#bess rants

[bess-has-a-garden]

As soon as I try to get into SKZ stuff on Instagram it’s allllll minsung minsung minsung

can a girl not catch a break

[starset21]

I’m sorry (not sorry) if you see me reblogging several posts about Logan Sargeant cause wtf. I’m so sad for him, his radio messages with the team have been sad, the way they’ve treated him is sad.

It’s a business yes but they could’ve handled everything so so much better. Ima be so real I was really only supporting Williams because of him (I’m American) and while I’m ok with alex that’s honestly not enough for me to want to keep supporting them so bye bye Williams racing app

[chaiiro-me]

I really, really hate it when people bother you about who your crush is.

It’s so freaking annoying.

When I say no, they say, “are you sure?” and then they try to persuade you to reveal who it is when I’m really telling the truth that there. is. no. crush.

I mean, what good will people even gain from knowing about someone’s crush? Blackmail? Something to tirelessly tease them with?

[starset21]

If I can’t get into my fall classes would I be crazy to just take that semester off and work full time and come back in the spring and following fall to then get my AA? This is what’s going through my mind as I finished my final in one of my classes. Idk definitely not feeling great right now so I’m gonna go get some food and then find somewhere to read and try and relax

[chaiiro-me]

I’m writing the summary or the concept of my story so I can understand and plan but I can’t because my perfectionist self is acting like we’re already at the fucking ‘editing’ part when I haven't written a draft yet 

[a-tiny-bess]

idk if it was just me. but for a while, spending time on the wider internet and seeing political religious social discourse etc. had caused me, subconsciously, to believe that society was forever divided into two very distinct groups. the Righties and the Wrongies. And that the most important thing in the world is to be one of the Righties and being one of the Righties means having all the correct opinions on whatever the Internet-world is apparently currently discussing, while adamantly fending off the Wrongies and showing how stupid and futile their opinions are. And all your ideas about someone should flow from whether they're more of a Rightie or a Wrongie and so should all your ideas about yourself and how you should behave.

This wasn't explicitly told to me, nor did I realize that's what I was absorbing.

But then I started meeting more new people and interacting with more of Society and going on weird places like tumblr and realizing that in fact the world does not consist of upright and put-together Righties pitted against degenerate and depraved Wrongies

It consists of... that one mysterious neighbor who you don't know how to get close to because their life is so different from yours. It consists of the friend you have fundamentally diverging worldviews with but you stick together because you find something in each other you can't find anywhere else. It consists of weird uncles and very kindly but sometimes clueless grandmothers and troubled cousins and siblings you slowly learn to admire. It consists of people who want to reach out to others but are too lost in themselves and don't know how to change. People who want to know themselves but are too lost in others. People consumed by lust and greed. People leaving the dark and stepping out into the light, very slowly, one weak step at a time. People who talk like an asshole but have the kindest hearts of everyone you know. People who go to political protests and people who have no idea what the latest political hot topic is. People just trying to feed their families. People just trying to find themselves. Or trying to find God. Or trying to run away from him.

My point is, we're a scraggly and multicolored bunch, and it's both better for us and more interesting to maintain a mindset that can allow for all of us, instead of adopting a constant "us vs. them" mentality as many Internet (and real life) spaces can propagate.

[a-tiny-bess]

hot take but I don't think 15 yr olds should post pictures of themselves in bikinis on their public insta accounts!!!!!!

[a-tiny-bess]

when I don't even know him that well and he literally likes someone else and he's not even Catholic and I don't even want to date anytime in the next five years but also. I can't stop thinking about him and how kind and genuine and nerdy and sweet and devoted to his faith he is and I could imagine the two of us together and it's beautiful——————

This is why I write stories btw, so I can get my imagination out of daydream land and put it to better use—