#blitz rambles

[lexadrawsstuff]

Reverse Courting AU

Okay hear me out here;

Usually, you'll find moshang fics where Sqh is completely oblivious to Mbj's intentions and its (partly) because he's been trying to court sqh the demonic way, right?

I'm switching things up a little.

• Both are still pining hopelessly, of course. But! Sqh goes "fuck it, we ball. If I die I die" about his feelings and starts trying to date the FUCK out of Mbj.

• I'm talking taking him out to eat, going on outings, giving him flowers, gifts, doing things to make mbj's life easier, giving little good morning notes, maybe some holidays n stuff... lowkey realizing they've been doing couple things for a WHILE so hes having to get a bit creative here to show off okay?

• Lmao he could even try the whole "meeting the family" further down the line and just. Grimacing at literally ALL sides of that fiasco.

• Sqh starts this whole thing off with the thought: "what's the worse he can do? Kill me? I'll probably be well on my way to perishing if he rejects me anyways, he'll be doing a mercy kill at that point."

• Meanwhile, Mbj Has Not Realized wtf has been going on. Like, he keeps accepting everything (because ofc thats his due as king, if nothing else) so Sqh figures he's humoring him and letting him try to woo him properly. Sqh is ecstatic. Mbj thinks sqh has taken on his aid role with far more enthusiasm than usual.

• The main problem, I fear, is that Sqh has been spoiling Mbj lmao

• Like, my guy has gone above and beyond for Mbj, so when he steps up his game to court him, Mbj naturally thinks he just freaking promoted himself or something lmao.

• This goes on for years. Dear lord.

• Anyways, Sqh thinks they've been in a committed romantic relationship for years and is in the process of preparing a proposal, and Mbj is there, trying very hard to think of a way to woo his advisor and start courting him. (All attempts so far have been met with an exasperated [read:fond] sigh, that while don't outright reject him, show no other reaction [sqh thinks these are bouts of romantic moods, and it just spurrs him to get things ready for a proposal sooner. Clearly, his king wants him to put a ring on him].

[orbitblitz]

Yesterday, I noticed a small statue of a frog with fairy lights draped around it before going to work.

Busy day, lots of people go to Subway after voting, apparently. Couple people in MAGA hats I didn't make eye contact with, but still spoke politely to, as that was my job.

After trudging over to my mom's car, she looked at me, excited.

"Did you see Grandma?"

I looked over at her, puzzled.

"N-No?"

"What? How could you not see her?? I put lights around her and everything!"

I kind of laughed as I realized she was talking about the frog, which apparently had been sitting on the box with my grandma's ashes inside.

"For good luck," she said, laughing. "I told (my sister), and she said 'Put a frog on it!' I was telling (my aunt) about it and she couldn't stop laughing!"

We were both nervous about the election, but there was an air of "It'll be okay." Of confidence that it would never happen again.

Eight years ago, my mom and I lived in a trailer, as she could no longer afford the house we lived in. I was in high school, in the midst of the worst time period of my life, when I was awoken earlier than usual by my mom, who shakily told me, "She didn't win."

I couldn't fall back asleep. Through the rest of the day it sunk in, until I felt like throwing up. I looked at my fellow classmates, and I knew who some of them voted for, and who didn't vote at all.

Today, when my dog wanted to go outside at 6am, I asked my mom if she could take her, as usual. But then I saw her face, and the way she shuffled around, like her mind was somewhere else, I knew. I still asked. The answer was the same; "She didn't win."

Slowly, as I made my way back to bed and settled in, it all sunk in. I know more about the political landscape now, I know just how bad it can be and could get. I felt like throwing up.

Climate change. Abortion rights. Trans rights. Palestine, god, Palestine.

Project 2025.

What would get me first? An environmental apocalypse? Or our country's nosedive into fascism? Sure as hell won't be myself.

My nephew, my baby sister, god they have to grow up in this. More than anything I'm worried for them.

Now, I'm back in my living room, and the frog's still here. Grandma's still here. Last night, in the car, we were talking about the election, and a song popped up on Pandora. A Christmas song: "Be Not Afraid". My mom chuckled and said, "You know what, I'm going to take that as a sign!"

I wonder if it actually was; or if it was a cruel taunt from the universe. Or maybe, it was a message. Don't worry; it'll all work out.

Fuck I hope so.

But I also know that we as people like to think what we want to think, and fill in our gaps of knowledge in with our imagination. And what may be seen as a sign to some, may instead just be an unfortunate coincidence.

How contrary it is, though, to one day be thinking of lucky frogs and hidden messages in song titles, and the next to greet cold reality with an arguably more powerful sentiment.

I walked into the kitchen and read the note my mom left me before going to work:

-Check to see if prescription is ready

-Eat clementines

-Fuck it

[lelazyblitz]

Ehehehehe

Mauga from overwatch has inspired me to redraw a character of mine ehehe

[orbitblitz]

It's pretty late where I am, but hey! It's my birthday! I was hoping to post a finished drawing before the day was done, but that's not happening. Here's a quick sketch of Taka in the meantime! Might post some finished pics tomorrow.

In other news, I have a job interview tomorrow, which always makes me anxious, soooooo...... wish me luck and a low-stress day tomorrow I guess!

[orbitblitz]

Look, I know I don't talk much about it, but I am in love with the canon x canon ship Chimondo. It's just such a wholesome supportive pairing, and extremely tragic when you look at their relationship in the game.

I'm only bringing this up because I just went onto Danganronpa TikTok hoping to find some content for it, and ended up stumbling onto a whole lot of toxicity. Even one person saying it's ableist to ship it??? Because in the game Mondo killed Chihiro in a PTSD attack, and apparently shipping them de-legitimizes his PTSD??? Like??? I don't get this at all???

So yeah, if any of y'all wanna send some good vibes, some Chimondo content, or even just explain to me why the ship is considered toxic to so many people, that'd be stellar 💫

[orbitblitz]

Was havin a rough mental health day due to everything being so crazy in my life right now. My whole internal schedule has been wonky so to avoid future days like today I just wrote down a daily schedule of things I need to do every day so I can get a steady rhythm going. Don't know if that really made sense but I don't really care. I'm tired

Have a crudely-drawn motivational Taka 😴

[voidendron]

memes of the night:

we were missing some of our team, so decided to just have a chill night and run HM Eternity Vault, since we'll be missing some Friday, too (aka I'm going out with family) so we didn't wanna bother trying to get through Dxun prog while missing roster members

so. we had a fun-filled night of EV, and brought a new raider in who'd never done it before so we could teach them the mechanics!

fun-filled EV...with a catch

Gham and I agreed to play classes we didn't know/were considered Bad (she Was gonna play Arsenal, but ended up healing instead, but I still played the class she dared me to)

so that means I was on: Marksman (because even for Memes, she knows not to force me on melee lmfao)

I'm SO used to Virulence, I ran out of energy within like a minute on the Anni Droid and couldn't get it back for the rest of the fight, even with basic attacks and multiple adrenaline probes. it made me sad and Gham was laughing at me kjl;asdjklds

I did swap one of my tacticals to Energy Regulators after that, which Helped A Lot, but wow. I've completely forgotten how to play that class even though it was my original raiding main whoops-

also

naturally, you don't do a Catz/Zombies meme run without pulling all of the kitty cat adds getting to pylons. so Of Course we pulled them, what else are we supposed to do????

[voidendron]

Yes tumblr, because I totally want to see an ad of a litter box with shit in it on my dash 😑