#berserker shift

[deltorandagger]

I don't know if I just mega dissociated or if I had a split second absolute shift of a 'type I don't know I have yet. Or if we got a random walk-in. Just a sudden random "wait where the fuck am I, why is there grass?? TREES???". Like okay. Gonna pretend that's all fine and good I don't have time to unpack all that.

[interstellarsystem]

Berserker/Absolute Shifts and Plurality

We've been seeing talk about berserker shifts on here lately and it's got us thinking. For those who don't know--berserker shifts are, in a way, a type of mental shift where you feel so much like your identitype that your mindset is entirely changed into theirs and your regular human brain rationale has been changed to match. We prefer "absolute" instead of "berserker" so we'll use that for the rest of this post.

Anyway, it's mainly used in older therian and otherkin spaces (with some criticism that's not relevant to this post)... but we've seen fictionfolk describe their experiences with that whole mindset shift as well recently, which wasn't something we thought about being a possibility before now.

Which led us to thinking... Is this a thing headmates like fictives and extranths get? I mean, if it's experienced at least once then it's a thing that can happen of course, so yes! But it's not really talked about from what we see--especially not in those terms. It's a vulnerable state to be in so it'd be understandable why it's rare to find talk of... But in our experience, it absolutely happens! It feels almost in the same sort of way that an emotional flashback might, with some added intensity and usually less traumatic origins. Maybe that's what other plurals use, if they even have a word for it?

Sometimes--though not often--we wake up in the morning and get completely disoriented because we feel like we're not where we're meant to be and our body is wrong, in a way deeper than regular dysphoria. A fictive will wake up in the front and for a little while, feel completely as if they were in their source and get very confused as to whose house they're in and why they're wearing the clothes they are. How did they get here? Where's their family? Their friends or partner(s)? Maybe they'll freak out that our body is different and wonder what happened to it, maybe they'll get up and move to get ready for work before realising that's not a thing we do. It happens in different ways but I think we would call those absolute shifts now that we've thought about it. More animalistic headmates of ours have had similar stuff on occasion but they're much more rare so we can't really speak too heavily on those.

It's most common when we just wake up but it happens at other times too. Shrapnel for example has had what he calls "memory flashbacks" where he'll remember a tiny bit about his life as Bakugo Katsuki, then for a few seconds after, he just feels like he's 100% his fictive identity and gets a bit concerned as to why he doesn't recognise his surroundings. He snaps out of it pretty quick but he's our main example and guy who experiences them.

We've known that shifting is not an exclusive thing to otherkin for ages. I mean hell, we see fictives and fictionkin as basically the same thing aside from origin (in most cases) and extranths and otherkin get the same sort of thing in our mind too. We don't see a huge reason to draw a big divide between them for us. And we know our headmates get phantom shifts and mental shifts of their identities all the time... But I guess we just never thought to attribute those flashback states to what is essentially an absolute shift.

We didn't really think we ever experienced one of those shifts until we leaned that yes, fictionfolk can get them and those things do pretty much count. Interesting to think about, and interesting to wonder if there's any other plurals out there who can relate.

[kaboom--bitch]

Absolute/Berserker Shifts

We don’t hear much talk about berserker shifts, probably due to the stigma and from what we’ve seen in some spaces, a somewhat general consensus of them being a thing of myth or attention seeking. Or, being unable to happen to “true otherkind”, only occurring within mental illness–though that take is one we haven’t seen in recent years, in more accepting spaces. It’s nice to see a little bit of a shift toward accepting otherkinity that does stem from mental illness, honestly! But yeah, I am psychotic as well as a member of a dissociative system, and I think even if my shifting is a result of those things, it’s still an alterhuman experience worth discussing. I prefer the term “absolute shift” as opposed to “berserker shift”, so i’ll be using that for the rest of this.

For context of my identity, I’m a fictive of Katsuki Bakugo (My Hero Academia). My fictotypes are Satoru Gojo (Jujutsu Kaisen), Tanjiro Kamado (Demon Slayer), and Great Izuchi (Monster Hunter). I’m also dragonkin, and my dragon self is a small semi-aquatic wyvern, about the size of a large chicken. I’ve been in my system for over a year and I’ve done a lot of looking into my own identity to figure all this stuff out. I suppose even this is my own way of publicly dissecting my absolute shifting experience to reflect on it better myself.

