Listen, there’s not a lot going on in my life rn, but there’s enough that i have a Laundry List of things I want to talk about. Here’s that list, so I can stay focused and you know what you’re in for.
- How awesome my friends are
- the Book Cellar how I feel about it and what that means to me in conjunction with things I’ve been through in the past
-other sundry thoughts that float through my brain from time to time.
No readmores, bc fuck you, basically. Ya wanna skip this post? Click the screen and then hit J.
My friends are so insanely cool? Copper helps me w/ sorting out who’s whose in the geek squad and thus who to go to with questions, they’ll answer questions for me if they can so I don’t have to approach new people, and they are just??? so incredibly ridiculously supportive and forgiving and kind??? I literally sent them a package at the wrong address and their response was essentially “well this Not Ideal but we’ll make do.” and that is??? so much calmer and nicer??? than I could ever be in that situation??? Copper is so good and kind and pure and I am so grateful every single day that i am lucky enough to know them, even if it has to be via the Internet.
Sadie is also. just so ridiculously Good? w/ ppl like sadie + copper (artists/ skilled at all and good at it) i normally follow them and just. lay low. but Sadie contacted me about some kindhearted tags i wrote about her OCs and then i was just “well I’m on her Radar now, may as well make the most of it” so i started sending her “fanart” (a filthy meme) and messages and then we were friends? And after the meme, I followed other Geek Squad creators and then Copper followed me back and i found out we were the same age and could relate to each other on a buncha fronts and then??? friendship??? All because sades doodled a +/- throwaway comic about Citlal and raff having a simulated mother/child friendship relationship and i could relate to both sides of that so I just. articulated that? AND NOW MY LIFE IS 10000% IMPROVED FOR IT THANK YOU BASED SADIE
I have other friends on here , but i just. really wanted to gush abt those two. If we’re friends on here and you want me to sing your praises, please let me know and i’ll do so! All my friends, online or off, are A+ (meaning i have things like this I can say abt literally all of my friends), but I just wanted to highlight Copper and sadie rn.
kay, if you’ve followed me/ my previous blog for a few years, you know that in middle school and early high school, I had the most fantastic happy place. It was called AGCC, and it was perfect for me. I was basically a camp counsellor for girls aged 6-13, and we made arts and crafts and talked about American girl dolls and reading for like. 3 hours at a time. It was fantastic, and then i came out as bi and I got banned.
I haven’t volunteered as a part of an organization, or almost at all, since. I hate to get sappy, but.. it was almost like a really bad breakup? It broke my heart that I’d lost something that i enjoyed so much and held so dear over something I can’t fucking control.
Last april, I applied to volunteer for a bookstore run by local library as a sort of permanent fundraiser. It’s entirely volunteer-run and donation-supported, whether it be books, grocery bags, or an actual monetary donation. Last week, I had my very first shift there, and it was so good. It’s literally in a cellar, so it’s underground and very cool. It has so many books, for dirt cheap. There are even a few rare ones, and we sell them for around 30-40% off the price on Amazon! It’s quiet, everyone speaks in soft tones and is so nice, there are regulars and there’s classical music playing softly in the bg most of the time, it is just so good. I actually asked the head scheduler if there was a maximum amount of time one could volunteer there in a month bc I have nothing else to do this summer on weekends p much so why not be there as much as possible? And it’s right across the street from the best baker y in town and i thought why not make this my new happy place?
That is a huge marker of growth from AGCC. i didn’t think any volunteer job could make me as happy as AGCC once did- still don’t, honestly, but this time I think I’m okay there, even being queer. Like, I’m not gonna get banned for smoochin cute girls. And it’s.. pretty close, honestly. Pretty close to where I was at AGCC, which is more than I’ve gotten from a specific job since.
I’m so proud of myself for this, and so excited for whatever this job holds/may bring!