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Bath shot has just passed 7k words and FINALLY reached the smut
what took me so long?
I had to include a back massage from Boromir in excruciating detail
not being able to medically transition at all makes me feel like a fake trans person. wanting to transition to androgyny and remain a masculine nonbinary person instead of a binary trans man makes me feel like a fake trans person. being okay with my femininity sometimes or even accentuating it makes me feel like a fake trans person.
but the truth is i am a real and valid trans person. gender is complicated, and in some cases, fluid. its a broad spectrum that everyone experiences differently. just because my gender or transition goals are not binary doesnt mean i am not valid
It's been a rough few months. I'm very grateful to the people in my life who have encouraged me to keep going, and who have assured me that I matter and have a place at the table and in their hearts. This goes tenfold for my husband, who show me great kindness even when I feel at my worst. Thank you. Each and every one of you are among the reasons I will keep going. You far outnumber the reasons to give in. Every one of you that has reached out to check on me, tagged me in something, or stopped in just to say hello, have reminded me that I am being thought of and missed. That I'm not broken, that my feelings matter, that my thoughts matter. That I'm not invisible, and that my absence is noticed and my presence desired. It warms my heart and assures me that after my time in the trenches, I will have people to return to - people who care.
This is also the last thing I will draw in this apartment. We're cutting off the internet and turning it on in the new house, so my study will be dismantled by tomorrow. I've lived here for six years, and on and off in this building for ten years. I'm moving to a better place (a house I can call my own), and I'm extremely fortunate to be in this position. That being said, on top of convention work, my full time job, personal projects, health issues, financial issues, and interpersonal issues, it's become more a source of stress than a source of joy. This is meant to be an exciting milestone in my life, but instead of feeling the delight of anticipation, most of my days have been filled with dread, stress, frustration, and often, tears. Sometimes I feel rather lonely, and I struggle more than I usually do to accomplish simple tasks. I always try to do my best, but lately, I've often felt as though my best falls far short. Well, shorter than usual.
I'll still have my phone to access the internet, but there likely won't be much activity or new art from me until we're done moving house. I'm hoping that by March I can be drawing again and will have more progress on pieces for conventions. Hell, maybe I can finish editing my doujinshi script and storyboard more of it.
In the meantime, take care of yourselves out there. Reach out to the people you care about and remind them that they matter to you. You never know what someone is going through, and how much impact your kindness can have.
The wind never stops, so neither will I.
it’s always so funny when i remember it’s mania monday because my first reaction is always thank FUCK it’s mania monday it’s been a long fucking week i really needed this
on mania monday
i know a lot of words people may call fancy
i'm also a fucking idiot
we exist
Just to inform people, I realize that this is a bit of a stupid post but I commonly get asked, “why aren’t you married” or “why aren’t you in a relationship” and well… the answer is simple, I’ve dated before and I didn’t like it, I get disgusted by the idea of sex and naturally I just don’t like intercourse. Yes, I’ve had sex on multiple occasion but I never really cared for it, and it’s hard to be friends with people who are in relationships. So don’t get me wrong, I love fictional characters and actors but dating people isn’t me, it never will be and I’m honestly really proud of that. I get told that I am confused all the time and for once, I know I’m right and that I’m at peace. I am an aromatic and a proud one, for other aromatics, I want to encourage them all to be themselves and to not be ashamed of their sexuality. WE ARE VALID!