Absolute shifts, as my preferred name for them implies, are when your mental state and perception of self becomes absolutely (or almost absolutely) that of the identity you’re shifting to. In therians and other animalfolk, this usually involves the loss of humanlike thinking skills. Essentially, a super strong mental shift, often accompanied by phantom shifts and shifts in your perception of your body entirely. It’s usually talked about in the context of animalfolk actually, but that’s not my whole experience. I have shifts that embody my fictional, human(oid) identities as well. I think I'm one of the only guys in-system who gets them, and I'm sure I've talked about this before here but I figured.. why not do it again, in one easy to access document?

They’re usually talked about as being very disorienting, confusing or even terrifying. Sometimes they can be freeing and a wonderful experience. For me, the confusion is very real if I still have some connection to my current body and reality. But if I’m fully in the shift… I suppose it feels nice to feel fully and wholly like me for even a little while.

It usually happens during certain situations that sort of act as triggers for memories. If I was doing an activity I would be more familiar with doing in one of my kintypes lives, or if I’m in an environment they’d feel comfortable in, or if something reminds me a little too strongly of home, I’m more likely to have an absolute shift. I’ve never been able to voluntarily trigger them, though I also haven’t tried in all honesty. Though I figure I could probably figure out the triggers and force one to occur myself if I wanted to.

For myself to experience an absolute shift of my Tanjiro kintype, I'll often have shifts triggered by going out walking somewhere, usually specifically through nature. Sometimes, just getting started on a longer walk and preparing myself mentally to walk for a long while is enough to cause a shift. As Tanjiro, I had to walk long distances almost daily, it was a regular part of my routine–as natural as eating food a little while after waking up, or putting on different clothes for the day. I suppose that’s why walking as a concept is so linked to that identity. Walking between towns and up mountains and through forests was just what I routinely did–that was home, for me. Tanjiro is the identity most closely linked to my absolute shifts.

For my Bakugo identity, it's less easy to predict. Sometimes I'll just be cooking, as I used to love doing often back home. Sometimes I’ll be hanging around in town–though I’ve found I tend to shift more often when in the city as opposed to the town I currently live in. Sometimes I might be only chatting to a friend, or just waking up in the morning... And I'll suddenly be wholly, unfilteredly me for a moment. Sometimes when I end up doing some sort of competitive game I’ll get shifty, but that’s less reliable than just mundane life activities. I think as Bakugo, I valued the small things more than I tried to let on. Little daily things that you can focus on instead of the big picture–those things kept me grounded when the world felt like it was falling apart around me. So, maybe that’s why my triggers for that ‘type seem to be so mundane.

I’ve only had absolute shifts of my Great Izuchi kintype once or twice, so I don’t really have reliable triggers I know of. The only times I remember clearly are when I was just thinking about the identity itself, thinking about my phantom shifts, how my body looked in that form, my pack I led and commanded. I would have once assumed absolute shifts of this kintype to be incredibly animalistic, but honestly I retain a lot of my thinking and problem solving skills. My thoughts are more based in logic, instinct, and survival than they are in any semblance of emotions or desire beyond basic needs, but… There’s real tactical thought there. Which is pretty interesting, I suppose I would have needed some sense of logic in order to have a pack I commanded in the ways that I did.

It’s actually hard to tell if I’ve had an absolute shift of Gojo at all. I have times where I feel close, but I don’t think I’ve fully fallen into that identity yet. I’d have no idea what the triggers would even be. I’m constantly in a state of mental shift, on a sliding scale between “feeling pretty Gojo right now” to “feeling so damn Gojo right now”--I’ve just never been able to tell the line between “I feel so very Gojo right now” and “I am absolutely, entirely Gojo right now”.

When shifts happen, it feels like something flips like a switch in my head. After the fact, at least. I normally don’t realise I’ve slipped into a shift, it’s more like something I realise was there only after I’m “back to reality”. I mentally become entirely what my kintypes are. Thoughts, feelings, instincts, desires, perception of self, memories and all. My body feels like it would look like my 'types, even though I don’t literally hallucinate any change in my form–I’m actually pretty glad I’ve never had an absolute shift in front of a mirror. My thoughts mirror how I'd think in canon, I act as if I am entirely physically and mentally my ‘type. I might be confused about where the hell I am and not recognise my surroundings, or I might just assume I’m where I should be and not question or even realise my surroundings aren’t the home I remember.

