's the young man who was a regular customer head towards it) Hey, you know if you were that hungry we do have a half off special going.

Ben: (stops and is shocked to see the waiter there) Hi, I was just.....

Jeremiah: Just going to go through our trash to steal our old food.

Ben: (is in shock and becomes defensive) Look, I didn't mean to do anything wrong. You were throwing it away I wasn't stealing or anything, and it's not like you were going to use it again.

Jeremiah: Hey, I wasn't trying to get you in trouble. The only thing I have against you is you're a lousy tipper.

Ben: So why are you here.

Jeremiah: My grandma told me she wanted to talk to you.

Ben: Your grandmother?... Why does she want to talk to me?

Jeremiah: You'd have to talk to her about that, and you'd better come on. Grandma doesn't like to be kept waiting. (gets up and opens the door to the back for Ben to enter)

Ben: (looks hesitantly at Jeremiah, but the wind blows and in the Nevada dessert night time is dangerously cold in October, so he carefully walked into the backdoor)

Jeremiah: Hey GRANDMA!!!!!

Gram Johnson: Jeremiah what did I tell you about yelling in my kitchen.

Jeremiah: Sorry Grandma, but I got the cheap tipper for you. Introduce yourself cheap tipper. (referring to Ben)

Ben: Hi, I'm Ben.

Gram: Nice to meet you Ben, my name is Hattie Christine Johnson, but most people call me Gram. The loud mouth know it all is my grandson Jeremiah Johnson.

Jeremiah: You can just call me Jerry, or 3J. only Grandma calls me Jeremiah.

Gram: I had you christened Jeremiah Joshua Johnson, and that is what I am going to call you.

Jeremiah: I know Grandma, I know.

Ben: Well you can just call me Ben.

Jeremiah: Is that it Ben.

Gram: If this young man doesn't want to tell us the rest of his name he has that right.

Jeremiah: Yeah, but why are you hiding something, I mean he could be wanted by the law or something Grandma you never know.

Ben: It's alright my name is Ben...Helen. It's nice to meet you. Can I ask why you needed to see me. If you want me to stay out of your trash I will.

[blackstreak1]

NO ANSWER

What would have happened to Ricky, Amy, Adrian, and John without Ben?

I have asked it one hundred times.  NO ANSWER!!!  Yet I always read all of these comments about how stupid he is, how controlling he was, how bad he was.  Now stupid I agree, but how was he controlling?

He NEVER TRIED TO FORCE AMY TO KEEP THE BABY.  He told Amy that he wanted her to keep the baby.  WAS THAT BAD.  Grace was more pushy, and meaner to Amy using her religion to force Amy to keep it.  Adrian was more meaner, and demanding at wanting her to abort it.  Ricky was conniving the life of his unborn son to get Grace to have sex with him, and he didn't even admit he was the father.  But even if he would have supported her killing it.  Ricky's fanatics would have simply said if he loved her he wouldn't want her to keep it.  You know you would have. 

But, what I can't get is how Ricky got all the sympathy for being molested, something he has had years to deal with.  But Ben went through hell for John, and that wasn't his son, and he had to give him up before he was born.  To losing his daughter before he was born, to losing Adrian, and not one of them sympathized for him.  Some actually applauded it.  He never even got  time to deal with any of it.  I find it amazing how cruel they are to his character when the very DEMON, VILLAIN, or MONSTER they claim him to be, is WHAT THEY ARE.  

I just wish they admit that he is treated ill because of his looks alone.  The proof in that is how they want Ricky to inherit all of his qualities.  As well as his family business, his family money, and even his father.  I think they even want to raise his mom and daughter from the dead to give them to Ricky.  The worst part Ricky, Amy, Adrian, and John.  NEVER DID ONE GOD DAMNED THING USEFUL FOR HIM AT ALL IN THE 5 YEARS THIS SHOW WAS ON!!!!!  When Ben is partly responsible for almost every good thing they had.  Ricky never did anything good for anyone accept Grace.  To be honest all of these characters would have been better off if they had never met Ricky. 

[mewiet]

"But…how?"

"I beat the cancer. It beat my hair, but I beat it in the end."

Adrian brushed her thumb in a circle around his eyes, the curves of his ears, down his jawline, and ran her fingers over the spiky stubble of his army-looking hairstyle. She found herself missing the heat of his thick black waves. "No," she wheezed, something between a laugh and a sob. "How did you find me? Here? Today? Now."

Antonio Vasquez reached into the pocket of his slacks and pulled out a folded piece of paper. When he opened it to its full length, the fold lines were soft and deep. He turned it over and showed it to Adrian. "Mi tía saw the Valedictorian announcement in the local paper and sent me an e-mail. She knew I'd been trying to find you online, but I guess you're not really into social media."

Adrian shook her head, unable to stop the flow of tears.

"Anyway, when I got the e-mail I looked up the article on the newpaper's website and when I read the ceremony date I immediately booked a flight down here." He shook his head, laughing. "I was sure I was going to lose you on your way out of here and then you ducked into the hall and I followed."

"I can't believe you're here."

Antonio rubbed his fingers over the watery black ribbons on Adrian's cheeks. "Neither can I."

And just like that, she was fourteen again. Every feeling she'd ever had about Antonio slammed into her chest like a detonating skyscraper and she pulled his face towards hers, their lips barely brushing before she remembered Ben and turned her head; Antonio's kiss landed on her right cheek. She drew her arms around his neck and held him against her body, crying softly when he slipped his arms around her in return.

