28th April 2020
This is one of the most surreal times of my life. Living in Lockdown since 23rd March due to Coronavirus can only be described as if I’m living in a Hollywood movie, except it’s real.
Some days I manage to pass through the day giving this whole crazy situation the minimum about of thought. Other days I’m consumed by the enormousness of it all, reading every article and imagining every negative scenario.
I can thankfully say at the moment we haven’t directly been impacted by one of the heartbreaking number of deaths and I can only hope that all my loved ones stay safe.
The strange thing is, is that pre Covid our future has always been uncertain, but we lived with that knowledge everyday generally unaffected by the thought that our future is not promised. However now in this state of restriction and fear having this uncertain future has now become scary and hard to accept.
We have been lucky to live a relatively free life up until now, in a country that has food, running water, schools and homes. We have taken for granted our health system, our environment, our planet, our freedom. It’s humbling on some levels to strip it back and see what’s important to you, your family, your goals. I’ve definitely done a lot of self reflection.
Now I find myself in this slight ‘groundhog day’ life, battling with making each day count and simply going with the flow. It’s hard and some days are harder than others.
I am grateful and lucky that I get to spend my days with a man I love and my 3 amazing humans that all have a special place on this planet.
I am incredibly thankful to every person that’s making a positive difference right now, it restores my faith in human kindness. Some truly beautiful stories will be told about this time.
Whilst being fully aware of the seriousness of this ‘pandemic’ that we are living in, if I begin to think past today I loose my footing. So trying to remain present is my mantra. Love is my armour and trust, in that life is unfolding as it should be. These all helps me accept this invasion that side swiped our blissfully unaware lives we once lived.
I continue to hope that everyone I love remains healthy and happy and one day we find our new normal, whilst not forgetting the journey we took to get to it and the values we hold close to us.
Living during the Coronavirus is one crazy ride.