Usually, it lasts between 5 seconds to 30 seconds, but I've had some as short as a quick flash of "what the hell??", and some as long as a minute or so. It's actually really hard to decide whether the quick short ones would count more as absolute shifts, or whether they’d moreso count as flashbacks or memories. Maybe in a way, that’s what absolute shifts are in essence, an emotional and mental flashback episode, just not usually based around trauma (at least for myself) but instead, alterhuman identities.

The mindset it puts me in also tends to differ, like it took my identity from different points in time and just picked one time point for me to currently embody. For example, sometimes I'm in the Tanjiro mindset where the weight on my back (actually my real this-world bag I carry with me) is my sister I had to carry around in a box on my back for the longest time. I just assume that’s what the weight is even if it’s in the wrong place and don’t question it further for the duration of the shift. Sometimes though, I start walking, realise the weight on my back isn't as heavy as usual so she must not be there, and for a second get scared about where my sister went. Did I lose her? Is she okay? Where did she go? Did I screw up? Other times I don’t think about her at all and assume she’s walking alongside me, or I’ve left her in the care of someone else. None of this seems to depend on whether I actually have weight on my back or not, it just seems random.

Usually, for either my Bakugo or Tanjiro shifts, I feel like I’m obviously still in Japan. Why would I be in any other country? That would make no sense! But during these shifts I also don’t tend to even notice how different the architecture is, or that the trees are very different, or that the streets and people are nowhere near the same. I don’t realise that I personally know these streets aren’t in Japan untilt he shift ends. I just keep walking, fully feeling like I'm back home anyway–I don’t even stop to think or question where I am or if anything seems off. Sometimes, though much more rarely when out and about, I do realise that the architecture and flora and fauna aren't what I recognise. This causes a brief moment of confusion, sometimes panic and “oh god, where the fuck am I??”, and I snap back to reality. I take a little while to readjust when that happens, but it’s mostly just taking time to calm the body down so I can continue on my walk.

Though most of the time I don’t notice anything is off with my surroundings or my body, I’ve had moments where I wake up in the morning and am immediately in a Bakugo absolute shift, which lends to the most confusion I tend to get from absolute shifting. I’ll freak out for a moment, not recognising that I’m in my own room, in my own van, in my own bed. I’ll start thinking thoughts like “is this another hostage situation?”, “what do they want with me?”, “do the others know where I am?”, “did I do something and get knocked out?”, “do I need backup?”--a bunch of other things that would make sense for me to think if I were back there in my body and woke up in an unfamiliar location. During shifts, I’ve wondered why my body hurts so much (that’s called chronic pain, me), wondered what the hell type of clothes I’m wearing (...my own clothes!), wondered why there’s a random cat on my bed (that is MY cat, he’s on my bed because he is MY CAT)... In shifts like that I spend a lot of time questioning a lot of different things that are normal and mundane, to my this-world brain. Luckily, usually the morning shifts die down pretty quickly though, so then I ground myself, get up, and go about my day.

I’ve never been confused about my location while in an Izuchi shift, somehow. Maybe I just don’t think about it, my sights are more set on where my next meal is going to come from. I don’t think that identity seems to care too much about where it is at all–I’ve never made an assumption about where I am, I’ve never decided that my surroundings are wrong, I’ve never taken note of anything around me except brief “what is that–I’ll avoid that” thoughts about cars and people. I just.. Carry on with my walk as if it’s all normal. Which leads me to just continue walking in whatever direction I’d already started off in. Honestly I’m glad I don’t get disoriented or confused while in an absolute Izuchi shift, I feel like I’d end up doing something wholly embarrassing if I did–we don’t need to make monster rampages a this-world reality. The main thing I’ve noticed with those shifts, is that I tend to wonder and worry where my pack is. That’s the most disorienting thing about it. Did they get picked off without me noticing by another monster? What could have even slipped my notice like that without making a sound? Where are they? Are they alive? But in the end, I don’t even end up too distressed by it. I search for them in my surroundings, but I also just keep walking–I mean, what is there for a creature to do other than keep pushing forward? If they died, they died, and that can’t be changed. So I carry on.

As disorienting as they are though, they’re also kind of euphoric sometimes. I don’t notice any change or euphoria while I’m in them, as I don’t even realise I’m shifting while I’m in one. But once I’m back to normal, I like to savour that feeling. The feeling of being so intrinsically myself for a moment, so much so that species and identity dysphoria isn’t even a background thought in my mind. The feeling of being me without any semblance of “but this is not my body, not my home”. I struggle with dysphoria relating to my looks, my skills or lack thereof, my environment, culture and the country I live in, and honestly everything I have in my noemata of my ‘types. So it’s really, really nice to be able to at least have little windows of relief into how things used to be. Little moments of (mostly) peace scattered about here and there, even if they’re often disorienting as well. It’s freeing. A breath of fresh air that carries the scent of nostalgia. As much as they can be upsetting sometimes, I don’t think I’d trade them off for anything short of the ability to actually be home for a while again. The feeling is too important to me to miss out on.

