Mental Health Month, Week 1 (Days 1 - 6)
Well, it is Mental Health month, and I kind of want to join... I thought this was a post one thing each week related, but apparently, it can be one thing each day, so I will try to include these 6 days I missed. I hope it is okay
I will start with the thing I usually did back then, whenever a friend needed luck for a final exam or a presentation or strength to overcome a hardship, which was
(~ ^_^)~ ==*==*==*==*==*
This was always me transmitting strength and luck to my dearest of friends.
A GIF that, doesn’t necessarily calm me, but that does make me smile whenever I am feeling very low, is one of Dan Avidan, smiling, waving at you. He is one of my favorite people out there because he is just so lovely and amazing. As his Instagram says: “... lover of people everywhere,” and let’s not forget his voice and laugh. He just makes me happy.
A thing, or things that never fail to cheer me up... there are many things out there. My love for books is one of them. My bookshelf in my room was a new addition the last week of 2016, but if something there never fails to cheer me up is the Harry Potter series. Reading those books have been my saving grace, and while the Shadowhunter books have had a similar effect, I can for certain say Harry Potter always has been there for me. I have reread the series thousands of times and it will always help.
Another thing I have realized not so long ago was that I am important. Once I was talking to my dearest of friends, Anthony, and I will never forget when I told him that I was worth saving. After facing a very hard thing, which was the reject of my mother regarding my sexuality, and the fact that I have to keep hidden from that part of me while at my own house, which is something that is not the best, I came out of it stronger, knowing I was important and worth saving. I still have my hardships and it is very hard for me to remind myself of what I told Anthony, but deep down I know I am
Posting a selfie in this site is a very big deal for me cuz I often try to hide how I look like. For a huge amount of time and would usually use a picture of Nico di Angelo, who is the character I identify with the most. Right now I have Will Herondale which I also strongly identify with.
A list of things I like about myself... there’s never much I can think of but I believe that the fact that I can think of some things is all that matters: I love my hair, the color of my eyes up close (something I had never seen till recently), the love I feel for my close friends and important people to me.
Five acts of self-care I will promise myself to do next week, cuz this week is ending. This will be harsh, but I do promise myself that I won’t do the following four things, the fifth is just to my eyes, and I know I do it many times when alone and I promise myself not to do it because I am not giving myself the validity I have. The four things: I will accept things as they are, and not become a passive recipient of these, but accepting them so I can let them go (I can’t talk with someone all week and that’s okay and normal). I will cherish my friends, and not isolate and walk away when I see them. I love my friends and I am sure they love me too. Sometimes people need people, and that’s okay (is that what they said in History Is All You Left Me? Hopefully. I am writing it from memory). I will also not be as harsh towards myself. I did my best on the senior project and whatever will happen is for the best; if I have to take it again it is an opportunity of being more active and not freezing in the face of fear (this one will be the hardest but I promise myself I will try. My last promise will be to drink more water and keep myself clean.
