I’m seeing my psychiatrist tomorrow and I’m so fucking anxious about the appointment. I typically see her once a month and I wasn’t supposed to see her til the 8th but because I stopped taking my meds and have been struggling lately she suggested meeting sooner. In therapy I feel like I kind of made it sound like me not taking my meds was a way to get back at my psychiatrist for not responding to my email. I tried to backpedal and explain it as I hadn’t taken them for a couple days, emailed her, realized it was the weekend (excuse for her lack of responding), made the decision to keep not taking them and then once I started to get “angry/annoyed” with her not replying it was sort of like a mini excuse or maybe not even an excuse at all like I had already made up my mind I was done with the Viibryd.
Ugh I just hope my therapist didn’t immediately touch base with my psychiatrist cause I don’t want to go into my appointment tomorrow with thinking she’s even more mad at me than she already is.
Anyone else worry about seeming “better” during your appointment and your provider being like “okay you’re fine, what was that dramatic email/behavior all about before? You’re just wasting my time, you didn’t need to see me sooner, you’re fine”.
Thank god my girlfriend will be at work. Can’t remember the last time I had the apartment to myself for an appointment!!