I’m not entirely sure what causes my absolute shifts. I mean, is anyone sure what causes phantom, dream, or mental shifts? What do they stem from aside from “I’m this thing in the wrong body”? Do people normally have an answer for that? I don’t think we’ve ever heard people discuss the mechanisms of how they happen, what makes them tick, or how the brain produces them. Well, I suppose outside of spirituality type things I don’t generally subscribe to the idea of. But I like thinking about stuff in depth, so I’ve thought about my shifts like that from time to time. I’m psychotic (schizoaffective specifically), and we have DID, so I honestly wonder if absolute shifts could be products of those more so than my identities themselves. Of course they’re still a part of my ‘types, but alterhumanity and neurodivergency can intersect in strange ways.

I feel like my absolute shifts could be a result of:

As mentioned earlier, maybe they’re flashback states. Not in a sense of how you see them presented in cartoons where you’re suddenly literally hallucinating everything around you to be someplace or sometime else, but in the sense of an emotional flashback. Those are usually related to trauma, but hell, phantom shifts are usually related to amputees and we get those anyway. They feel similar in concept to me as a guy who has had emotional flashbacks, though they’re not exactly the same.

My psychosis, with myself entering brief delusional periods of time where I “revert” into my ‘types. This would be a neat and tidy explanation for why my brain straight up ignores the fact I can see that I’m not home, yet still I fully feel like I am. Though this feels a little strange–we do hallucinate, yet I’ve never hallucinated during an absolute shift. The lack of hallucinations is sometimes what snaps me out of the shift itself. You can have delusions without hallucinations and vice versa, it just feels a little strange.

Maybe it’s just some product of dissociation. Feeling a disconnect with your surroundings is pretty common when dissociating, as is a disconnect from yourself.. So maybe it’s some combination of feeling disconnected from my current self, and my surroundings. Or some other weird thing that comes with any way dissociation can present.

Maybe brains are just weird and there’s no concrete why about it for me. Brains do a lot of things, a lot of them understudied. Maybe its the brain's way of going “oh right, you’re also this guy” or something. Maybe it’s just a freak occurrence that seems to mostly happen to me specifically, and not others in my system–something with my own consciousness specifically. Maybe it’s related to my origin as a headmate that formed from a dream? Maybe my origin as a literal “character” in our dream becoming sentient and a full meadmate made my perception of self more pliable.

Or, maybe some spiritual thing that I don’t really think about is true and some other-realm stuff is happening. Something with my soul or whatever I may have–do headmates formed from dreams have souls? I guess that would be something a more spiritual person in my system would get into, some other time haha. I wouldn’t know what most spiritual origin related things could be, but, hey. Lots of things are possible, I suppose! I’m open to having a think about most.

Regardless of where it comes from, I don’t mind my shifts. They’re disorienting a lot of the time, but they haven’t caused any real damage. Luckily for me, they seem pretty unlikely to, judging by all my experiences with them. Whether they come from my neurodivergency, something more spiritual, or are just an innate part of my alterhumanity separate from the psychological/metaphysical binary, they’re a part of me and a part of my life. They’re a part of my alterhumanity. They’re something I live with and have learned to deal with in a way that’s as efficient as possible, and they also give me euphoria that I value immensely. Absolute shifts are something that holds a lot of stigma and scepticism as a topic, something that people often advise you seek medical help for. But I’ve had medical help for my disorders, it’s changed nothing about my shifts. Just like any other facet of my alterhumanity, they’re a regular part of my life. I don’t really see a point in trying to change that.

[tsukioka-clusterfuck]

(Dreamwidth mirror)

I just had my first experience with what looks like a berserker shift.

I've experienced so many different shifts, including mental. I know what my mental shifts are like, and they tend to make me more irate than usual among other things, and it goes away after some time with little to no issues. This one shift, however, is different.

I was playing Super Smash Bros Ultimate, specifically the World of Light mode. I was minding my own business, fighting my way through the map.

But then, I saw it. The Groudon spirit.