[mewiet]

"Lauren said you'd be here. Something about a meeting with your coach."

"Oh, yeah. He just wanted to give me a personal congratulations on getting into JHU and naturally it turned into a pregame pep talk, if you know what I mean." Jason chuckled.

Grace lifted her arm and offered up a small gold envelope. "Just a little congrats card. I thought the envelope was fitting because of the school colors and everything."

Jason gingerly accepted the card. "Thank you."

Grace nodded. "Anyway, lunch is nearly over and I'm sure you're busy—"

"No." Jason touched his hand Grace's shoulder as she tried to turn away. "Really, thank you."

"You're welcome. I'm just sorry you didn't get into one of your Top Two."

Jason shrugged. "Disappointing, but not surprising." He rubbed his thumb over the close of the envelope. "What about you? What are your top picks?"

Grace looked at her feet. "I don't know. I don't even know if I'm cut out to be a doctor anymore."

[youaremorethanfiction]

Two sides of the same coin. 

[blackstreak1]

PREVIEW: REMEMBERING REGRET'S

July 16, 2010 Boykewich Manor Bedroom of Ben Boykewich

(Ben & Adrian lay in bed fully clothed on top of covers spooning and making out. Adrian feels comfortable like this, she had never felt a guy who just wanted to hold her before, and Ben in her opinion is very good at it.)

Adrian: So what do you think we're going to have, boy or girl?

Ben: I don't know, but I'm hoping for a girl. What about you? What do you want it to be?

Adrian: I want a boy, I would hate to have a girl honestly.

Ben: Adrian, why would you hate to have a girl?

Adrian: Because I would be her mother, and I really wouldn't know how to deal with her. I mean I would love her no matter what, but at the same time I really wouldn't know how to raise her properly considering how I am, and how I was raised. I also wouldn't want her to pick up any of my bad habits. I mean I'm second generation teenage pregnancy, I'm afraid my daughter would follow in my footsteps because I wouldn't know how to guide her away from them. My mom tried, and look how I turned out.

Ben: I think your mom did a pretty good job if you ask me.

Adrian: Ben let's not kid ourselves. "I'm the school slut", and I got pregnant by you in a night of revenge sex, to get even with Amy and Ricky. That doesn't give my baby a very good chance of turning out normal. My mom may have gotten pregnant with me when she was a teenager, but at least she had only been with my dad, and they were in love, and she did it only to try and keep him. I know we care about one another, but we're not in love. How can I half expect my child not to make bad decisions.

Ben: Because this is not just your baby Adrian, this is our baby (takes her hand and looks deeply at her). Look I know that neither of us expected to be here right now in this situation with the other, but we are here together with the other. I may not have planned for all of this to happen, but I meant it when I said I'm here for you, and we will make the best of this. Whatever this is, I'm in it from here on out. I'm not your dad. I don't plan on going to any college or university without you and the baby. No matter what school you go too, the baby and I are going too. I also don't plan on getting married and starting a family without you and our child being a part of that family. We might not be madly in love with each other, but I do really care about you. You may not have had a normal upbringing, and your reputation isn't shiny, but neither is mine. We aren't your parents, and I don't think we will make the same mistakes they did. I'm sure we will make mistakes many mistakes, but we'll learn from them like they did, hopefully it won't take us as long.

Adrian: But, Ben how can you think that we would make good parents, considering how we've acted in making our baby. I mean sure we have financial stability, but what about everything else. How can you have so much faith, that we can do this together.

Ben: Because, I look at Ricky and Amy. Remember how they acted when they found out they were having John. They weren't exactly a mother and father of the year combination.

Adrian: No, no they were not.

Ben: Now look at them, neither is like who they used to be. John couldn't have asked for a better set of parents. In my opinion I think we are a few steps above them in our situation, then they were when they were in theirs. We didn't go down the same road, as they did. Because we learned from them. I learned from Ricky that I want to be there for you, and our child boy or girl. There is nothing in this world more important to me, than you and our child. You were important to me long before I slept with you,  and got you pregnant.

Adrian: But what about Amy, don't you still love her.

Ben: I love Amy, I will probably always have a special love for her in my heart, but she is with Ricky, and I'm with you. We're not in love with one another, but I do think we can fall in love with each other. Even if we can't I will always be your friend. But regardless of my feelings for Amy, or my feelings for you. I do love our child (kisses her stomach which now has a small bulge), and I'm planning on being there for her or him no matter what happens between us.

Adrian: (Begins to shed tears from her hormones and what he said) You know Ben, maybe our child will turn out differently from me.

Ben: What changed your mind?

Adrian: You, like always.

Ben: How?

Adrian: Because I didn't have my dad in my life growing up. And I know with you as their father, our baby will turn out the best it can be despite my mistakes.

Ben: Hey, neither of us are perfect. But, that is why we have each other. That way we can be there to support the other no matter the situation.

Adrian: (kisses him intently) Are you sure you don't want to have sex with me, because if you keep talking like this, and holding me like this, I'm going to rape you.

Ben: Sorry I'm not that easy.

Adrian: Sorry, Ben you can only say that to a girl who didn't take your virginity in the backseat of you car.

Ben: Okay, I'm not always that easy. (he jokes as Adrian pulls him into another make out session).