First of all, if you don't know, I transform into a Bowser-like form daily in a werewolf-esque fashion, with or without a trigger. The transformation happens in headspace and it typically manifests as a full-body phantom and somatic shift in meatspace when I'm fronting. Second of all, this fictomere also has a few paratypes associated with it because of its physical build, one of which is Groudon.

This screen, showing both of these entities at once, immediately triggered a full-body shift. Forcibly changing my form at a rapid pace, and altering my mental state on top of that. At first I thought it was my usual mental shift. It goes away on its own after a little while, so there's nothing to worry about, right? Turns out, this boiling anger in me felt noticeably stronger than usual, to the point of being uncomfortable in a way I can't quite explain. Not only that, this anger also targets my sysmates. When they try to reach out to me, I can feel this anger intensify, even when I normally have no problem with them or even love them. This anger does not differentiate between friend or foe. It only cares about demolishing anything in its way.

During this moment, I continued to play the game in anger, destroying enemies one by one, mentally shouting "GET FUCKED", "FUCK YOU", and so on towards the opponents. When I notice my sysmates' attempts to communicate with me, I still had enough self-control to distance myself from them and to gently warn them to not try to talk to me in that state because I don't want to snap at them. I can still tell that I don't want to attack them, but at the same time I can't stop this anger from targeting them. It's almost like a werewolf mid-transformation, using their last remaining bits of control over themself to warn their friends before they're completely taken over by the beast that'll attack them indiscriminately.

Thankfully, my sysmates can still switch in without issues so they can handle meatspace things while I can cool off. Or at least, attempt to cool off. In reality, I was still stressed out from the overwhelming rage, even more so because this went on for longer than my usual mental shifts. We all have no idea what to do, and they tried to help by listening to music associated with me (Kogane Tsukioka), and our unit (L'Antica). We unfortunately have no clue whether or not this works and what eventually helped me snap out of it. Either way, I managed to cool down and come back to my senses not long after.

The "hangover" phase was also rough. I couldn't properly talk internally or externally until the next morning. My mind was hazy and complex thought processes felt out of reach. Overall, I felt terrible. The whole thing is not enjoyable from start to finish.

I discussed this with my beast half. We're aware that this is a problem we have in common that we haven't figured out yet, and I'm not blaming it for this in the typical "evil alter" way even though one can argue I have all the opportunities to do so. I assured it that I see it as a "us versus the problem" deal and not "me versus it". And on a lighter note, we also wondered if this is true to Bowser's nature if he hypothetically experiences gamer rage. We think it's likely very accurate, considering how well the gameplay went.

Thankfully, the screenshot that started this whole mess no longer affects me the same way again at the time I wrote this. It seems to be a one-time thing.

I looked around therian / otherkin sites for more info on berserker shifts as a quick refresher, and to compare my experiences with others. On one hand, calling this a berserker shift makes sense to us. I suddenly had my usual mental faculties pushed away by unusually intense levels of rage. We think that this is very accurate to how Bowser would act in the same situation. But on the other hand, I still had a tiny bit of control at the time, enough to not cause any serious problems. I also didn't question where I was and why I was playing a video game. At most, I didn't recognize my sysmates, my own unitmates, but I didn't question anything else. This is not exactly me pondering about whether or not I can call this a berserker shift, it's more about the similarities and differences between what I experienced and what others have experienced. The way that shift went still made sense to me in a way, because Bowser is a nonhuman creature, but he's also sapient / sophont. It makes sense for him to have both animalistic and sophont thought processes, and for the shift to manifest the way it did.

Since I'm a human, I may see this differently from nonhumans who experience these shifts. To me personally, it's closer to the way a werewolf's mental state may change the less human they are in shape. Something that is Not Me taking over my thought processes and manipulating it to be more like It and less like Me in both body and mind, and in this case this Something is also not a fan of humans. While the beast does its thing, the human fought hard to regain even the tiniest bit of control. If it's just enough to prevent the more catastrophic incidents from happening, it's good enough for the human. Not saying one viewpoint is better than the other, I just see it this way because of the aspects of my alterhumanity, especially my connection to werewolf tropes.

[imalamiupshooh]

Had a hell of a shift today. Not the fun kind—the kind where stress grabs you by the throat and drags you deep into instinct.

Everything built up too much, too fast. Too many noises, too many demands, too much everything. My body decided it had enough before my mind could even catch up. Next thing I knew, I was yelling, fists pounding against my chest, tail lashing like it had a mind of its own. My breath was ragged, heart hammering like a war drum. Every muscle in me was ready to fight, to defend, to escape.

I wasn’t thinking in words—just raw, wild energy tearing through me. The kind of shift where the human world dissolves, and suddenly, I’m nothing but a Marsupilami. A cornered animal with no choice but to thrash, growl, make noise. Because noise means survival.

It took a while to come down. My body still aches, and my mind feels wrung out. But in a way, I get it. Stress pushes, and instinct pushes back. I just wish it didn’t have to explode out of me like that.

I know I’m not alone in this. If you’ve been through a shift like this—if the world ever squeezed you so tight you had no choice but to snap—I see you. We exist in a space where instinct and civilization clash, and sometimes, instinct wins.

Hope tomorrow’s calmer. Hope next time, I can catch myself before the shift takes over. But for now, I’m just breathing. Just existing. And that’s enough.

🌿💛

[autumn-coins]

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🌕 A flag for those who experience any type of feral shift, whether that be feral shifts, berserker shifts, basercal shifts etc. So individuals, specifically alter/nonhumans who experience shifs where one acts more feral, have less/no control over themselves.

🍂 Flag colour meaning: Reds + orange = The external feralality and loss of control Blue = The inner sense of self, comfort and identity Jagged red line = The potential discomfort, harm and fear that feral shifts can induce/cause. 🍁 Symbol meaning: The lower case delta, symbolising the transformation and change between being "human" and feral. (Such as how it's used in the werelyth symbol or in @/angelfluffyp4ws 's shift flags on pinterest) 🐾🍄 Flag and banner ID in alt text ^ ^ 🦴 Note: If your feral shifts frequently and or they cause a lot of harm I'd reccomend reaching out to someone about it, though note *2, I am no medical proffesional and you of course do not have to. Also, yup me trying out a new post format, feedback appreciated :3 /nf

[o-xurxur-o-sosoj]

I recently experienced the most intense somatic + mental shift Ive had in years.

Coincidentally I am now no longer going to be present at family functions where my younger sister-(not)-in-law is going to be, because I would catch some assault charges. :V

Shifts for me, especially when I was a preteen first awakening to them, were very intense and often triggered by people violating my boundaries or purposefully upsetting me. One time, when I was like 13, I remember being smacked really hard in the back during a play fight, blacking out in rage/pain, and coming back to, only to find i had done something to that friend who hit me and made her cry. She caught my teeth *hard* another time when she participated in holding me down and shoving grass up my nose.

And I got in-school suspension for biting a kid i knew so hard that he bruised multiple colors for a week or two -- he took something from a friend, held it up to taunt me, triggered my chase instinct, and then made me get creative to make him drop it- which always ends in teeth.

Therianthropy has always been a thing that I've had to mask and control in order to not get in trouble with humans around me. I have to hide it actively, not passively. And now I cant see my evil monster of a SIL because if I hear her talk about administering ABA "therapy" or being racist or sexist or ableist or whatever the fuck, I WILL attack her. This is like, advanced levels of bullshit she puts out, and Im no longer allowes to see her.

Because the last time I heard about her bullshit, I shifted, and my gaze changed, and my pupils actually narrowed to an absolute pinprick as I felt my vision tunnel and focus on my QPP telling me about his sister. He said I looked like an animal about to attack, and he felt afraid and not sure what to do. I *felt* like an animal about to attack. My body knew what to do when I heard something that made me feel like attacking someone, and narrowed my pupils to focus on my prey. It was kind of wild.

But uh. Yeah this is a thing, in case anyone else out there is struggling to feel seen in having similar shifts to mine. Ones that are about the hunt, the predatory drive, self defense, but all end in teeth and claws and sometimes severe consequences. Im not gonna glorify attacking people, but I will be frank about how often I have bitten people in response to being fucked with, or blacked out and hurt people bc they hurt me so bad the pain made me go berserk.

Shifts for me are often triggered by anger and self defense, come out in the form of me looking like an actual aggro'd predator animal, and are something I had to learn to control. Thats just how it is for some of us. This is why we need acceptance and support now, because animalfolk like us are gonna be the first on the chopping block, and are even stigmatized within our own communities. We're the ones who need the "coping with and control of therianthropy" resources the most, and those just dont seem to exist anymore? :(

[not-really-all-that-human]

Wait what are berserker shifts I've literally never heard of them until I saw 2 posts about them today